I just had a comment on the blog that made me realize something most people may not understand. Twin flame soul mates are relationships of the "soul". They are not brought together because they have similar backgrounds, are in the same social circle, or are attracted to one another on physical attributes alone.
Something inside of you magnetically draws you to your flame. That magnet of attraction resides in the "soul" itself.
Telepathy is common, because it is the soul vibration that makes it most accessible. Resonating frequencies always will "find" each other. It doesn't matter if you live in Germany and your twin flame is living in Columbia. The "soul" part, that spiritual part of you, is in contact always.
Most of you that have followed the blog and perhaps have even read my book, know that I spoke about that soul connection with Michael when he lived. In that book I ended it with the statement Michael himself made about his death. The conversations and experiences have continued, even though I never thought they would.
That continuance has included seeing and feeling Michael's past lives, including this one. Something that I feel is closely associated with the I AM presence of both of us. That joining, the joining in the soul and in the all, permits the joining also of the experiences of each part of the soul. As most of you know, Michael was murdered. That has been the sole reason I started this blog to begin with.
After Michael passed and I viewed his past lives, I thought he was gone to where he needed to be. Where ever that was. Yet he continued to visit. He appeared in full apparition several times in front of me, has kissed me on the cheek, and has even been in my dreams and in waking, with visions of him on the "other side". We have still been in close association. In some ways, closer than when he lived. I feel more things from him and know him better than I did when he lived in the flesh.
I have to tell you, however, that when he did pass I wanted him to "move on". I didn't want to hold him here with thoughts of regrets of what had not transpired or because he felt he needed to help me. In the beginning that was his only reason for being here with me, or so he said.
I not only questioned him, but I questioned my teacher. I didn't know how much of a relationship Michael himself had with my teacher Saint Germain, but I felt he would be honest with me enough to tell me what I should do about Michael's continuing presence in my life. One that I didn't want to have if it made Michael himself sad or feel like he "owed" me something.
After a couple of years of going through my own struggles and after the death of Elizabeth Taylor, it was apparent Michael was still around me. Elizabeth herself came to me and explained that the things they did to Michael were horrible, just horrible. When she told me I remember feeling frozen. Something had happened, even more than what I had believed at the time, and I was afraid. Michael had told me before he died that he thought someone was trying to kill him. When I asked him who it was, he didn't know. With the information from Elizabeth and knowing of his presence, her words quite literally shuttered my soul.
I was getting a divorce the month before Michael passed. He offered me a home. He wanted to help me and wouldn't let up with offering something. He was redoing his will, he said. Something he had told me, but that I didn't find confirmation for until just recently. His presence with me is always loving and caring. He looks out for me, guides me on life things, and says he will take care of me. Not many people in my life have held up to their word, but I can say with certainty that Michael has in every way and every moment.
So when I asked Saint Germain what I should do, it wasn't for me, it was for Michael. What was it that I could tell him for him to be happy? How should I handle the situation? In my mind, Michael needed to be at peace and move on. Yet Saint Germain told me with great sadness that it would be best for me to continue working with Michael. Our unfinished business was not complete.
Years before that Michael had fled to Bahrain. It was after the child molestation trial and he was fed up with the government and accusations. I didn't want him to be away, but did want him to rest. If you've ever been through the legal system even, a little bit, you'll know it takes a great deal out of you. Amp that up about 100 times and put your trial in front of the world, and you'll come to know it's utterly unbearable.
After some resting and being out of the country, I began to get worried. What if he died and we never met? What if he died or I died and we had unfinished business? I started to plead with him to come home to the states. I wanted him to face what was here. That's part of our soul work. We can't run, as much as we sometimes want to. We have to face our fears and overcome them.
Michael did come home. It was in December, I believe of 2005. The news was not announced until January of the next year, but I was relieved. At the time I didn't know how much of an importance it would have on my own life. If it's true that twin souls are part of the same soul, it would hold to reason so are their experiences and karma.
It seems like a lot, I know. Not only your own experiences, but those of your counterpart, all wrapped up in the same soul. Yet Saint Germains words to me and the sharing of both Michael's past lives through myself and seeing my own life in review, tells me that we share our karma, lifetimes, and lessons. This might help you understand why it's so important for me to clarify and seek justice for Michael's murder. We have had lifetimes of murder and betrayal. The cycle needs to end and it will end with the truth being known for him, for me and all the lives around us that have been affected. His children need closure, as do I. There is simply no other way for my life to continue without it. That's why I'm here. That's why I write for him and that's why I will continue to serve the brotherhood and Saint Germain as best I can. They have been the caretakers for our very souls. From the beginning to the end and everything in between.
The next time you think of your twin flame soul mate, know that they too are going through their own personal struggles. The higher you can reach, the more resilient you can become, the more you help them too.
Michael had always been resilient in his life. When I expressed my concern about one of us dying to him, even after the death of Princess Diana, in 1997, he simply said "No", he wouldn't let it happen. He'd come back down. The next thing I knew, he had released the "Invincible" album. The one that he photographed "Blue Eye" for and the one photo that was released by his family. The "Blue Eye" photo was the identical concept for my first book about our experiences that I used for my cover in 1998. The actual photo used was even more "identical". It was the cover depicted below, only one eye was blue and the other was brown.
This is Michael's song "Heaven Can Wait", from his album "Invincible" released in 2001. True twin flames never leave each other. Some even stay behind and wait, while their unfinished business is being taken care of.
Something inside of you magnetically draws you to your flame. That magnet of attraction resides in the "soul" itself.
Telepathy is common, because it is the soul vibration that makes it most accessible. Resonating frequencies always will "find" each other. It doesn't matter if you live in Germany and your twin flame is living in Columbia. The "soul" part, that spiritual part of you, is in contact always.
Most of you that have followed the blog and perhaps have even read my book, know that I spoke about that soul connection with Michael when he lived. In that book I ended it with the statement Michael himself made about his death. The conversations and experiences have continued, even though I never thought they would.
That continuance has included seeing and feeling Michael's past lives, including this one. Something that I feel is closely associated with the I AM presence of both of us. That joining, the joining in the soul and in the all, permits the joining also of the experiences of each part of the soul. As most of you know, Michael was murdered. That has been the sole reason I started this blog to begin with.
After Michael passed and I viewed his past lives, I thought he was gone to where he needed to be. Where ever that was. Yet he continued to visit. He appeared in full apparition several times in front of me, has kissed me on the cheek, and has even been in my dreams and in waking, with visions of him on the "other side". We have still been in close association. In some ways, closer than when he lived. I feel more things from him and know him better than I did when he lived in the flesh.
I have to tell you, however, that when he did pass I wanted him to "move on". I didn't want to hold him here with thoughts of regrets of what had not transpired or because he felt he needed to help me. In the beginning that was his only reason for being here with me, or so he said.
I not only questioned him, but I questioned my teacher. I didn't know how much of a relationship Michael himself had with my teacher Saint Germain, but I felt he would be honest with me enough to tell me what I should do about Michael's continuing presence in my life. One that I didn't want to have if it made Michael himself sad or feel like he "owed" me something.
After a couple of years of going through my own struggles and after the death of Elizabeth Taylor, it was apparent Michael was still around me. Elizabeth herself came to me and explained that the things they did to Michael were horrible, just horrible. When she told me I remember feeling frozen. Something had happened, even more than what I had believed at the time, and I was afraid. Michael had told me before he died that he thought someone was trying to kill him. When I asked him who it was, he didn't know. With the information from Elizabeth and knowing of his presence, her words quite literally shuttered my soul.
I was getting a divorce the month before Michael passed. He offered me a home. He wanted to help me and wouldn't let up with offering something. He was redoing his will, he said. Something he had told me, but that I didn't find confirmation for until just recently. His presence with me is always loving and caring. He looks out for me, guides me on life things, and says he will take care of me. Not many people in my life have held up to their word, but I can say with certainty that Michael has in every way and every moment.
So when I asked Saint Germain what I should do, it wasn't for me, it was for Michael. What was it that I could tell him for him to be happy? How should I handle the situation? In my mind, Michael needed to be at peace and move on. Yet Saint Germain told me with great sadness that it would be best for me to continue working with Michael. Our unfinished business was not complete.
Years before that Michael had fled to Bahrain. It was after the child molestation trial and he was fed up with the government and accusations. I didn't want him to be away, but did want him to rest. If you've ever been through the legal system even, a little bit, you'll know it takes a great deal out of you. Amp that up about 100 times and put your trial in front of the world, and you'll come to know it's utterly unbearable.
After some resting and being out of the country, I began to get worried. What if he died and we never met? What if he died or I died and we had unfinished business? I started to plead with him to come home to the states. I wanted him to face what was here. That's part of our soul work. We can't run, as much as we sometimes want to. We have to face our fears and overcome them.
Michael did come home. It was in December, I believe of 2005. The news was not announced until January of the next year, but I was relieved. At the time I didn't know how much of an importance it would have on my own life. If it's true that twin souls are part of the same soul, it would hold to reason so are their experiences and karma.
It seems like a lot, I know. Not only your own experiences, but those of your counterpart, all wrapped up in the same soul. Yet Saint Germains words to me and the sharing of both Michael's past lives through myself and seeing my own life in review, tells me that we share our karma, lifetimes, and lessons. This might help you understand why it's so important for me to clarify and seek justice for Michael's murder. We have had lifetimes of murder and betrayal. The cycle needs to end and it will end with the truth being known for him, for me and all the lives around us that have been affected. His children need closure, as do I. There is simply no other way for my life to continue without it. That's why I'm here. That's why I write for him and that's why I will continue to serve the brotherhood and Saint Germain as best I can. They have been the caretakers for our very souls. From the beginning to the end and everything in between.
The next time you think of your twin flame soul mate, know that they too are going through their own personal struggles. The higher you can reach, the more resilient you can become, the more you help them too.
Michael had always been resilient in his life. When I expressed my concern about one of us dying to him, even after the death of Princess Diana, in 1997, he simply said "No", he wouldn't let it happen. He'd come back down. The next thing I knew, he had released the "Invincible" album. The one that he photographed "Blue Eye" for and the one photo that was released by his family. The "Blue Eye" photo was the identical concept for my first book about our experiences that I used for my cover in 1998. The actual photo used was even more "identical". It was the cover depicted below, only one eye was blue and the other was brown.
This is Michael's song "Heaven Can Wait", from his album "Invincible" released in 2001. True twin flames never leave each other. Some even stay behind and wait, while their unfinished business is being taken care of.
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I have been reading your blog since I found it in a spiritual forum and I really feel like I have to comment, now. Ever since 2012, I've been going through a similar experience as yours. I found out that an international popstar was my Twin Flame and we started telepathic communication in March. Everything just seemed to get crazier from then on out, I met someone online up also had a celebrity twin flame and she started to communicate telepathically with him and confirming things I had been experiencing. There were past life dreams, I felt him touch me, he tried to give me messages in dreams, it was the craziest thin I have ever gone through and also the most exciting.
Thank you for reading and I'm glad you found the site. It's not an easy path for sure. If you have a flame in the public eye much discretion needs to be had. There is usually one that knows before the other, so remember; always allow the blossoming to be on it's own. Never push a meeting or connection. Your most precious part of yourself and your bond will be internal via the soul. Use that to learn, to explore and to ponder in the bliss. I hope that some of my posts might help you on your journey. And, thank you for being brave enough to "come out". I know it's hard to even write about these things, even if it's just anonymously. :) Much love to you and yours always! xxoo :)
It occurred to me that we had a mission together, and that in past lives we always failed. From what I remember, we were always killed. I'm not sure what the mission is, but he seems to know. He says that when we do it, we need to be together and well prepared. I'm trying to find him so that I can complete this mission.
Then you must know that when you are "together", meaning united in spirit via the soul, the bond can no longer be broken. You are stronger, a force of god, that is the strength needed to commit to and accomplish the mission. Many forces, including people, will try to intercept that mission, for when the force of a great love is at hand so are the forces of evil. You're journey then should be in reaching upward to your own mighty god presence. It's in the I AM that you will find your individual strength before you can unite with him and be joined forever to complete your mission. Don't do this in haste, but in constancy. Constancy reaching upward for your highest. It's there that you will find your best guide, strength, and twin. I hope that helps. I know the feeling of the mission is strong and we often try to grasp what that might be with our minds. Let it come to you. Like a flower in bloom you will open to it, not force the opening. I'm very happy for you and wish you much light and love for your union this time arounnd. xxoo :)
I feel that I have a twin flame that is also in the public eye. She's an actor and I started talking to her on Twitter. I've had some strange things happen with her that I can't explain. I kept and still keep going back and forth about if this is real or am I going "crazy". It's hard to believe...let alone the fact that she's a public figure. I just couldn't believe I was getting that close to her...even though it was just on a social network. I had to deal with some of her jealous fans too. They kept telling me that she was just being nice and that she didn't mean anything that she said to me and that I took what she said the wrong way. They kept stressing the fact that with her being in the public eye that it was highly improbable to be with her. It's like they were trying to overcompensate their attempts to get me to stay away from her. Are those the evil forces that are trying to keep us apart? She just recently got married...to a man...and I felt like they have succeeded. She's a lesbian by the way. She's trying to keep up an image I think. Anyway...how can you handle jealous fans when your twin just happens to work in Hollywood?
Thank you for your comment. There are all kinds of connections of varying degrees when we speak of the soul. A twin flame soul relationship will only be felt by the two and you will just "know" that the connection is there. When a twin flame is in the public eye it's a delicate matter. First you have to deal with what may be fascination and what is really transpiring. Then there are the countless others who feel they too have a connection in the same way you do. They are fans and feel that everyone feels like they do. This part is just human nature. They put a celebrity on top and tend to idealize that person. A flame relationship runs deeper, yet a person not experiencing that depth of connection is not able to understand it simply because they haven't had the experience. This is sacred and a part of your soul journey. The way to deal with jealous fans is not to deal with them at all. Everyone will always have their own ideas and concepts about what their personal connection is to a celebrity. Let them. You won't change them and you don't need to. The most important part is using the connection for your own discovery and personal soul growth. You don't need to explain yourself, get confirmation from the fans or even tell them who you believe you are. If this person is a flame the relationship will be between the two of you - not the fans anyway. Coming out on this blog was two fold for me. In the beginning I just wanted to make sure people knew Michael was murdered. Being connected to him in this way spiritually, I thought would help prove that as well as the miraculous relationship that everyone has within the soul. It's another level of consciousness. But not everyone retains that level and everyone has their own idea of what a twin flame soul mate is. Some are very far from what it truly is. That said, you simply have to view the fans as people all with a need for a connection. Be it through a celebrity or personal relationship, we all seek connections. Fans somehow think that because you may make such a claim you are taking away from them. Nothing could be farther from the truth. Your connection does not diminish theirs, it's only a mirror to what they already hold in their thoughts. That would be in their head, not yours. Those thoughts and beliefs are from their experiences and beliefs as are yours and there is where we find the difference. You most likely view this "celebrity" as a person. They are people, touchable, and real. They have needs and seek connection too. Most likely that's why your twin has married. It's a fitting in when it comes down to it and a sense of belonging. That's what everyone wants. The difference is where you define yourself. Is it fitting in with outer society or fitting in with what you know in your soul? Deepak Chopra has said our true reality lies behind a veil of doubt. It seems as if you might have received a glimpse. I encourage you to explore what it is inside of you, without needing to reach out to her. If and when this flame is ready, she will reach out to you. And you will once again find yourself in disbelief that something so "coincidental" can actually happen. It won't be coincidental, it will be divine timing. Best to you on your journey xxoo :)
I don't think she has anything for this man she married. I think it's all for show because she has her own tv show. I have experienced the 11:11 phenomenon with this...but it didn't happen until we stopped talking to each other. I stopped talking to her because she hurt me when she got married. Her fans were laughing at me and rubbed her engagement in my face. That felt like jealousy to me. What I felt with her is nothing like what her fans felt. I had this feeling in my heart tell me that she is the one but I still doubt it. There were times where I thought I wanted to give up on her and she tweeted me back right after feeling that way. It's like her soul heard me or something. I felt that God or Source led me to her because I was looking at one of her pictures one night and all of a sudden I felt this strange jolt in my heart chakra. It hit me so hard to the point where it made me move a little bit. It was weird. Even before all that I felt she was looking for me because of the kind of things she would say in interviews. I really did feel that she was searching for me. The number sequences kind of stopped. But when I was seeing them...it was never ending. I was seeing all kinds. Like 11:11, 1114, 1212, 333, 555, 1221, 1122, 122, 211, 411, etc. I feel like I'm going insane. Every time I looked at the clock there was some kind of number sequence. I get mentally exhausted thinking about her all the time. Even though she's a celebrity, she's not famous. Which works for me because I don't want that kind of attention. I just want her. I believe her fans got jealous because when I tweeted her it wasn't about her show...it was just general things. Like "Hi. How are you doing?" type stuff. I also saw on a site called fan pop and a fan said that she was deeply in love with someone and I broke down after that and when I did, this thought hit me hard. It said "That person is YOU." I don't know. Maybe I'm going crazy. I feel like I'm living in an illusion when it comes to this. It all seems so unreachable. I love her. I really do. I feel her tugging on my heart strings sometimes. I've had dreams about her that were really vivid. How can she have something for this guy if she is a lesbian?
I understand how you would feel hurt. But remember, there is a conscious reality that is here on the earth plane first and foremost. Our other true reality is that of the soul. Soul love is eternal. Many of us have had past lovers, marriages, and partners, not necessarily and more than likely not with our twin flames. Those unions occur differently and when they do it's not a "normal" relationship. These are relationships of the soul. That bond is never broken, whether married or in love with another. In my opinion, there is no other love but that of God, or a twin ray that is greater than a flame love. It is eternal and giving in love unconditionally. When you say she is a lesbian, it doesn't mean too much to me. Flames must balance the masculine and feminine within before union, so in some ways it doesn't surprise me that she would marry a man. It's learning. I wouldn't let labels get in the way of what you already know. If this is real, you'll most likely be surprised to find that you knew the truth the whole time. Not many people wear their hearts on their sleeves, but twins do have a way of just "knowing" how the other is and feeling. Have faith, you're not going crazy. You're just beginning to notice some things aren't the way we've been told they should be. I was married and knew Michael was my flame. In our physical reality it would have made sense for me to just divorce and go be with him. But that's not how it works. It's more complicated when it comes to these unions. Soul unions come gradually. There is a wholeness of self that must be sought first. That could include karmic ties, lessons and the very purpose of the flames as well. There are many factors that you may not see at this time, but if you leave it in the hands of faith and give yourself to the will of God, I'm sure you'll find yourself in the hands that can guide you best. I know it feels crazy, but they also thought Christopher Columbus was crazy when he first said the world was round. <3
I can't tell my friends and family this because they won't understand and they will look at me like I'm crazy. I tried telling them how I was feeling because I had no one else to talk to and all they would say is that I was either star struck or obsessed and that's not even the case. I know what I feel. When she got engaged, she didn't tweet any of her fans for a week and I got blamed for it. Her fans really don't like me. I think it's the evil forces trying to drive me away from her. This is really strange because I went through a very identical experience with a girl I went to high school with and was doing some research on why I was going through this again and I couldn't find much. Did I not learn my lesson the last time? Is it possible that she didn't complete her mission and that's why I'm continuing it? Was she a false twin or karmic soul mate? I don't know. All I know is that I'm going through the same thing with the celeb and it's very confusing. My mom thinks it's my fault I'm going through this. She blames me for everything. That's why I stopped telling her. I feel isolated and alone. If I do tell someone that is going through the same thing, I have to not tell them that who I think is my twin flame is a celeb because they would either not believe me or they would just stop talking to me. I doesn't make sense to me. It's not a big deal. She's a human being. Not some immortal God. Yes I did look at her like she was a human being and I fell in love with that. We are still not talking and it's really agonizing that she never gave me any kind of explanation for her choice. I wished her a happy birthday in October and she didn't even acknowledge me. I don't know what her issue is. I'm listening to a Michael Jackson song while I type this by the way lol
Well I'm glad that you're listening to Michael atleast! lol
I'm so sorry you feel alone. It is a lonely journey and not many people do find people to confide in. Hopefully you will meet others like myself on the net that you can converse with to help you.
A lot of the work that I'm trying to do on the blog is with breaking down patterns. Those patterns need to be cleared before union with a flame; at least to a certain extent. If you've had this experience with someone else you very well might have something deep inside you that is drawing these situations and/or people to you. If your mother blames you for everything, you might want to distance yourself and read some self help books to get you past possible feelings of low self worth and maybe even feeling like you have to prove yourself to someone to be loveable. I don't say that as if I know you, I say that because many of us have gone through similar situations. First and foremost you must take care of you. Flames are imperfect people with egos too. I have no doubt many people in your life have no idea how much they have hurt you. Most people operate from a sense of self only, rarely putting themselves in the other persons shoes. Let this situation with this girl settle. You can't mastermind these kinds of things..that's actually reminding ME of a Michael song. Listen to "Can't Let Her Get Away"..you might really resonate with it.. This stuff doesn't stop, as much as we think we'd like it to sometimes. So please take it with as much stride as you can. Let it happen naturally as hard as that is and don't try to figure it out. Ego says we have to "DO" something, but nature always has it's season. Feel free to write anytime. I know it's difficult and lonely. <3 xxoo ;)
My mother is a huge Michael Jackson fan. She grew up on his music! I was listening to a remix SWV did of his Human Nature song. :)
I seem to be attracting women who is afraid to be their true selves. They are trapped in the closet for some odd reason. The last girl I think was closeted because she had really religious parents. The one that I'm in love with now is in the closet because she's afraid that if she comes out as a lesbian, she will put her job in jeopardy. You and I both know how messy Hollywood can be. I saw how Hollywood treated Michael. I felt really bad for him. I was once closeted myself. Can that be a reason I keep attracting these kinds of women? I've been an out and proud lesbian going on 9 years now and I don't regret coming out. I don't know what can be inside of me that's keeping me drawn to these types of women. I'm no longer closeted so that can't be it. I don't know if it was your site or someone else's site but...I've read that the Law of Attraction works by attracting what you ARE and not what you WANT which kind of makes sense and since I was a closet case myself, I will know and connect with my twin deeper because I understand a little bit about not feeling accepted and scared of being ridiculed by society. Am I wrong for feeling angry at her? I felt that she humiliated me in front of those jealous fans of hers. They laughed at me and everything.
First, you're never wrong for "feeling" a certain way. The question is more "why" you felt that way. When you can answer that then you can work back from it. It really boils down to what you internalized from the experienced, what it made you feel and why.
I too believe in the law of attraction, but there are some other things in the universe that also bring us into other peoples lives. Sometimes it's not just about you, it's about them. Maybe you have been brought into their lives to teach them or mirror what they could be. Most likely to say it's ok to be who they are. You never know how you have effected someone elses life, even through the littlest of things. Keep loving and keep being you. xxoo :)
I was told that I have no right to be angry at her because she didn't do anything wrong. I mean after all that pain this person caused me, this "friend" had the nerve to say that. She said I had no right to be mad at her because she didn't know about my feelings. Well...if we're twin flames...how can she not know? Aren't twin flames suppose to know when they have found their other half? I've felt it. I heard a little voice tell me that she was the one I was looking for. Even though I had several dreams about who I think is my twin, there is this one dream that stuck out the most. I was on Facebook and she contacted me out of the blue. It was like she was trying to pose as someone else. Like she didn't want me to know it was her...but I knew it was her. Anyway, she was telling me that this marriage she was in was part of her job description and that I was crazy to think that she had feelings for this guy. Then I replied back to her and said, "But your fans said you didn't love me" and she replied back and said to not listen to them and what they said was silly. SO you see. That's what it appears to be happening right here in the physical world. She doesn't communicate to me that much in dreams. I wonder why.
And to add to that last comment I sent...if it's one of my purposes to help them be who they are and they don't come out, I feel like I failed one of my life purposes. That's free will in full effect. Free will seems to have the ability to let people ignore their true selves. There are some people that went to their graves living a lie because of their free will. We all have freedom to choose. That's the kicker. If my twin decides to continue to live a lie, I can't be with her and that worries me. A lot.
It is inevitable to be hurt. That's part of our growing process and learning. If you are true to the path of the flame, you'll learn to love unconditionally. It sounds like even though you were hurt you still do love her. We are still imperfect beings living through our illusions and egos. You simply have to give a flame the space to flower on their own. You can guide, like you have, you can help, send love and strength, you can nurture like nurturing a flower. But you can't make that flower bloom. The blooming into the flame realization and embrace happens with each individually, even with our flames. Each must grow into their own identity of divinity in their own time. Becoming whole ourselves then allows us to become whole once again with our flames.
I know you may feel cheated. You may feel like you will be lonely for a long time waiting. But you have to realize the beauty and gift of having found such a deep love within yourself. The feeling you feel lives inside of you, not in our outer reality. That's the illusion, one that many flames will struggle with before coming to terms with who they truly are. If you don't allow that to blossom on it''s own, you'll find pain. Pain is the result of resistance. You are resisting and trying to "mastermind" the situation. Flame relationships are not like "physical" relationships, even though we all try to put them there at one time or another. You simply must "allow" for yourself and your flame in love. Like nurturing and understanding the growth of a child, you must view your flame the same way. We simply don't know any better until one day the realization comes and we are there.
I do love her. Despite all the hurt she caused me and all the hate I was getting from her fans...but I still have my days where I get angry at her, confused, depressed. It's like a never ending cycle with this and it's mentally and emotionally exhausting me. It hurts to see her spending time with someone else, even though it's just a sham. I did give her space to grow on her own. That's some of the reason why I stopped speaking to her. Her fans got me thinking that she hates me. They said I was the reason for her disappearing off of Twitter the day she got "engaged." Then got mad at me some more when it became a week. You know what. I still feel the hate and jealousy from them even though I cut them out of my life. Is it because all of that hate and anger that they spewed out is still lingering around in the universe somewhere?
No, it's because you've allowed what they said inside of you. It's like when you're angry with someone for doing you wrong. Being angry gives them power in your life. They aren't there, but they are in your thoughts still. You're still angry with them. Don't be. They can't understand you because they simply aren't you. Don't hold that against them. They just don't know any better. That goes for this woman as well. I know it hurts to see someone you love with someone else. I lived that too. But if she is your flame. I hope that you find it within your power to only wish her happiness. That's the divine love we hope to have with a flame. If this is her choosing, let it be and wish her joy. Only choose love for yourself and others. Don't give yourself the burden of carrying around the weight of other peoples thoughts an beliefs. And never think that because someone chose another person to marry it means that you yourself aren't loved. I don't know if she is your flame. You only can know that. But if she is allow her to be free and free yourself as well. I know it's hard, but I can't tell you enough that you can't force it. You'll only cause yourself pain. You have to give it to God and the universe for it to be done in divine time. In the meantime there might be someone else who enters your life for companionship and learning for you. Should you continue to burden yourself with the depression and thinking about her, you'll lose the chance to grow yourself. That's what this is about. Her growth and yours. Please be kind enough with yourself and as loving as you would be with her if she was with you. Everything you do, how you feel is inside. Let all of that be love and let the rest be what it is. You don't need to be burdened anymore. I say that sincerely. I was there too and it only prolongs your learning and causes pain. Believe me and trust, when the time is right the right people or person will be brought to you. But you yourself have to open enough to let go and allow that to happen. I feel for you, I really do. I know it's not easy, but I did do that. I know you can too.
How can you wish someone to be happy with someone when they aren't even happy with the person that they're with? To be honest with you, it's hard for me to do that. I can't stand to look at her with someone else and the fact that it's all over the internet doesn't help me at all. I'm not getting very good vibes for this man she is with. I feel he's trouble. If I end up with someone else, does that mean that she isn't my twin and that what I have for her is going to be over? I am so afraid to trust what I feel. I keep thinking that it's all in my head. I feel like God hates me sometimes. I feel like he cheats me out of love and likes it. This feels like a punishment and I don't know if I did something to someone to deserve what the agony that I'm going through. I feel that since I've never had a physical relationship with anyone I actually liked that it's something God doesn't want to me experience. I've only had those kinds of relationships with people that I didn't care about. God likes to play pranks on me I see.
You wish that person happiness because it was their choice. Even though you know she's not happy, you can't make her choices for her. She has to. That's part of her learning. We learn about ourselves in relationships. If you end up in a relationship with someone else you too will learn from that relationship. Just because you or she is in another relationship does not mean that that person is not your twin, it only means more learning is required before the two coming together. Twins don't come together just for "relationship". They come together for service. At this stage, I know how hard that may be to see at this time. It's not easy. We have all kinds of thoughts and beliefs each one of us has to work through before we can get to the place we need to be. There is a video on the side bar about the stages of twins. That may help you. I feel for you. I too blamed God, feeling I was cursed at times with such an intense connection, but that's why I tell you it's better to leave it on the back burner. You can still hold a place in your heart for her as you try and continue your learning and life. Believe me, if this is truly a flame relationship you two are already connected internally anyway. The joining of the two is an eventuality. God never play tricks on people, although it does sometimes look that way..we do. People act in ways that make us feel that way and we too think in ways that can fuel the fire. Think of God as perfect love, that's what he wants for you, but he can't intercede on the free will and choices of people to make you happy. You have to take steps with Him to make yourself happy first. Not being with someone doesn't mean you can't be happy, it only means you have an opportunity to become whole yourself. Please keep your faith in Him, it's your relationship with your divine essence that is the only thing that can get you through. Have a very blessed New Year, full of love, blessings and light. Love is found all around you if you look.
Happy new year to you also:) This connection has really been intense for the past 4 days. She must be really missing and thinking about me. I can feel the tug on my heart chakra. It tugged so hard that it felt a little sore and I felt a little burn in my chest also. Not like a heartburn...but a good burn. Like someone lite a flame in my heart or something. It felt good though. Not bad. I don't know what that means.
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