Twin Flames Breaking Free

BREAKING free

"All this hysteria, all this commotion

Time, space, energy are just a notion

What we have conceptualized we have created

All those loved, all those hated

Where is the beginning, where's the end

Time's arrow, so difficult to bend

Those broken promises, what they meant

Those love letters, never sent."

- Michael Jackson, from Dancing the Dream

What does true freedom mean?  Internally it would be to break free from the patterns of thought we have created for ourselves.  What we perceive we often believe, creating our feelings of love or hatred towards others.  In your own life I am sure you can recall times that you had different thoughts about the same situation or even have had a change of heart.  It wasn't that the situation changed, it was your thoughts about the situation.

During some recent correspondence I have been reminded of the internal struggle in accepting the twin flame relationship.  We all want true complete love.  I believe we all search for the one "perfect" partner that will make us complete.  Yet just as in Michael's poem above, there will be concepts created, broken promises, and sometimes years of wondering and waiting before you really know that the path to this perfect one has so much to do with ourselves.

Our twin flames mirror the lessons that we ourselves have yet to learn.  If you perceive the world as a cold place you may perceive your twin as part of this place as well.  It isn't until you have grown into the idea that an all pervading love beyond what is perceived can actually be already alive inside of you.

My yoga teacher made a wonderful point during our last class.  He told us about a trip he had taken with his wife not far from his home.  He described the scene with flowery words, beautiful pose, and an exasperated tone.  Yet, as he did this, he explained that there merely were no words to capture the experience.  Some experiences are beyond words, beyond explanation, and sometimes even beyond our human conception.  Feeling your twin inside yourself is the same.  The feeling of bliss, oneness and ecstasy are beyond words.  The wholeness felt reminds you of the magnificence of God himself.  It is all encompassing, all pervasive and pure love.  There are no thoughts that define it, no way to capture it.  It sits within you like the stillness of a moment in time when you are suspended and you feel yourself as part of this pure energy that completely takes over your entire body.  The times that I have experienced this I keep my body absolutely still.  I am afraid to breath for fear the feeling will leave.

The journey is not that beautiful, however, and that part isn't God's design, it's been ours.  It's these perceived ideas we have, these patterns we've created that keep us apart in our external world.  Fear, worthiness, inner struggle with addictions, fear of failure, self worth and all the things that are deemed our demons inside.  The journey is an internal climb upward to our true selves, not external.  The human face of your beloved is only your perception.  The true beloved you seek already whispers inside of you.  He or she is already a part of you.  We will always on the path be doubtful, we will be afraid, we will be angry, and we will be joyful; but all of these emotions, all of these hurts and all of the misgivings in the end will come to be known only as stepping stones in our own growth.  For in the end the perfection we seek we will come to know was a part of our true selves within all along.