It's been four and one half years since his death and still there is controversy that surrounds Michael Jackson. As we take a step back today, I'm going to share the floor with Michael to clarify and recap on some recent news that I have been holding back on commenting and posting here.
First is the news that the most respected and notable website for full coverage of Michael's death, Team Michael Jackson, has been cited with copyright violations and taken down recently. Coincidence? Perhaps, yet this action was brought about just prior to the recent news of more discoveries and the refiling of the AEG vs Jacksons lawsuit. In a prior post I had asked that we print out all the information and documentation we could find and this is why. I do believe some people may be getting nervous that the truth is coming out. I encourage the fans and people working on vindicating Michael's death continue and continue to share information across the net and privately.
For Taaj, the woman who headed this fight for justice on the website, we'd like to acknowledge her efforts and thank her. From Michael himself, he says you're very sweet and thank you very much for all you have done. I don't know Taaj personally, but trust him on this. He says to "keep going - keep your head up; when all this is through you'll know the truth".
At the heels of Conrad Murray's early release from prison, as we stated he would be released early right here on this blog, we find that the doctor has continued his public persona. If he can't make it in medicine, then I suppose he feels it's his duty as to market himself as "Michael Jackson's Doctor" to fulfill some paid for media obligations and sensationalize a story or two. The words he has used and what he has described doing for Michael in the media is - "Holding his penis every night". While the estate executors issue him a warning for compromising the patient doctor confidentiality of the matter, I can tell you that Michael himself says this is not only a sensationalized story, but absolutely false. If inserting a catheter because you are administering sedatives is termed as "holding a penis", I bet many men in hospital rooms right now are just cringing at the thought of their stories being told on the news. I do wonder, however, just how many penis's did you hold Doctor Murray? Did you divulge the names of all the men you held penis's for? What does that say about the sexuality of Doctor Murray if he felt it necessary to tell everyone that he held a penis? Does he enjoy holding penis's? Did he find it honorable because it was Michael Jackson's penis? It does make you wonder, doesn't it? Michael himself is dying right now, so I'll stop, but Doctor Murray if you want to get ridiculous I can play along for sure!
Speaking of sexuality, there is another lawsuit pending involving a choreographer named Wade Robson who testified on Michael's behalf in his child molestation trial in 2005. Eight years later, after Michael's death, he has decided to rescind his support of Michael's innocence and sue the estate for child molestation. I suppose this attempt was follied when the estate didn't agree to pay him off so he would keep quiet and not damage the reputation of Michael Jackson. Michael's name has been commercialized and those in the industry know all too well it's all about the public "image". If someone comes along that wants to benefit from you they will zero in on damaging that image to make you pay them. I don't see Wade Robson as being any different and the company he keeps, well let's just say his best friend I believe has been convicted of child molestation. Maybe he has gotten all he needs to make his story believable, but I do hope it all does come out in the wash. I don't believe Wade is as pristine as he puts on that he is.
Let me add to that, that I did think at one time Michael was guilty of child molestation. I wasn't sure because of what was in the media. However, I do know better now and I can tell you I have never seen him molesting a child. In the years that I saw and was connected with him even now, never once did I see an inappropriate activity with children. And believe me, I did see many private things. Michael calls this a deliberate attempt to ruin his image. Moreover it's Wade's way of dealing privately with the mistakes he's made from his drug habits. That's not from me, it's from Michael. I don't know Wade, I don't know if he ever used drugs, but I do find it odd that the only thing that they continue to try and put on Michael is child molestation. They have taken something pure for him and tried to make it something in bad taste. I would be horrified to find any child being molested. Having the same energy as Michael, I will say as the late great Dame Elizabeth has said "I know his soul" - Michael could never do anything even remotely ill to a child.
In other news, maybe you have heard; Randy Phillips from AEG Live has been let go. If you remember Randy was one of the men in the room with Michael the night he died. The news came of his termination, just prior to the news of the re-filing of the AEG lawsuit by Mrs Jackson. I'll end this post by NOT offering my condolences to Mr Phillips, but I would be more than willing to shout at him so loud the walls will shake any time he wishes. Just come back to Detroit Randy. Yes, I saw you here with Michael's brothers and Michael was the reason. Did you ever see the movie Ghost? This is my favorite part:
First is the news that the most respected and notable website for full coverage of Michael's death, Team Michael Jackson, has been cited with copyright violations and taken down recently. Coincidence? Perhaps, yet this action was brought about just prior to the recent news of more discoveries and the refiling of the AEG vs Jacksons lawsuit. In a prior post I had asked that we print out all the information and documentation we could find and this is why. I do believe some people may be getting nervous that the truth is coming out. I encourage the fans and people working on vindicating Michael's death continue and continue to share information across the net and privately.
For Taaj, the woman who headed this fight for justice on the website, we'd like to acknowledge her efforts and thank her. From Michael himself, he says you're very sweet and thank you very much for all you have done. I don't know Taaj personally, but trust him on this. He says to "keep going - keep your head up; when all this is through you'll know the truth".
At the heels of Conrad Murray's early release from prison, as we stated he would be released early right here on this blog, we find that the doctor has continued his public persona. If he can't make it in medicine, then I suppose he feels it's his duty as to market himself as "Michael Jackson's Doctor" to fulfill some paid for media obligations and sensationalize a story or two. The words he has used and what he has described doing for Michael in the media is - "Holding his penis every night". While the estate executors issue him a warning for compromising the patient doctor confidentiality of the matter, I can tell you that Michael himself says this is not only a sensationalized story, but absolutely false. If inserting a catheter because you are administering sedatives is termed as "holding a penis", I bet many men in hospital rooms right now are just cringing at the thought of their stories being told on the news. I do wonder, however, just how many penis's did you hold Doctor Murray? Did you divulge the names of all the men you held penis's for? What does that say about the sexuality of Doctor Murray if he felt it necessary to tell everyone that he held a penis? Does he enjoy holding penis's? Did he find it honorable because it was Michael Jackson's penis? It does make you wonder, doesn't it? Michael himself is dying right now, so I'll stop, but Doctor Murray if you want to get ridiculous I can play along for sure!
Speaking of sexuality, there is another lawsuit pending involving a choreographer named Wade Robson who testified on Michael's behalf in his child molestation trial in 2005. Eight years later, after Michael's death, he has decided to rescind his support of Michael's innocence and sue the estate for child molestation. I suppose this attempt was follied when the estate didn't agree to pay him off so he would keep quiet and not damage the reputation of Michael Jackson. Michael's name has been commercialized and those in the industry know all too well it's all about the public "image". If someone comes along that wants to benefit from you they will zero in on damaging that image to make you pay them. I don't see Wade Robson as being any different and the company he keeps, well let's just say his best friend I believe has been convicted of child molestation. Maybe he has gotten all he needs to make his story believable, but I do hope it all does come out in the wash. I don't believe Wade is as pristine as he puts on that he is.
Let me add to that, that I did think at one time Michael was guilty of child molestation. I wasn't sure because of what was in the media. However, I do know better now and I can tell you I have never seen him molesting a child. In the years that I saw and was connected with him even now, never once did I see an inappropriate activity with children. And believe me, I did see many private things. Michael calls this a deliberate attempt to ruin his image. Moreover it's Wade's way of dealing privately with the mistakes he's made from his drug habits. That's not from me, it's from Michael. I don't know Wade, I don't know if he ever used drugs, but I do find it odd that the only thing that they continue to try and put on Michael is child molestation. They have taken something pure for him and tried to make it something in bad taste. I would be horrified to find any child being molested. Having the same energy as Michael, I will say as the late great Dame Elizabeth has said "I know his soul" - Michael could never do anything even remotely ill to a child.
In other news, maybe you have heard; Randy Phillips from AEG Live has been let go. If you remember Randy was one of the men in the room with Michael the night he died. The news came of his termination, just prior to the news of the re-filing of the AEG lawsuit by Mrs Jackson. I'll end this post by NOT offering my condolences to Mr Phillips, but I would be more than willing to shout at him so loud the walls will shake any time he wishes. Just come back to Detroit Randy. Yes, I saw you here with Michael's brothers and Michael was the reason. Did you ever see the movie Ghost? This is my favorite part:
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"I can tell you I have never seen him molesting a child. This doesn't mean he never did..."
The way you worded this disturbs me, in the light of you then saying ""I know his soul" - Michael could never do anything even remotely ill to a child."
The first statement sounds like you are supporting Michael's innocence, but with a "just in case" disclaimer. Can you explain why you said this? I just feel that there is so much "did he/didn't he/we'll never know" stuff out there already that your statement just adds to that fire and it makes me sad to read it.
On a side note: I do believe something bad happened to Wade, but not at the hands of Michael. I get the sense that he has been pushed into a corner (not by Michael) and has the choice between his current course of action or something that (he feels) is worse.
He has sold Michael down the river to save himself but he will struggle to live with his decision. That is why the first thing that came out of his mouth when he was asked how he feels about Michael now (by Matt Lauer) was "heartbreak." Not any of the words you would associate with someone who has suddenly realized they've been molested.
What are your thoughts?
Thank you for your comment.
I understand why the way I worded the post in some ways would disturb you. When I wrote it, it didn't settle with me either. However, regardless of my personal feelings about Michael and what I did see, I cannot say that I saw every single thing in his life. I suppose in some ways I feel obliged to play devils advocate, and I have a problem with being overly honest, however, I will correct this part of the post if you could give me better words. I KNOW he did not molest anyone and you are so right when you say there is so much he did or didn't stuff out there right now. If I could find a way to correct it all and bring it to light I would. Am I certain he didn't molest anyone? Personally, yes. Can I prove it? Only by what have I seen, felt and heard personally; only by what I have not seen personally; which leads me back to the road of not seeing "everything" in his life. In some ways I feel like this would be some kind of loop an attorney would use if I was ever put on the stand. Did you see "everything" in his life? The answer would be no. I hope you understand this, and again, if you could give me better words, I'd appreciate it. For everything I DID see; NOTHING was EVER inappropriate with a child. For as much as we've talked about childhood abuses and as much as I've personally asked him, I KNOW he never did molest a child. This goes back to 1994 with Michael when the news first reported abuse. I know maybe you are already a reader, however, if you listen to the words of Scream, my words are in that song. I didn't know if he was guilty, then found out when I felt him literally run through me. We talked about it a lot. When Janet says "Oh my God I can't believe what I saw on the TV this evening, I was disgusted by all the injustice" those were my words to him. I couldn't believe they would report all the garbage without any of it being true. My name is Debbie:
(Michael)
Tired of injustice
Tired of the scheme
Life is disgustin'
So what does it mean, Debbie
You kick to me down
I got to get up
As jacked as it sounds
The whole system sucks, Debbie
Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsforsong.net/ "
(Janet)
"Oh my God, can't believe what I saw
As I turned on the TV this evening
I was disgusted by all the injustice
All the injustice"
Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsforsong.net/
As for Wade and your feelings about his current state? I feel EXACTLY the same way.
Thank again for your comments .. and I am interested in better words if you care to comment again.
I took that part out. I feel like I need to comment further to make this issue abundantly clear. Thank you for bringing it to my attention :)
He also says
"I'm tired of you telling
The story your way
You're causin confusion
You think its ok, Debbie"
I know this has been brought to your attention several times in the past but somehow you never seem to comment on it.
I also felt sad and a little angry when I read the aforementioned statement "This doesnt mean he never did." I was going to comment on it as well but see someone has beat me to the punch. Im glad im not the only one who feels this way. Anyway, I mean, are you serious? As a twin flame aren't you supposed to have his back and support him? Ride or die type of thing? But yet you KEEP saying "I too once thought he was guilty of child molestation." I can't even count the amount of times you have said that on here. How do you think Michael feels when you say that? Do you ever think that hurts his feelings? Its clear you don't think he did anything so why keep bringing up the fact that you once thought he did? Why not focus on the fact that he didn't? We all know he didn't.
Another thing is the issue of his private life. You claim to have seen many "private things" in Michaels life. Thats great and all but think about it. We all know what you are alluding to. Would you like it if someone was going on social media or the Internet talking about you and what you do in your private life by saying it but not really saying it at the same time? What Michael did in his private time was Michael and whoever he was with's business and no one else's. And its definitely not for you or anyone else to talk about or even allude to on a public blog site. Again, put yourself in Michael's shoes. He was already painfully shy and extremely private. You could at least have some respect for the man and his feelings and private conquests. Please and thank you in advance.
Thanks for your comments. I'm not sure how I feel about giving you better words to say. I believe we all need to speak for ourselves from our hearts and that it is good and right always to speak the truth (I prefer 'the' truth over 'my' truth or 'your' truth as truth is absolute) in love.
If it were me speaking, I would say that I believe that Michael did not molest any children and that is that. If I had had the opportunity to ask him personally and he told me no, he did not do that then I would believe him. If I had any doubt at all then I would not be able to be an advocate for him. If he were anything other than innocent in this regard then his entire life would have been a lie. Even if emotions can be swayed at some point you have to take a stand for the person you know and love and say “this is what I believe and I stand for and with that person in truth and love.”
What if such accusations were being leveled at you? Would you not want your loved ones to stand up for you? We all would. We don’t have to be hysterical about it. Truth is truth and we do not need to fear it. What we have had against Michael has been a media-fueled, maliciously constructed witch hunt with jealousy and envy at its root.
I’m not one of those who sees him as flawless – I know he had faults (don’t we all) but I do see that he was and is a special gift to us and as such, not everybody ‘gets’ him.
All I can tell you is that I find it interesting that those so quick to condemn him know the media’s version of him and most have neither met him or spent time with him and those that did, and still trashed him, came with their own agendas, and yet, listening to Michael’s own words plus those of the people who genuinely loved him and were close to him, a picture of an extraordinary human being with a heart full of pure love emerges. That is not someone who would abuse a child.
I’m not sure this answers what you wanted from me but it’s from my heart. I’ve had first hand experience of how guilty men behave when confronted with past abuse and I have seen none of those traits in Michael. Not one.
Thanks for replying. Wade is a troubled man. For him to have done what he did you can bet the stakes were high and he was/is between a rock and a hard place. I don't condone what he has done at all but I do believe this is not just about money. Not by a long shot.
Murray is a dishonest man and a coward. That is all I can say about him for now.
I also think that it's enough if our yes is yes and our no is no. Any more than that is from the evil one.
Everything else that we have heard from the barbarians and harridans baying for Michael’s blood and head on a platter has been drama-filled, sensationalized gossip.
To the naysayers asking whether that means we should close our ears to the ‘children’/adults who have accused Michael I would say listen to what they are not saying as much as to what they are saying. And when you listen to what they are saying, ask yourselves if they are their words, the truth – from their hearts, or lines they have been fed from people with an agenda?
When we get still and ask the question and look with our hearts we will see who Michael is. Michael's 'no' should have been enough but it wasn't. People are still looking for loopholes and such folk need to ask themselves why they so desperately need to believe he is guilty.
The interesting thing is many of those people don't even believe he molested the 'public' accusers. They will readily accept that all those accusers lied for money/their parents etc but yet harbor imaginations of other 'silenced' children out their who – if they would only come forward, would make their day as they salivate over having been proven "right all along". And yet they called Michael bizzare...
I am not a medium, but I'm very intuitive. When Michael was alive and passed I always could sense Michael's soul was pure love. His soul is much greater than his Michael Jackson incarnation. . I ALWAYS knew his energy was L.O.V.E. I never had any doubt about those rumors. In other words, you could say I know his soul ( like millions of other people who know his soul who also never doubted, who are of similar energy to him! If YOU have the same energy as him, you would JUST know and not ever doubt! I also feel Wade is a very confused person.
Thank you so much for your input.
I agree with you. I should have left the words out, or at least clarified better.
This issue has hit home with me and upset me very much. I'll be posting more today about it.
I wouldn't have this blog, wouldn't claim his innocence, if I wasn't sure of it and standing with him. .
Thank you for your comment.
I like what you have said. I have my own idea about why people want to condemn Michael. Most people see others as a mirror of themselves. We continually judge others by our own perceptions and experiences. Someone so well known as Michael with such goodness about him is odd in this day and age. Society has always scandalized those in places of public display. Michael was more popular than most artists. Not only that, but he used his public image to make true change in the world. When confronted with a man like this and we stand face to face with him anyone less than would feel "less than". They would be unbelieving because they themselves can't believe someone could be so loving, so giving. Many people when faced with such people even in our every day lives - the ones that people are jealous of, envious of will go to the wall spreading lies and making judgments. Not because its about the person they are tearing apart, because it's about them. They want to feel better about themselves. That's why I think people watch these reality shows. Now they don't have to look at their own lives because they can point to someone else and say how messed up they are. We are breeding a society that takes no accountability for the self.
Michael was not bizarre. He was eons ahead of all the accusers in his self work. Your comment is well said. Thank you.
Thank you for your comment.
I am glad you and so many other people never doubted. The support that has been shown to him by people like you is immeasurable. Twin flames, however, always have a path. Part of that path is overcoming doubt. When you say I should never have doubted him, it tells me a great deal. I think perhaps you should be more critical of me if I said I always knew he was innocent without a doubt. For then anyone could come forward and say they are Michael's flame and/or had a connection to him when he lived. I can say things like I know his soul, I know he's innocent all day long, but can I back it up? And with what?
I am on this public blog to support Michael. I put myself out here willingly and at my own personal expense to make sure the truth is out there about him. The path I had with him was not as simple as some seem to think it should have been. I'll be posting more about this subject today. It's time to put the child molestation rumors to rest once and for all.
Thank you for your comment. It's comments like these that help clear the air. For what some people think is sometimes far from the truth.
I don't remember ever having this passage of lyrics brought to my attention before, but the lyrics to the song that you have quoted you may want to listen to again and view the video. This passage is talking about the "media" and how they tell the story their way and how it's causing confusion. The only thing it has to do with me is that he's telling the story. He's telling me in the song what's going on. Many of his songs were written from conversations we had. Some word for word.
The "This doesn't mean he never did" comment has been taken out. I should have said "This doesn't prove he never did" or left it out entirely. It was never my intent to shed any shadows on this subject specifically. Matter of fact the whole post was at Michael's request and was supposed to validate his innocence. I'll be posting more about this today.
Twin flames do ride or die. You're right. But on the path to the flame it's not always that way. We are there now, but haven't always been. Think of any relationship you have had personally. Sometimes you might doubt what they say, sometimes you will want to know if they truly love you. I know many people like to think of flames as perfection, but to get to that point there is an awful lot of doubting and growth going into each one of you before you get there.
Personally I KEEP saying "I too once thought he was guilty of child molestation" because I know how the media made Michael out. He was nothing like what he was portrayed to be. In the few days that I had doubts, it was the media that made me question him. It's like having a good friend that you love and someone tells you something awful about them. Then not only is it one person, but a whole slew of people. You would begin to question whether or not it was true. As for being a twin, I questioned my own feelings and the resounding thought of "what if I'm wrong", "what if my feelings are wrong", sounded in my head. It's not so clear cut. Now every time I say that "I too once thought..." it not only makes me feel that I have his back because I know without a doubt that he is innocent, it makes me feel that it solidifies our relationship. If I was someone who was star struck with Michael Jackson, I would most likely take a whole different tone. But this is the truth, and this is my story. Life and relationships are not all roses, there are thorns. When faced with a flame those issues are intensified and you must work through all the doubts, all the thoughts and beliefs you have stored up. I won't have people believing it's a fairy tale. Twin flames are not fairy tales. They have to work hard at becoming whole and while they work together it's not all that easy. We have stuff, just like every other relationship.
Your question about how do I think Michael feels when I say that is interesting. He too feels vindicated. He has forgiven me for doubting him long ago. This was something very difficult for us both to go through. It hurt his feelings very much in the moment I questioned, yes. Now,no. As for the focusing just on the fact that he didn't molest children: I have this theory in the back of my head that I want to PROVE his innocence. In almost every post I have that's what's in the back of my mind. I could go on and write flowery words that speak of only love but that's not reality. The reality is is that there are still people out there that think he did molest children. If I don't put myself on the same mindset that they are in how can I prove otherwise? In other words, this is the truth, this was my experience, yea, I get it, the media makes you believe that he's guilty but here is the truth. If I only focused on his innocence I feel I would be perceived as just another MJ fan with no credibility for what I say.
I'm not writing this blog because I'm just another MJ fan. I'm here because we had a connection and I want to set the story straight. So I will bring it up thousands of more times until I get heard and the right people, those that don't believe he is innocent here it.
As for his private life and what I've seen and said, it's the same. Rumors of him being gay are not true. What evidence can I provide as a flame to prove otherwise - it's simple; just say what I saw. I will continue to do the same. I offer no details at Michaels expense and every single thing I put on this blog I ask for his opinion before I post it. So as far as me putting myself in his shoes, I already am.
Just so you know (and thanks for responding) as one of the anonymous commentators above - to me it looks like you got replies from 3 different people. I'm the author of 2 of the responses (truth in love, and let your yes be yes…), just to clarify.
Lots of people had doubts or at least questions because we were blindsided and tricked by the lies of the media, especially in 1993. We also were told and believed that children never lie and especially that they never lie about abuse. So for me, depending upon where you were in your journey with Michael, that would dictate your feelings/attitudes towards his guilt or innocence, in 1993 and 2003/5.
I think though that now, for people who are actually interested in the truth, rather than sensationalism, there is overwhelming evidence both in the physical/material realm and in the spiritual realm for those who have eyes to see, what the facts are and who Michael really was. So for me it's more about where we stand now, and if we believe in his innocence, then let's be firm and unwavering in that belief and be unafraid to stand up for that. That's the heart of what I wanted to express.
I know that for a time, I was in the 'who knows?' category because I had been a long time admirer of his since I was little, but had lost track of him and his career and life for many years, because of issues I was dealing within in my own life. It's when I began, much later, to search out the truth for myself about Michael the man, and began just by listening to his words and watching him speak, that I saw the consistency and sincerity in his heart and I began to feel him and his heart.
I haven't commented on 'Scream' or your beliefs and experiences because they go beyond the realm of my understanding at this point. My beliefs about what happens after the body dies are different to yours but nevertheless I respect your experiences as real and wanted to comment on the aspects that did resonate with me.
I hope you will receive all that I have said in love as it is sent.
I think our replies crossed. Apologies for any confusion! I haven't quite got the hang of this process yet! I like what you said and the mirror analogy rings true.
Food for thought for us all (and I put myself at the top of that list) when we rush toward judgement of anyone. Let me first seek to understand.
It was not my intention to upset you. I was very careful to state how I felt reading those words, and to ask you to clarify rather than be in any way accusatory toward you.
I admire the boldness you have used in many of your statements on this blog, both in defending Michael and stating what you believe happened to him. That takes courage and I recognize and applaud that courage, even though I don't share all the same spiritual beliefs as you.
I don't expect everyone to share mine either, but that does not mean that we can't learn from one another. I try and treat everyone with kindness, dignity and respect and when I have a question I ask it, in order to get clarity. I hope that is what you took from my comments because that is the spirit in which they were sent.
I do, and honor and respect you in love as well. Thank you for your comments. There are always different view points and beliefs, that's what makes us who we are. The beauty is embracing each other in that knowing regardless of the differences.
Thank you. :) xxoo
Thank you for commenting.
You couldn't have upset me if it wasn't in me already to upset. The child molestation issues with Michael have been going on for years. For me it's been very emotional watching what the public has done to him and feeling what I have, knowing what I have. You simply touched on something that needed to be healed within me, and for that I am thankful.
We all learn from one another and your words, even your questions, make me dig deeper into myself. No offense taken. This is my work and the upset was my issue, not yours.
Thank you for clarifying and your kind statements. :) xxoo
I feel glad and happy that a part of you has opened up to be healed and I feel humbled that my comment nudged you along that path.
This has been a revelation for me as well. I do have an increasing sense that creating a safe space for people to heal is part of what I'm here for but it jolted me that in this instance, it looks like I caused pain in order for that to happen. That was hard to experience because I don't wish to hurt or wound anyone.
But I felt strongly before I posted that it was a question I needed to ask.
This may or may not mean anything to you but I will leave you with this (feel free not to make this public as I sense this might be for your eyes only at this point – I'll leave that to you): Be healed and restored and seek the truth in all things. Not everything is always as it seems. Test everything. Perfect love casts out all fear and there is no confusion or deception in truth.
Go well.
We have to embrace the pain in order for us to heal from it. So you did not cause the pain, you only opened my eyes to it.
Your words and message is brilliant. Thank you so much for sharing and taking such a huge part, really, in my healing. :) xxoo
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