Stranger in Moscow

I watched one of my favorite movies entitled "The Help" last night again.  In it, I recalled one of the main characters narrating that no one had every asked what it was like to be her.  I recalled a visit from a young man from the day before.  He was eager to get into the music business and explained to me that he thought it was alright for Joe Jackson to have treated Michael the way he did.  He made him billions of dollars, as he put it.

The statement in the movie, the statement that the young man made really made my heart ache.  I realized that most of the world still thinks that Michael Jackson lived in a castle and was glittery all of his life.  No one asked him what it was like to be him. But I did, at one time.

I'd like to start from the end and work myself back to that time, because in the end, the last years of his life,  I believe, were the hardest.  I know what it's like to be alone.  Not to be able to count on anyone and if you're like most people when you think of Michael Jackson, you just don't think of people, you think of crowds of people.  People you think love him, people that you might think he could count on.

That wasn't the case.  Many times I would think he was extremely busy and he would tell me he wasn't. There was no one he could trust or feel supported by, bar a few.  It was Elizabeth Taylor that made a huge difference in his life and that's why she will always remain in my heart as well.  She was there while the rest of the world was crucifying him.  She was there when I couldn't be.

There was a time when Michael told me he had no place to go.  We talked about him and the kids coming to live with me and my then husband.  I remember thinking, can that be true?  No place to go? But he didn't.  And if he was seriously considering coming to live with me, I knew it had to be bad.

When we talked about Neverland and how it was so expensive I told him he should sell it.  When I thought about that last night, I wish he would have.  Neverland wasn't Michael.  Neverland is a place he created for what he wanted to do for the world.  Yet the world rarely thinks about what we did to him.

You can never know what you do to another person by your actions, in-actions, or words.  In this day and age it seems it doesn't matter if you're in the public eye or not, some seem to think that spreading lies and using others is just part of life.  Entitlement, getting something someone else has or is perceived to have is treasured more than treasuring life itself.  It's hard to know a loneliness that pervades even in the midst of cheering crowds.  It's hard to know who really loves you, when you don't know if it's the star they love or the real person.  It's hard to know a normal life, when life has never been normal.  And it's hard to accept that people think you should lead a normal life, when you never had it.

When I asked him what it was like to be him it was back around the year 1995.  He was recording then and asked what I wanted to hear.  I told him I wanted to know how it felt to be so popular.  His answer was in the song posted below.

Our world is full of people who feel alone and lonely, yet we rarely reach out to make a difference.  We perceive they have the perfect life or something we don't.  We don't realize they are people too.  Feelings, emotions and thoughts that make up their world.  You can be the richest person in the world, but riches can never bring true happiness and fulfillment.  It's our connectivity to each other and love that are the only things that can do that.

Remember to love, to reach out.  Someone right next to you could be hurting and needing support.
Maybe we could all start to ask others how it really feels to be them too.  Then maybe we'd realize that we are all in this together.  Rarely different on the inside, only perceived as different from the outside.

Intuition - The Gift of Fear

"People should learn to see and so avoid all danger.  Just as a wise man keeps away from mad dogs, so one should not make friends with evil men."

- Buddha

It's a small voice, a whisper. Something that tells you not to cross the street exactly at that moment. Where to find your keys, or how to make something work.  Your first gut reaction.  Those things that tell you to wait and when you do you find out why.

All the things we do in our lives are based on thought and feeling.  We can think our way out of a situation.  Think about choices.  Weigh our options on what home to purchase or which job to take.  Yet most often if we don't take our "feeling" body into consideration, we may make the wrong choice.

The feeling body is the body that makes you tense when you walk into a room after an argument.  Its the body that gives you the chills when you walk into a home where someone has died.  It gives you goosebumps when you watch a thriller movie or makes you cry when you see two old people still holding hands and kissing after years of marriage.

Many times because we have conditioned thinking already established within us, the feeling body can be the ultimate truth teller.  We might have thoughts and beliefs about things and our world that simply aren't true.  We might try to logically think our way out of beliefs when our feeling bodies are telling us differently.

Sometimes you will run into people and situations where everything on the outside seems fine.  A man or a woman who has just entered into your life seems to treat you great.  There may be no "outside" indications that they are distrustful or deceiving.  However, something inside of you tells you something just isn't right.  Listen.  It's that inner voice that is most often always right.

Man in the Mirror PROJECT: Breaking Patterns

In prior posts we have discussed the four lower bodies.   Our mental thoughts, physical body, emotional body and spiritual bodies. That to clear them and become closer to our true divinity and to be happier individuals, we must break the patterns of thought and emotion that hold us captive.  These patterns are repetitious cycles.  As we've demonstrated before, one word or thought can set us off on a pattern that we have internalized.  It may be something that makes us sad, angry, frustrated or even excited.  Most of us always want the excited and happy patterns, but the patterns that leave us feeling bad, angry or depressed I'm sure we'd all agree would be better left out.

It would be nice if we could just surgically extract them, but we can't.  We have to transmute or transform them into something else.  If you think of a car that rides down a muddy road every day, the tires of the car will produce ruts in that road.  The car will naturally go into the ruts because that's the easiest route.  Internally your make up is the same way.  What you have seen and heard from childhood and what you have become and do in your adulthood are the patterns that play out internally for you.

Some of the most telling statements and evidence of these patterns are statements like: "I love the smell of freshly baked apple pie.  It always reminds me of my grandmothers house when I was a kid" or "I hate the smell of alcohol.  My father was drunk all the time when I was a kid."

Smells, tastes, thoughts, anything we experience in the five senses can bring about an emotion.  Michael used to say what enters the mind, the mind enters.  I love that statement because when we enter into the emotion from the thought it suddenly becomes our reality.

How many times have you had a pretty good day when all of the sudden something happens and shatters it?  Say you just broke up with your boyfriend or girlfriend, husband or wife.  You think you see them at the mall with someone else.  Powerful emotions right?  It starts a cycle and we are cyclic beings.  The thoughts and emotions begin to run rampant and soon your pretty good day turns ugly.

The key in breaking these patterns and cycles is to stop them between the phases.  If it's the sight of your ex partner, the stopping point would be before the next thought and before entering "into" the emotion.  Once we let the emotional body, or as Eckhart Tolle would say, the pain body, into the equation, the pattern is already commencing.  You can actually "feel" the pattern in your body.  It's the tenseness, the heart palpitations from seeing that ex with someone else or the warm comforting feeling when you smell that apple pie.  Catching the pattern before it gets into the emotions is key.  When you find yourself headed toward that ugly place, stop and consciously re-route the thought to produce another feeling.

Here are a few videos that help clarify patterns and cycles and how we might break them.  The first video is a study that was done with water crystals.  Realizing that our bodies are comprised mostly of water, think of how our internal emotions really do effect us inside.  We create these types of patterns within us when we "feel" a certain way.

Twin Flame Soul Mates-I AM Union

Twin Flame Soul Mates
Uniting in the I AM Christ Presence

I was reminded recently of the necessity to explain how twin flame union and inner connections happen.  There will be times it will seem as if that connection disappears.  It doesn't.  Twin flame soul mates continually are connected at all times.  And from my experience they continue that connection even after death.  It never ceases, never ends.  This is the blessing from our father.

Souls are eternal and if we listen to the master Jesus he told us that he is the light; he is the way to everlasting life.  Not only did he live an ethical life for us to embody as well, but he told us a myriad of times that he was the son of our father in heaven.

Our father, our creator is accessed through our souls as well.  However, before we get to him we have to have access to his mediator: Jesus or our Christ self.  Many traditions term this mediator as the "I AM" presence.  If we look back in our history we'll find other terms and symbolism as well.

In ancient Egypt, for example, the pyramids contained the tombs of kings and queens along with their possessions.  They were preparing for the next life.  They knew that after death they would "ascend" to the next state of consciousness through the "pyramid" or triangular shape.

Sphinx - The body of the "Lion" and head of a "Human"

One great pyramid we often see even has a sphinx in front of it.  This is a symbolic vehicle of light
symbolizing evolutionary intelligence that is capable of solar travel.  In other words "The Lion of Judah" which is also found in the bible meaning "Christ".  The Christ consciousness, or I AM presence that carries us to the next level of consciousness and into the next plane of life.  It is here in the I AM that you and your twin unite.  It is also here in the I AM that you can take that consciousness and the light of it down to the earth plane to bless us all.

"When they first issue forth, they issue as male and female together. Subsequently, when they descend [to this world] they separate, one to one side and the other to the other, and God afterwards unites them—God and no other, He alone knowing the mate proper to each. Happy the man who is upright in his works [or pure] and walks in the way of truth, so that his soul may find its original mate, for then he becomes indeed per­fect and through his perfection the whole world is blessed."

- The Zohar

Before our consciousness finally gravitates to our Self and our Self is merged in the infinite of the I AM, there are many fine threads to be woven together into the shimmering cloth of our practice. We have to weave in a meditation of such selfless purity that the impersonating ego will be unmasked for all time. Advancing with our faith, but always calling ourselves into question in our continued attempts to clear our four lower bodies; to undo the patterns and beliefs that have nothing to do with our father. Where there is pride, there is always ignorance.

John 10:9 "I AM the door"

John 11:25 "I AM the resurrection and the life"

John 14:6 "I AM the way, and the truth and the life"

John 15:1 "I AM the true vine from the father"

Petrus Alfonsi's early 12th century Tetragrammation-
Trinity diagram rendering the name as "JEVE" or
YHWH, Jehova, or the Lord inother traditions.
Illustrated as a triangle with the lion at center.

In gaining access to this greater part of ourselves we must hold in our minds that our "perceptions" may or may not be correct.  By doing this we relieve the burden of being "stuck" in our beliefs and our past.

Uniting in the I AM with a twin requires discipline, purity, ethical behavior and a clearing of the four lower bodies to an extent.  You cannot gloss over your "self work".  For it is here that your true self exits.

Princess Diana Update

Diana

We've had a few posts on Princess Diana of late.  One of the latest posts talked about a publication that confirmed what the Princess herself had told me a month or so ago; that there were others involved in her death.

After that post, someone forwarded me a link to Diana herself telling her story. This also confirms what Diana told me, only in her own words.  She feared a car accident would be staged and she would be killed.

I'm posting it here so you too can see the real life and feelings of the real woman that Princess Diana was.  There are too many lies, too much corruption and too many sad people in the world because of lies, deceit and abuse.  If it's to change, we need to expose the hidden into the light.  Talk about the dark side and make change.

Diana is someone I have come to admire even more than I did when she lived.  She is courageous, bold, enlightened and loving.  Princess Diana is the epitomy of who we should strive to become.  People that hold and live in our truth and not afraid to stand in it.

Although her life was taken, I stand with her as well as Michael in the proclamation that people placed in the public eye are people too.  They are not there to be persecuted or crucified, as much as you or I are not there to be persecuted or crucified in the name and schemes of others willing to use our position, status in life, or celebrity to fulfill their own dark desires.

Purity of heart and soul, a touch of humanness and love, is all that's needed to make a great man or woman.  Michael and Diana had both.

Reflections of Our Souls

Many times in your life you will experience the life lessons of another.  You share your journey with others, as others share their journey with you.  Should you choose to go along for the ride you will begin to reflect the attributes and soul characteristics that mirror those you are with.  Soul groups are similar in nature.  They contain the same frequency of energy and when you engage with other people, join a group or sit in meditation, the frequencies or energies will be intermingled and balanced as well.

A high soul can enter a room and you can "feel" the magic.

Someone shady can enter a room and you can "feel" the heaviness of their energy.

You walk into a room and you can feel the "tension" in the air after people have been fighting.

You walk into a birthday party with children and you smile because you can join in their delight and play.

Love is like that.  Love can take many forms and shapes, just as hatred and anger can.  It's in our choosing what we want to do with our energy.  But our choosing effects others as well.

Think of a Linus from the cartoon Charlie Brown.  He drags his blanket with dust all over the place with him.  The other characters around him are effected by it.  Your energy and the energy of others are the same.  If you have negative energy it is felt as well as if you have positive energy.  Your "auras" or energy fields are blending.  Sometimes you may feel comfortable with someone or very uncomfortable with someone for this very reason.

Aura is defined as a noun:

1. the distinctive atmosphere or quality that seems to surround and be generated by a person, thing, or place.

In the photo below you can see the emanations of the aura from two individuals.  With twin flames they will be similar in color and vibration as shown below.  With others you will "mix" well or repel each other in energy.  However, what ever company you choose to keep in your life, your energy or vibration will be affected.  The people around you will help raise you up in vibration and light or bring you down in frequency or light.  

The light or frequency are both inter-changable words in this case.  For in your final quest for spiritual freedom the goal will be to clear these fields and have a high resonating frequency.  Like Jesus when he lived, it has been said that people could feel his aura from miles away.  Or like Michael says in his song "The Way You Make Me Feel",  "I feel your fever from miles around".

Energy is real and it's always easier to be brought down in vibration than it is to be brought up.  We have to work harder at maintaining a higher vibration.  In essence, we have to be conscious of the thoughts and feelings we are emitting to the world around us.

As twin flames bring their personal vibrations up, this is also how they will affect the rest of us and the planet.  The sheer work and desire to become closer to god will become manifest in their energy field.  In turn, both flames will be able to transcend themselves and bring the light of other dimensions, the Christ light, onto the planet.  For now their vibration has been raised to a degree that resonates with that Christ like frequency.  

What a wonderful gift for the rest of us.  For now the flames desire for union themselves reflect back on the rest of us and in turn raise our vibrations too.

Eminent Attack; PLEASE Read

There are times when the entire world is put on notice.  Catastrophic events and war crimes can and do affect us all.  None so much so as in the middle east.  There is much unrest still and I fear the violence will escalate and we all will be in a place of unrest soon if we don't change our ways.

I have awoken with very disturbing images.  A visit from Gandhi from the other side gave me more information, however, if you are in a place of unrest or fear retaliation, please pay attention.

An attack is eminent.  This means it will go forward. This is not an "it might happen" event.  There is a woman involved in a suicide mission and it will involve children.  This event will shake us to our very core.

I am told that this is a retaliation for something.  Preceded by a dream, I dialed 911 only to hear a foreign language I didn't understand in the background.  The phone present in this vision meant that I would hear news about it soon.

911 (9/11) also is related to the attack on the trade towers here in the United States.  It feels as if it may be similar.

I wish I could know where this will take place, but I don't.  Only that there will be children involved.  I can only hope that I am wrong.  Yet I can only hope that if I am not, that this message is heeded and some are taken out of harms way.

If you are in an area that has experienced attacks in the past, if your country has attacked another and nothing has happened or if some unrest is happening where you are - PLEASE be EXTRA cautionary with your children.  This DOES NOT exclude the STATES.

Gandhi has said that this is political and may affect alliances with the United States.

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It may be time to renew the idea that Gandi instituted while he lived.  The concept of NON VIOLENCE has been repeated over the years from some of the greatest men and women in history.  What will it take for us to start practicing it?