Twins and Reincarnation

"I think the movie missed out on an opportunity to really display this popularity, how Marie Antoinette moved among the people and how much they loved her.  She attended opera often and threw money and effort into her favorite composer."

http://historicalhistrionics.wordpress.com/2012/03/23/marie-antoinette/

Some people believe in reincarnation, others don't.  I wasn't a believer some years back, however, when I started to experience my past lives I came to see reincarnation as something viable.

Looking through the past I've learned a lot about myself and the people around me.  Our past lives are often littered with the same people, good or bad that intrude or help us in our lives.  Your twin and you will have often crossed paths as well.  You could have been a brother and sister, mother and son, or even just friends.

When Michael passed I was somehow able to view some of his past lives.  They say that when we die we will review our life.  That he did as well.  But when that stopped, it seemed the "movie" that was playing in my head continued into his past lives as well.  There must be something about the union of the soul that allowed this to happen and it has led me to believe that since we do share in the emotions, the learning and lessons of these lives, we also must share in the karmic ties.

It's fascinating to think that we have lived so many lives.  Often we repeat the same mistakes, failing to learn the same lessons we are confronted with in each lifetime.

As you may have noticed on the right side bar, one of my past lives was as Marie Antoinette.  When I first began to suspect this I was ashamed and embarrased.  It had been in a psychic class and a woman there eyed me, smiling coyly, every time I went making remarks about her past life as Queen Maria Therese of Austria.  Little did I know then that she was my mother in that lifetime.

Not all lifetimes are famous, as I've heard some people say.  I remember some from Tibet, as a nun, and even a geisha girl.  Although it is the famous ones that are sometimes most prominent.  I believe it's because it offers you an opportunity to explore the past and see what you have brought into this lifetime.  I traveled to France some years back to find and experience what it "felt" like to be in the castle at Versailles where I lived in that lifetime.  The experience led to more visions and remembrances of who and what was there.  Yet the most jarring elements of that trip was the pure rage I felt as I walked the hallway of the palace.  The people there were angry at the Queen and blamed her for the state of the economy.  They raged the halls of the palace during the revolution, coming after me and I could feel it.  I could remember the hidden doors, the pictures of faces on the walls, and even giving birth in front of a crowd of people; something I was deathly afraid to do again this time around - give me the private room please!

As history painted it, Marie Antoinette was beheaded.  She was painted an indulgent queen and took the blame for the downfall of France.  I was shocked to hear when I asked a taxi driver about the queen, that there are still remnants of hatred toward Versailles and the people there today.  Be it in truth or not, the people were led to believe that Versailles people and the queen put themselves above and took from the common people.  Yet when I looked back, I found it hard to believe that I alone could have been responsible for the downfall of a country and one of the most famous revolutions in history.  What could have I done so terrible and what kind of power did I alone have that could have caused such a ruckus? From what I had read I was only a child when I came into power to begin with and that's what led me to the truth.

Some things we believe in don't even make sense, but we believe them anyway.  It's what we've been told.  So as I researched my own past life, I couldn't help but ask if Michael Jackson played a part in that life as well.  When I did I found the reason for the stories and the rumors.  You see in that lifetime I was painted an indulgent queen, and in this lifetime Michael was painted an indulgent musician.  We not only have shared our lessons, our feelings and people but have "switched" on occasion so we could help each other grow through our lifetimes of learning.

During that lifetime I supported a man named Mozart in operas he wrote.  Mozart happened to be one of Michael Jackson's past lives.  You can even liken the operas of that lifetime to his famous music videos in this lifetime that include a story line, beginning and end.  Back then I met him as a child and he had asked for my hand in marriage, something that my mother at that time found disdainful, for she had already sold me off to France to marry the son of the king.  An opera, however, was written years later and was publicly supported by Marie Antoinette.  It weaved a tale of deceit.  The opera entitled, "The Magic Flute" revealed elements that were long hidden in freemasonry and explored the "truth" of opposing sides of an order that when enraged by the exposure of their secrets began the French Revolution.  It's been said it was with the support of this very play by Marie Antoinette that the conspirators began conspiring to paint Marie Antoinette as the scapegoat. According to the book "The Magic Flute", by Burton D Fisher, Mozart himself plotted to rescue the queen from her fate.  The story is not unlike the story of this lifetime.   Painted pictures in the media all detailing a much different picture of went on behind the scenes of Michael's life, this time around.  Still conspiracy, still wanting to get the truth to the public, and still in the same groups of people that were in that lifetime as well.

There is so much information on this subject that I can't put it all in one post, but twins must learn the lessons.  Some of these lessons I found after Michael died.  He was placed into the same situations with the same people and failed to get out of it.  He needed to learn to place trust in himself and not succumb to the manipulative tactics of others.  I needed to learn the same thing.  The difference here is that I was able to step out of that lifetime.  When Michael died I was doing just that.  Stopping the cycle, the patterns that were present through lifetimes because I knew I no longer had to carry the burdens with me.  It was in the knowing that I was able to leave the people that had been toxic during these lifetimes for so long.  It was Michael himself, who after he passed helped us both see what was transpiring in these lifetimes as well as this one that we needed to grasp in order to go on.  It's clearer in hindsight, and your flame can always offer you the mirror and different perspective you need to help you both get past your most crucial tests before ascension.

I'm posting some photos below of some of the people present during the French Revolution and present in our lives today or that were.  You will find them even "looking" similar.  I hope you find it interesting and begin to explore your past as well.  The clip at the bottom of "Cloud Atlas", may help you further open your eyes to the possibility that we circle around again and again, making the same mistakes until we finally get it right.

Janet Jackson, Michael's sister

Mozart's sister, nicknamed "Nannerl"

Michael Jackson left: Mozart right

Tim Leiweke, CEO and President of AEG,

 the company who was producing the This Is It Tour

for Michael Jackson

Casgliostro; conspired in the time of Mozart:

Casanova who conspired with Cagliostro

Pictured:  On 13 October 1762 “the little child from Salzburg”—Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart—came with his father and sister Nannerl to visit the Austrian court.  Mozart is standing with his father at the piano and sister Nannerl.  They were on tour with their father (Joseph Jackson this time around)  Empress Marie Therese is seated while Marie Antoinette is the child pictured under her arm.  
"Perhaps it is not true that the young Mozart flung himself at the young Marie Antoinette and declared that he would marry her when he grew up (an apocryphal story which, if it had in some amazing way come true, would certainly have altered the course of history)"  - Antonia Frazer, author, Marie Antoinette; The Journey.

Marie Antoinette

Me

Randy Phillips, AEG Executive

Louis XVI, Maria Antoinette's husband

My husband again this time around

with my son whom I termed

"the true king".  I discovered he was supposed

to be "the true king" later 

when I researched the past life.

A Twin Flame Lesson from Ebeneezer Scrooge

"He despairs at his inability ever to find happiness in the mortal world or the next. As he spent his life on this earth obsessing over money and mistreating the poor and wretched to fill his pocket, Marley is condemned as part of his penance to walk the earth for eternity never to find rest or peace, experiencing an "incessant torture of remorse."

Scrooge is in disbelief.  The spectre asks, "Why do you doubt your senses?"

As the Christmas season gears up in the stores, there are thoughts about gifts, decorating, Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners.  Sometimes the season comes in so quickly, we rarely have time to think and reflect about what these days truly mean.

There are many beautiful stories that have been woven over time with the holidays.  One of my favorites has always been "A Christmas Carol".  Like many Disney films, one might question what "inspired" the story.  It begins with an old man, crabby, neglectful, selfish, and greedy.  He is sitting at his desk waiting for what he knows will be the late arrival of his employee.  He's a task masker and readily looks for anything and everything miserable he can make of his life or the lives of others.

It's the Christmas season and the old man is visited by a ghost of his late partner, Jacob Marley.  Jacob was in business with him and had similar views on life, put money first and was selfish with his time and in his life.  He had come to warn the old man, Ebeneezer Scrooge, of what was to come, should he not change his ways.  He allowed Scrooge to view the chains he had made for himself, link by link with every deed and misdeed he engaged in.  The chains were heavy and they weighed Jacob down, keeping him tied to the earth plane.



When we speak about ascension and twin flames, these are the chains we have forged for ourselves that need to be broken in order for us not be tied to the earth plane any longer as well.  Each deed we do, or not do then, should be looked upon with a consciousness and compassion that reflects the goodness of who we are instead of the constricted, narrow or selfish vision of our past.  It may be hard to admit, but we have all made wrong choices, harmed others in deeds, thoughts or words and have most likely learned patterns that have not served us or humanity well.

When we are confronted with a twin flame, these issues will be magnified.  I believe that nature protects us in some sense, for coming into contact with a flame most often only happens when you have reached a certain level of relinquishing of the karma to begin with.  It would be unbearable to confront it all at one time.  51% of your karma must be cleared before you can have the option of not returning to the earth plane.  The chains or karma that is left to be worked through can then be worked on by both parties.  Reflecting and accepting with each other to absorb the knowledge that needs to be learned from each other.  In this way the karma of each individual is actively balanced by the two.  You share in the learning and can make the transition, or ascension together.

Twin flame unions offer a special path for learning.  For what you must accept about yourself you do so in love, because you love your flame.  That part of you will give you the fuel to burn off the dross layers of tar and undo the chains of lifetimes.

We must become like those who show compassion to us.  Like the ghost of Christmas present, past and future; the angels, the spirit guides, and those spirits that work on behalf of mankind.  Mankind often looks to them for compassion, just as Ebeneezer Scrooge did.  We ask for our prayers to be heard and look for them to be answered.  Rarely, however, do we look to ourselves to offer the same love and compassion we have come to expect from them.  Imagine if we were all like Scrooge.  There would be no compassion, or angels to look to.  Only ourselves and what we have created.

This is the path of mankind.  Forging our deeds one link at a time.  May we be grateful for the compassionate souls that have chosen to help.  For when faced with an Ebeneezer Scrooge and the deeds he has committed, it would be difficult to say the least to find compassion in the hearts of men today.  May we all look to those we look to for compassion and love in the heavens and may we all aspire to be just like them one day - compassionate towards mankind and compassionate towards ourselves.

Man in the Mirror PROJECT - Righteousness

Who's to say who is right?  If I'm right and you are wrong who is the decider of our fates?  Righteousness is something that comes about by the ego.  We play into the fact that only we know the proper way things go.  We know what is right and anyone that thinks differently is wrong.
But where do the thoughts we think about righteousness come from?  It is our conditioning of ourselves through our ancestory, religion, society and often gender.

In France when you are scorned for your country it is an outrage.  In Lebanon it is not.  In the Catholic religion if you commit a sin you go to hell, but in the Buddhist tradition they only see a sin as wrong thought.  Who is right?  Who is right when we go to war?  The country that starts it or the country that ends it?  The one who says it is acting on their faith or the one that believes they have God and their faith behind them?

You see there is no right or wrong.  It is only our perceptions based on our experience.  Our righteousness then is a mute point.  For when faced with another's perception of the world, be it on a personal level, planetary, our by country, we still have within us the makeup that lead us to the belief in our righteousness to begin with.  It is no more qualified or right than the person or country you disagree with.  The only real difference is the way that thought and belief came into being.  For if you were in the shoes of the other person and had their history, you most often would have arrived at the same thoughts and beliefs that they did.

During times of war, turmoil, and anger we must remember that we all have different ideas and beliefs.  The ego will often times lash out in something we want to call "righteousness", but the righteousness in our minds, is not necessarily the only "right" way.  If we deal with our problems and disputes in this way, being open to the fact that others have been raised in a different light, come into different beliefs, it allows us to hold a space between us.  We can meet halfway, knowing that not everything we do is right and not everything they do is right, but somewhere in between lies the heart space to make almost any situation right between us.

Man in the Mirror PROJECT: Trust

"I don't trust people who don't love themselves,

and yet tell me 'I love you.'

There is an African saying which is:

Be careful when a naked person offers you a shirt."

 - Maya Angelou

Trusting yourself is like peeling back an onion.  There are layers of tar and turmoil that surround your I AM presence, that higher part of your being, preventing the real you from peeking out.  Trust is important, because if you don't trust you, who can you trust?

For many of us we often trust others more than ourselves.  We ask for opinions, take the word of our parents as law and "trust" that our friends have our best intentions in mind.  When we find out they don't, or find that we have been betrayed we often say things like "I had a feeling", "I knew it!", or "Somehow I knew she/he was up to something".

Events like this may happen again and again.  Its that small inner voice that tells you that something is wrong, something is about to occur or that someone is untrustworthy.  Society has taught us about how to think and decide with linear thought.  You have facts, you weigh them out and you make a decision.  No where have they taught us how to use our gift of sense, feeling and intuition in making these critical decisions for our lives.  Dogs do it when they begin to bark before someone knocks at the door.  What makes us think that we are a lesser comprised being with deadened senses?

Trusting yourself comes over time.  The more you listen to that little inner voice, the more often it will happen, and the more you will find that inner voice was the one that was right.  Over time you will begin to trust yourself more than what someone else tells you.   You will trust yourself to know what's right for your life and you will trust that something inside of you can take you and tell you where you need to go.  Trusting then is not only an option, but a way of living.  For the trust you place in yourself can only be betrayed by one person - you.

Man in the Mirror PROJECT: Battling Egos

"No matter how the wind howls, the mountain cannot bow to it."

     - The Emporer, Disney's Mulan

The beauty in life is not to be spent on holding grudges.  It is to be spent in wonderment of the beauty that surrounds you.  Pleasing another person's ego is fine, but when you undercut your own worth it is less palatable.  Most people think it is self sacrificing, that you are the better person, but you're not.  For every time you cut yourself down, you cut your worth and your inner strength by conforming to someone else's ego.  This mistake is not only seen on the physical plane but recorded in the ethers.  Its energy is stored in your being and recorded for future events.  If I let someone step on me, I may do it again and again.  Soon, as that energy is stored over and over again, it becomes harder for me to get out of the "rut" I have created and live my life more authentically.

The problem in this; there are two parts to everyone. The ego is the "edging god out" part, which means my ego and someone else's most often reflect our personalities, our family makeup and a reflection of society and will.  This is the part of ourselves that creates and maintains the misqualified energy that when you begin to try and ascend, you want to get rid of. Why then would you ever place yourself in alignment with someone else's misqualified energy?  It would be like accepting someone else's misqualified energy into your life when you are trying to get rid of your own.  It just doesn't make sense.

So how is the mastery of such events gained as ego battles in our lives ensue?  Each may be handled differently, but the key is to measure carefully the energy you take to engage in the battle.  What is your desired result?  Will it make a difference in your life or in the life of another?  It is just the wind howling or does the ego of another have real consequences for you and/or your loved ones?

Ego feeds on engagement.  One person with a "big ego" lets say, will often like to strut their ego like a peacock.  They want you to notice how powerful they are, that no one can mess with them and they are most often caught up in being very important, at least in their own minds.  When encountering a disagreement they will go to great lengths to prove they are right.  They will lie, steal, intimidate and misrepresent all aspects of the battle.

Here another dance ensues.  The battle begins when the other party engages.  The energy can be spent many different ways.  One option is to fight all the lies coming from the party.  Yet when will they end?  And if that's the nature of the ego of one party, this dance continues until the ego of that party decides to end it.  You have now given your power away to the ego, lier, manipulator.

Yet ego says we MUST do something, right?  We can, but we must weigh our options.  When you are becoming conscious of the way life is you may decide to weigh them like this.  What can I do to get the desired result I seek?  If your mind goes to a place where you are not clear what you want to see as a result, you have more soul searching to do.  If, on the other hand, you really don't wish anything to happen, you just don't like this person or group of people talking smack, there is another option; Standing in your strength.  The universe has a way of dealing with those who create their own misqualified energy.  Unbeknownst to them, the lies and deceit are all recorded.  All brought with them from lifetimes of doing the same thing again and again.  They are no threat to us, unless we allow them to be.  For when faced with a foe as such, we have a choice.  To let them in and relinquish our power or stand in our strength knowing we need to do nothing for them to be brought to justice.

Patience is a virtue.  Knowing your thoughts and the thoughts you let in, is another.  Inner strength is knowing all things will be brought to fruition through the laws of nature itself.  And, wisdom is standing like the mountain, no matter how much the wind howls.

The Twin Flame Dance

"To escape the world I've got to enjoy that simple dance"

                                                     - Blood on the Dance Floor, Michael Jackson

Two flames burning dance around each other.  They both begin at the same point, but their varied movements entice and conflict with one another.  Sometimes the flames join and one brilliant flame extends upwards in unison.

The dance of twin flames is internal.  There will be times when you are at odds; times when you are in harmony; and times you realize just how different you are; then times you realize and marvel at how much you are the same.

It's been said that flames rarely incarnate in the same group.  One may be very rich, the other very poor; one could be a celebrity, the other a normal Joe on the street.  Your perspectives then will come from two different places.  Your lessons from two different paths.  What a wonderful way to learn and grow with each other.  For when faced with the opposing side of a thought, you are also faced with yourself.  Your learning then is either gained, or the very existence of another part of yourself is denied.  The denial is more painful than the acceptance of the lesson and so the dance ensues.

In a "normal" relationship, the dance is external.  We take a husband or wife, a boyfriend or girlfriend and show each other our best sides, tell them what we "think" we like (seriously do we really know sometimes?) and who we "think" we are (again, really?  I'm an accountant really doesn't say much when you look at the whole picture.).  The external dance imposes limitations on each other, masks of personalities and expectations for how the relationship should be.  With twin flames, it is the opposite.  The dance is internal.  The lessons are reflected within.  The expectations become moments of surprise and bewilderment, for this is most often territory not spoken of.  Society has not taught you to look within, nor that there is another part of yourself that lives there.

There will be internal struggle to gain mastery and knowledge over what you don't know.  Most often flames unite in their last incarnation, so some of the tools you will use will have been gained in previous life times.  You will find, however, that the lessons this time around will be harder.  Your mastery will be tested.  For the higher you climb into the light, the greater the shadow side will be.  How far have you come?  Have you mastered yourself enough not to get entangled once again into the dance of the ego and create more karma?  When someone pushes your buttons, how do you respond?

Spiritual dancing is like this:  Your flame is your partner.  You poke and prod, edging each other on.  As you take a step back, they may take a step forward, but the dance itself always leads you into the upward spiral of unity.  For in each step you will awaken to your true self.  Each step you find out something new about yourself, because even though you may have been born into different circumstances, you will find your flame has an almost identical internal make up as you do.  The lessons then that you fail to see by yourself will be mirrored to you by your flame.  When you awaken, you will ponder why it is this person is so much like you.  You can see so clearly what it is about them that they lack and when you do, you will realize you lack the same thing.  It is in this way you can internally awaken to your mastery and gain the knowledge you need to overcome your obstacles.  This is the dance of the flames.  The eternal yearning for union and the road to self mastery and wisdom.

The OTHER Side - Some Things DON'T Change; Some Things Get Uglier

This morning I was up early.  We are on daylight savings time where I live, but my body is still on Debbie time! lol  So when I awoke I had time to have a conversation with Michael and about half way through I realized almost nothing in our conversations has changed.  We still talk like we used to,  and the conversations are pretty much the same.  We are in November now, and if you've read my book you might remember that every year around the same time, like normal folk, the conversation almost always turns to the kids and what they want for Christmas.  I like to check on his kids, he on mine.  I like to see how the children are, if they are happy, see if they are being well cared for.  Michael still watches over them - like a hawk (he says), and as always, if there is anything I can ever do for his kids, I always want to be available.  I believe he feels the same about mine.

So as our conversation took place about Christmas, we discussed the wants of his son Prince.  Prince is getting older, so Christmas gifts don't seem as simple as they once did.  We recalled a time when Prince was living with his father in Bahrain.  I think it was back in 2005 when again the same conversation came up.  Back then Prince wanted a pony.  There was no way Michael could get a pony for him back then, but we laughed about it because it was just the way things were supposed to be.  A child with the belief that anything was possible -  no matter where he was.

So as we continued to talk, I had another friend pop in.  She passed some months ago and we I haven't seen her really since the day of the church service for her funeral.  I'm going to call her "Madge" in this post.  She was a good friend then, still is now and we did study together for quite some time.  Madge knew I could speak to people on the other side before she passed.  So when she first passed over we had some minor conversations.  She, like most people, visited with her family and watched over them quite a bit just after she passed.

So this morning as we greeted each other again, she remarked about Michael.  Seems he's met quite a

My Friend "Madge"

few people over there and makes his rounds.  Then I asked how she was, curious on how the transition has been and what her take of "that" side was.  She made me laugh out loud because she said (and I'm putting this in quotes because I thought it was so funny): "Nothing has changed.  It's the same bullshit I had to deal with before I left.  I thought at some point I would go to someplace dreamy and forget, but you don't."  Needless to say, she puts it where it's at.  I always did admire her for that.

So take Madge's advice, deal with most of your "bullshit" while you're here if you can.  Once you go on to the other side you can't fix it as easily.  She had family members that still have karma with her, whom by the way she says if they don't get their asses in gear and do something with their lives, she'd like to kick them in the ass to get them started.  I get it.  I also get how hard it is after someone we love passes.  Sometimes you don't even want to get up in the morning.  But believe me you, you must go on, because believe me, they know first hand how short life really is here.  You have just a small amount of time on the earth plane, and as Michael says, you have to make it count.

The uglier part of this conversation started when I went to find a picture of the prince Michael was staying with when his son asked for the pony.  I found an article that eerily is similar to the situation Michael was in before he passed.  Seems the quest for control of him and his Sony/ATV catalog started well before 2009.  According to this article it was the Prince that thought he had control over Michael and his catalog back then . . . slighting Michael's arrangement with him.  This sounds fishy to me.  I remember this time.    We talked about him coming to stay with me, because he had no where to go with the kids.  They had scheduled a trip to Japan for him to charge money for autographs.  A trip he did not feel well about.  Michael was running during this time, and although at the time I'm not sure he knew who he was running from, I'm beginning to get a much clearer picture looking back and after reading the article I found:

"In other words, Prince Abdulla owns Michael outright and is angry that Jackson skipped out on him in June 2006 without so much as a moonwalk.

The deal would tie Jackson up until at least 2012, if the prince enforces it.

Jackson, the prince states in his filed claim, moved to Bahrain on June 29, 2005, some 16 days after the pop star’s acquittal on charges of child molestation and conspiracy.

For one year, the prince underwrote Jackson’s life in Bahrain — everything including living accommodations, guests, security and transportation. That number is in the millions.

The prince also paid for Jackson’s lawyers, who handled his financial renegotiations with Sony and Fortress Trust. At one point in the spring of 2006, Sony could only deal with Prince Abdulla’s team on behalf of Michael. They saved him from bankruptcy. He states that Jackson is in "grave danger of losing" both his Neverland ranch and his stake in Sony/ATV Music Publishing."
http://www.foxnews.com/story/2007/10/15/michael-jackson-gives-bahraini-prince-royal-pain/