Michael Jackson - A Twin Soul's Story

The Planetary Shift - This Is It

2012-02-28T15:54:00.000-08:00

I promised to post who else is helping in the movement for planetary peace and for the raising of our consciousness. If you remember we are in the year 2012. Mayan prophecy, as well as many other modalities around the world have told us that the consciousness of humanity will be changed like no other time in the history of our planet. That global shift is happening right now.

There has been evidence all over the world. The banking systems, war, and our personal lives have all had upheavals. The time has come to review what we have been doing, become conscious of it, and change our lives and planet for the good of all.

Many times if twin souls are to be in service together, there are "sponsors" that volunteer to help the twins come to a point where not only their service can begin, but what kind of service they together will be able to offer. Sometimes the sponsors are referred to as "divine guidance". It's been said that it was some of these beings that helped others in other times of great spiritual advancements in our history.

These "sponsors" are most often from a group called "The Brotherhood of Light". If it sounds strange at first, bear with me. Most often the reason it sounds strange is because we are conditioned to think of the only "real" beings to be physical. In terms of our planetary evolution and our "real" selves, you must realize that you are, in fact, a divine creature created from God. That is in it's most perfect form in the spirit, not the flesh.

So these sponsors from the Brotherhood, often are what they call ascended masters. You probably know one right off the bat. His name was Jesus, and ironically, or not, he came in physical embodiment just about exactly 2000 years ago. During his time, he served with his twin flame who was Mary Magdeliene. Maybe you've seen the DaVinci Code, or read the book. There is some nice insights available if you haven't.

What's special about the 2000 year mark and the year 2012 is that most souls can only ascend every 1000 years. Meaning if I don't make my ascension this time around, I spend another 1000 years on the planet. There are only a select few that are able to leave their rounds of incarnations on earth when they make their ascensions (meaning they have fulfilled their karma by at least 51%). The others must stay on the planet to sustain the "light" until the rest of us can hold our own "light" in time.

So here is this big movement, this time in history when so many souls who have already or are ready to ascend that have either come to the earth or are sticking close by so that they can help the rest of us lift our veils of illusion that we are all separate and truly begin to live in harmony with one another.

My sponsor is Saint Germain. If you look up any information on him online, you might find that it is he himself that is taking the reins in the movement for humanity to become whole in higher consciousness. You may also find that we spent other lifetimes together trying to achieve the same thing, including Michael Jackson. You will also find that it is he that said he would find Marie Antoinette in another lifetime to make sure she was given the teachings by him. If you read any of my previous posts you will now know that that was me and Michael Jackson in that lifetime was Mozart.

What does that mean? It simply means that St Germain spent a lifetime with both Michael and I. That lifetime happened to be called "The Age of Enlightenment" in Paris, France where the same kind of work was transpiring. This time since Michael's ascension, the work will be more widespread. Michael and I both serve on the seventh ray. This is St Germains ray for freedom.

St Germain has given the purpose for our incarnation, and that will be to help unfold the patterns or "ruts" as he calls them in the minds of the many. He works along side other masters, such as El Morya, Quan Yin and many others. All forming the group called The Brotherhood.

The interesting thing about The Brotherhood is when they first introduced themselves to me and I asked their name they told me "It is not I, but we. When you think of yourself, think of us. When you think of us, think of yourself" This was one of the most profound statements I had ever heard in my life. There was no ego. The statement, simply put made it very clear that "WE ARE ALL ONE". There is not a me or a you. When we act we must always think of the "us".

Ascended Master Saint Germain, le Comte de Saint Germain, the Wonderman of Europe, and many other names belong to the fascinating mysterious man chronicled as, "The man who knows everything and never dies". He is well known for his involvement with shaping 18th century Europe. He was a favored guest at Versailles, confidant to King Louis and Marie Antoinette, Napoleon, Catherine The Great of Russia, and many other heads of state during that time. He was known to have lived over 300 years, never aging, partially due to the mysterious Elixir and other alchemical substances he created.

A few of his historical incarnations include; the Prophet Samuel, Plato, Merlin to King Arthur, Roger Bacon, Francis Bacon, Christopher Columbus, Saint Alban, Saint Joseph - father to Jesus, Prince Rakoczy (Rákóczi), and Leonardo Di Vinci. He was a powerful healer and High Priest in Atlantis. It was there that he first introduced the Sacred Violet Flame of Transmutation as a gift to humanity. His many lives have common themes of magic, alchemy, mystery, brilliance, transformation and spiritual devotion. All took place during pivotal times of history where he was instrumental in bring forth expansion and higher evolution of humanity.

He currently lives in both the Higher Realms; as the Lord of the Seventh Ray, the Violet Ray of freedom, alchemy, justice, mercy and transmutation, and in earthly dimension; by physically appearing from time to time, and through his direct influence and instruction to people he has selected to be his "assistants". Soon Saint Germain will reign as the leader of the Golden Age, the Age of Aquarius, when our planet Earth ascends into the 5th dimension. This event is in progress now and is planned to be completed by December 2012. There will be a "deconstruction/reconstruction" period of approximately 25 years before the Golden Age is fully manifest, however, many people will live in the new state of consciousness much sooner.

A World of Change - Keeping an Eye on Planetary Peace

2012-02-27T09:04:00.002-08:00

Over the weekend I had noticed Michael was back from one of his excursions again. When I asked where he was he told me Somalia. "Somalia?" I asked "What were you doing there?" "I was helping people get out" he said. "It's terrible there. Really terrible."

Somalia's so-called peace does not spare its children's suffering

BY:DAN MCDOUGALL, MOGADISHU
From:The Times
February 28, 2012 12:00AM

IN A basic military clinic filled with wounded children, the sour smell of infection hung heavily in the still air.

Smothering her son's screams with her palm, Mina pulled back a thin sheet to reveal the terrible scars on his torso left by an al-Qa'ida attack just metres from the pavement where she was sleeping with her refugee family.

As most of us know, Michael Jackson had a rare opportunity to see the world. In doing so, he was exposed to much of the war, poverty and suffering that has and is still going on in the world. As he continues his mission to help humanity on the other side of the veil, I'll be posting his where abouts and how we can help him in achieving that mission. It is one of world peace and for the upliftment of humanity.

I'll be adding another tab on the blog soon. That area will contain things that you can do to help in the mission in healing the planet. We are not asking for money. We will be asking for a little bit of time, maybe some visualization and prayers.

When time allows I'll be posting more information about who else is helping in this mission and it is my sincere desire is that you too will join us in it.

UPDATE: Please visit the New PLANETARY PEACE PROJECT Page

Michael on Divine Seeds

2012-02-24T08:11:00.000-08:00

"The divine of all things contains a seed within all of us. That seed carries with it the ability to know who we are and where we are meant to go.

A long time ago I was faced with a choice in my life . That choice was whether or not to make music for the masses or make music that made a difference. My choice in my lifetime was made based on my faith in God and the fact that I felt He was the one that created the music for me.

What a great opportunity we all have to face the music that sprouts from the seed within us all. Finding the music within you is what this life is all about. Don't pay attention to the garbage that everyone tells you,. That you must be this or must be that. You already know inside who you were meant to be. You only have to nurture that seed within you to let it come out. Be careful what kind of water you use, and what kind of food you feed it. If you are not loving with the seed and mindful of it's growth, it will never become who you were meant to be. You can't watch a seed grow, because it wont' grow faster. And you can't make it grow, because the seed matures in it's own divine way. What you can do is make a commitment to yourself to do those things you said you always wanted to do but never could. Where is that passion inside you and how do you want to direct it? That's the question you have to ask yourself. Not what should I do, but where should I go? The doing will come to you, but the thought about where you want to go will set the seed that's planted within you into motion in the universe. From there all things will begin to come to your seed to nurture it. You only have to be ready to receive that nurturing.

You must remember we are all seeds from our universe and the universal consciousness. She is our mother. She wants your seed to grow and delights in it's growth. As people, we can wonder at our seeds and see the miracle of the beauty that with everything there is divine purpose.

You truly touch my heart with all you do. I wish the best for all the seeds in the universe. May your seed sprout wings and your heart bring joy to all those around you. Thank you for your time, your energy and your prayers. In time you will all know what it is to sprout wings. Forever yours, Michael"

On Healing the Kids

2012-02-23T07:46:00.000-08:00

Rabbi Shmuley and Michael

I mentioned in a previous post I attended a Heal the Kids event back in 2001 presented by Michael and Rabbi Shmuley. That organization went defunct because the funds were misappropriated. To add to that, I'm not exactly sure where Heal the Children's organization stands right now, but I do know it is now being controlled by the estate. I am currently unaware of any charitable donations made on behalf of the estate or charitable activities. I have read, however, that the estate will not be giving any funds to any organizations started by Michael Jackson fans.

With that said, I am aware of a few organizations that have been started by fans. Maybe if you know of an organization started as the direct result of Michael Jackson you can or have them list it on the Return to Love page of this blog. Any attention that the organization can get, the better off it is for solidifying funding. Maybe there are even ways that can be creative for fans to actively participate instead of contributing monetarily. Volunteering time and love can be just as crucial.

Michael himself sat at the bedside of many children in orphanages all over the world, holding their hand. This is only one way that you too can help heal the children. I know it sounds simple, but there is evidence that humans need human touch to thrive. A supporting hand, a gentle caress, can mean a world of difference to some little boy or girl who feels that they have been abandon and no one cares.

As I've said before,80-95% of people in this world did not receive the love, guidance and other nurturing necessary to form consistently healthy relationships and to feel good about themselves and what they do. Symptoms of this are not evident to even ourselves. We don't have a broken leg or a cut to prove we have this damage, we hold it within.

At some level, most of us will realize there has to be something more to life. Our daily living does not currently permit for growth in the way we were intended to grow. Society has placed in our path that which society feels should be our goals, not the goal of who we were meant to be in our most original God centered divinity.

If it seems you are continuously trapped by feeling anxious, depressed or lonely, this in itself is evidence that you continue to be trapped by your past. You most likely, however, are only vaguely aware that the present day difficulties are substantially related to your childhood history - or perhaps even past lifetimes. My spirit guide, St Germain, leading the revolution in the new consciousness, calls these patterns of repetition, our earthly rut. This rut will continue to be passed to our children, should we ourselves not decide to break the pattern.

This is what Michael was speaking about at the Heal the Kids conference:

" . . .Who among us would have believed that the sound of children at their playground would be replaced by the sound of automatic machine gun fire at our schools. That the sound of little girls skipping rope would be overshadowed by the frantic squeals of children dodging bullets. Yet instead of loving our children more we've installed metal detectors in our schools.

Are we blind to the fact that our children are raging against the indifference; crying out against the abandonment; of thundering against the neglect.

Heal The Kids is about doing something, about making a difference and trying to help adults and parents realize that its in our power to change the world that our children live in.

As a wise man once said, 'If not us, then who; if not now, then when?"

There is that word again: Love. What exactly does love mean and do we as a society place enough priority upon it to give it merit in our world? Currently, I have to answer that with a resounding "no". Yet it is the very fabric we are comprised of, the very thing that created our existence to begin with. Someone once said "It is better to live as if God exists and not believe in Him, than it is to believe in Him and live as though he is not." The point is to love we must nurture and to nurture our children, we must also nurture ourselves.

Rabbi Schmuley once said that Michael thought he could help Hitler. This is why: In countries of war, where children are not only abandoned but assaulted on a daily basis we still wonder why they may grow to be an angry dictator or rebel leader. This is what Michael meant we he thought he could help Hitler. Perhaps he could find out his story and lead him down a brighter path. This is love in action, more commonly known as compassion.

This link will take you to a beautiful video about what we may sometimes experience with not so nice people. They too have a story and if we make room for compassion in our hearts, we just might be able to make a difference for them and our world.

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Who's Bad?

2012-02-22T08:24:00.000-08:00

When Michael Jackson wrote HIStory the song, he reminded us that each day we are creating the history of our planet. Each step, each action and every thought contributes to the whole. But what thoughts are we thinking? What steps are we taking and are they making a positive impression on our world or negative?

At first glance there is a generalization about who or what a person is about, even countries. It's called judgement, and in every second of every day we make them. The problem is, most of the time we make them about people or countries who's story we never even know.

I can relate to many events in my own life that I have been judged, gossiped about, and disregarded based on the thoughts and judgments that people have made about me that never knew a thing about me. Everyone has a story. Sometimes our stories lead us into greatness, and sometimes they are our demise. What we don't realize, however, is that we can either choose to help change someone's story in a positive manner or condemn them negatively. Either choice is up to us. Ultimately, however, that choice effects every other life that the condemnation or inspiration you gave out to the first person effects. Like a ripple in the water, the vibration of your deed resonates through that persons being and into our world.

In 1986 Michael Jackson wrote a song called "Bad". It's a song about a kid from a bad neighborhood who gets to go away to a private school. He comes back to the old neighborhood when he's on a break from school and the kids from the neighborhood start giving him trouble. Michael said that he had gotten the idea for the song from a true story that he had read about in a magazine. The story said that a student that went to school in upstate New York, who was "from the ghetto", had tried to make something of his life when he returned from Thanksgiving break. He added that the student's friends' jealousy resulted in them killing the student.

Maya Angelou wrote a poem about people like this. Sometimes when you try to make

something of your life you will encounter what she calls "haters":

A hater is someone who is jealous and envious and spends all their time trying to make you look small so they can look tall.

They are very negative people to say the least. Nothing is ever good enough!

When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters…

That’s why you have to be careful with whom you share your blessings and your dreams, because some folk can’t handle seeing you blessed…

It’s dangerous to be like somebody else… If God wanted you to be like somebody else, He would have given you what He gave them! Right?

You never know what people have gone through to get what they have…

The problem I have with haters is that they see my glory, but they don’t know my story…

If the grass looks greener on the other side of the fence, you can rest assured that the water bill is higher there too!

We’ve all got some haters among us!

Some people envy you because you can:

a) Have a relationship with God
b) Light up a room when you walk in
c) Start your own business
d) Tell a man/woman to hit the curb (if he/she isn’t about the right thing)
e) Raise your children without both parents being in the home

Haters can’t stand to see you happy.
Haters will never want to see you succeed.
Most of our haters are people who are supposed to be on our side.

How do you handle your undercover haters?

You can handle these haters by:

1. Knowing who you are & who your true friends are *(VERY IMPORTANT!!)

2. Having a purpose to your life: Purpose does not mean having a job. You can have a job and still be unfulfilled. A purpose is having a clear sense of what God has called you to be. Your purpose is not defined by what others think about you.

3. By remembering what you have is by divine prerogative and not human manipulation.

Fulfill your dreams! You only have one life to live…when its your time to leave this earth, you want to be able to say, ‘I’ve lived my life and fulfilled my dreams, Now I’m ready to go HOME!

When God gives you favor, you can tell your haters, ‘Don’t look at me…Look at who is in charge of me…’

Don’t worry about it, it’s not your problem, it’s theirs.

Just pray for them, that their life can be as fulfilled as yours! Watch out for Haters…BUT most of all don’t become a HATER!

As you progress through your journey, perhaps begin to make your ascension, rest assured there will be haters. There are the masters that have walked before you to give you inspiration; Michael himself had haters, Jesus, Gandhi, Martin Luther King and every other person who has made a positive mark in the world. Let haters be haters, but remember they are not the ones who define you. You are. When you begin to make your way into your rightful place in life, keep reaching for your higher ground, despite the haters. Let them drop away from your life like shedding old skin. The blessing with haters is that they will always make themselves known. When you are down they will rejoice, when you are up they will be repelled. Just remember the lesson is that your value and purpose will always be worth more than a haters view of you. Remember "Who's Bad?".

Realizing Your Yoga

2012-02-21T08:03:00.000-08:00

If you want peace upon earth first establish peace in your heart. If you want union in the world, first unify the different parts of your own being. Change yourself and the circumstances will change.
- The Mother

Yoga teaches philosophies based upon the principals of nature. Even the poses are named after things we find in our natural world. Tree pose, frog, and scorpion. Everything in our world mimics nature. It's been said that a study of nature can bring man his greatest wisdom.

I used to teach my yoga students that we are all like our own little planets. We have 4 bodies, just like the earth. Our water is our emotions, our bodies are the land, our mind is the air, and our fire is our spirit. If we think of ourselves this way, we can come to know what we need to do for ourselves to heal our own little planets. When we do, we effect the other planets orbiting around us, and on a larger scale, the whole.

Yoga means yoke or union. This is the union that the mother is talking about in the above quote. Before this union can occur, however, our old patterns must be broken down. The old beliefs that we hold about ourselves need to be shed.

Most of us lead our daily lives with the belief that we are our thoughts. That what we think is the real us. The truth is, is that those thoughts are actually just the ego. It's the outer casing the envelopes the inner self of who you truly are. By knowing and recognizing this we can take a back seat to our thoughts and begin to recognize our patterns with unattached observation.

There is a quote in the bible from Matthew that talks about children. "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven"

I don't think I need to tell you that Michael himself was like a child. Everything he looked at he viewed as if it was magical. He viewed it with curiosity and wonder. Looking at things this way allows you to detach from any preconceived ideas about what it is you are looking at.

Yoga is not just stretching as most people believe. When you are doing yoga there are multiple things happening. First, you are concentrating on your breath. For each movement your body makes, your breath coincides. Your are joining breath with movement. But there is more that is happening on a deeper level. Your body is moving in ways it's not used to. By the movements it makes you are allowing your "earth" or your body to stretch. If you visualize a rubber band stretching, what happens as the band gets longer? The actual molecules or atoms that it is comprised of move way from each other, creating space. As your body does this same thing, the space that is created allows any stored emotional and mental tensions to rise to the surface to be released.

Being present in the pose you observe. You don't judge how far your body goes in relation to the person next to you, you only observe how your body is reacting to the pose. You are also observing your mind. Where your thoughts are and what they are thinking. By observing your thoughts like a child, with wonder and curiosity, it becomes easy to laugh at them. You realize that when you think "I can't do this" you no longer can. When you think "this is easy" you suddenly soar.

We all have yoga already built into us. Our thoughts already affect the rest of us - our bodies, our breathing, everything. It's just the realization of that yoga that can truly change what you create for yourself.

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Michael Jackson Turns To Yoga To Calm Nerves

Posted on November 25, 2004 by popdirt

In Touch magazine reports that Michael Jackson has recently started doing yoga to calm his nerves while on trial for child molestation. “Michael’s really nervous,” an insider revealed. “All he can think about is his trial and the possibility of jail.” The source added, “He’s becoming quite good at it and is learning how to relax a little.”

A Coming Out Follow Up

2012-02-20T07:42:00.000-08:00

The previous post entitled "Coming Out" seems to have brought with it many thoughts of perhaps what my intent is on the blog. Twin flame relationships are very sacred. They are very personal. However, they also exist when forming a union on earth for a reason. That reason is most always to in someway help educate or improve the conditions of humanity.

We started on this blog with the Man in the Mirror Project, the Twelve Days of Miracles, as these ideas were to plant seeds in your mind as to the possibility of there being something miraculous that you will be able to obtain in your life. That work will go on in many forms on this site. The intent of the book, once it's published, is to raise seed money for a foundation which will be given to the dozens upon dozens of organizations that have been started in Michael's name across the world by the adoring and loving fans.

You might remember hearing that Michael himself sold his first photos of his son Prince to OK magazine. The money he received was given to charity. That's how he "rolled" so to speak. So going forward with this and what he wanted to teach, about our children and the cycles of the human race, I take these, his words and ideas, always into consideration.

The following video is from the 1999 Bollywood Awards. Michael himself is expressing the duty we have in using this type of medium for the good of our planet. How else are we able to reach his fans and the masses?

The Union of All Things

2012-02-17T08:08:00.000-08:00

Sri Aurobindo, the twin soul avatar of India, wrote some very insightful concepts about coming into union with our divine self. He writes:

"When Man moves his attention away from the sense inputs of the surface, and discovers his inner being – down to the depths of Soul within – he begins a vast ascent in consciousness.

In the depths, he begins to move out of his ego and become more connected with, sensitive to, and unified with the world around him, including others. He loses that sense of division and duality in life. "

Heaven Is Here

You and I were never separate

It's just an illusion

Wrought by the magical`lens ofPerception

There is only one Wholeness

Only one Mind

We are like ripples

In the vast Ocean of Consciousness

Come, let us dance

The Dance of Creation

Let us celebrate

The Joy of Life

The birds, the bees

The infinite galaxies

Rivers, MountainsClouds and Valleys

Are all a pulsating pattern

Living, breathing

Alive with cosmic energy

Full of Life, of Joy

This Universe of Mine

Don't be afraid

To know who you are

You are much more

Than you ever imagined

You are the SunYou are the Moon

You are the wildflower in bloom

You are the Life-throb

That pulsates, dances

From a speck of dust

To the most distant star

And you and I

Were never separate

It's just an illusion

Wrought by the magical lens ofPerception

Let us celebrate

The Joy of Life

Let us dance

The Dance of Creation

Curving back within ourselves

We create

Again and again

Endless cycles come and go

We rejoice the infinitude of Time

There never was a time

I was not

Or you were not

There never will be a time

When we will cease to beInfinite

UnboundedIn the Ocean of Consciousness

We are like ripplesIn the Sea of Bliss

You and I were never separate

It's just an illusion

Wrought by the magical lens ofPerception

Heaven is Here

Right now is the momentof Eternity

Don't fool yourself

Reclaim your Bliss

Once you were lost

But now you're home

In a nonlocal Universe

There is nowhere to go

From Here to Here

Is the UnboundedOcean of Consciousness

We are like ripples

In the Sea of Bliss

Come, let us dance

The Dance of Creation

Let us celebrate

The Joy of Life

AndYou and I were never separate

It's just an illusion
Wrought by the magical lens ofPerception
Heaven is HereRight now, this moment of Eternity
Don't fool yourself
Reclaim your Bliss

- Michael Jackson, Dancing the Dream

Coming Out

2012-02-16T16:10:00.000-08:00

Sometimes in life there is no turning back. Sometimes you just know you have to move forward with something and there is no other option. This blog as it's title brings with it connotations of every sort. And as often as I've tried to skirt the subject and remain on only giving things that will help, I know now I also need to "come out" with my history so you know where this is coming from.

I wrote a blurb on the side column about who I am. I can't tell you how much of this relationship with Michael Jackson has felt like a curse, although I know it is a great blessing. There is a double edged sword here because of who he was, who people think he was, and who he was to me. I can only give what I know.

I've thought about this for months now. Realizing that some who might not understand this may feel their hearts have been broken. Sometimes I wonder if they felt that way when Michael actually married Lisa Marie Presley or Debbie Rowe.

I don't want to come out with this because that's my intent. I don't want to come out with this because I want to proclaim myself Michael's soul mate. I don't want to come out with this because I want attention. Given the circumstances of who the general public think Michael Jackson was, that is attention I could do without if I was just after that. Due to the fact that I was married for over 22 years, I could do without claiming to be his soul mate and desperately in love with him.

Now that's that is said, here are the nuts and bolts: Wouldn't it be grand to know that we are all spiritual beings? Wouldn't it be miraculous to know we are all connected beyond a shadow of a doubt? Wouldn't it be heartwarming to know that within each one of us lies a link to someone who loves us completely and we always have access to that someone?

I'm sharing this because I want to give. I want to teach you what Michael was trying to teach you. I want you to know this story because in knowing mine, my hope is that your life story will be made brighter.

Michael Jackson loved the world. He loved his fans. Although I shared a love with Michael Jackson, I was well aware that I lost him to the world in 1983. I knew then that he would never be mine. He was here for you. If you've ever seen the Oprah Winfrey interview way back in the day, he said it himself; he had work to do. So now it's my turn.

The side bar relates back to a song recorded in 1987. When you listen to the lyrics and watch the performance you'll notice similar ideas I have already said in this blog. Speaking in the morning, in the evening and me walking away. Some twin souls are simply not supposed to be together.

Create Your HiStory

2012-02-16T07:33:00.000-08:00

If you've ever heard it said that we are our worst enemies, then you'll realize we have patterns within us that need to be healed. This is the man in the mirror we must face before we can truly start healing the world.

Michael Jackson wrote many songs to try and encourage us to lift ourselves out of bad situations and see the best in ourselves. We are more than we can imagine, but to realize this we have to take steps to get there.

I saw this today and thought it would be nice to share. It's the 30 things we need to stop doing to ourselves to help us enter into healthier patterns of being.

As Maria Robinson once said, “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” Nothing could be closer to the truth. But before you can begin this process of transformation you have to stop doing the things that have been holding you back.

Here are some ideas to get you started:

Stop spending time with the wrong people. – Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you. If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you. You shouldn’t have to fight for a spot. Never, ever insist yourself to someone who continuously overlooks your worth. And remember, it’s not the people that stand by your side when you’re at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you’re at your worst that are your true friends.
Stop running from your problems. – Face them head on. No, it won’t be easy. There is no person in the world capable of flawlessly handling every punch thrown at them. We aren’t supposed to be able to instantly solve problems. That’s not how we’re made. In fact, we’re made to get upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall. Because that’s the whole purpose of living – to face problems, learn, adapt, and solve them over the course of time. This is what ultimately molds us into the person we become.
Stop lying to yourself. – You can lie to anyone else in the world, but you can’t lie to yourself. Our lives improve only when we take chances, and the first and most difficult chance we can take is to be honest with ourselves. Read The Road Less Traveled.
Stop putting your own needs on the back burner. – The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too. Yes, help others; but help yourself too. If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now.
Stop trying to be someone you’re not. – One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you likeeveryone else. Someone will always be prettier, someone will always be smarter, someone will always be younger, but they will never be you. Don’t change so people will like you. Be yourself and the right people will love the real you.
Stop trying to hold onto the past. – You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one.
Stop being scared to make a mistake. – Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing. Every success has a trail of failures behind it, and every failure is leading towards success. You end up regretting the things you did NOT do far more than the things you did.
Stop berating yourself for old mistakes. – We may love the wrong person and cry about the wrong things, but no matter how things go wrong, one thing is for sure, mistakes help us find the person and things that are right for us. We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past. But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future. Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come.
Stop trying to buy happiness. – Many of the things we desire are expensive. But the truth is, the things that really satisfy us are totally free – love, laughter and working on our passions.
Stop exclusively looking to others for happiness. – If you’re not happy with who you are on the inside, you won’t be happy in a long-term relationship with anyone else either. You have to create stability in your own life first before you can share it with someone else. Read Stumbling on Happiness.
Stop being idle. – Don’t think too much or you’ll create a problem that wasn’t even there in the first place. Evaluate situations and take decisive action. You cannot change what you refuse to confront. Making progress involves risk. Period! You can’t make it to second base with your foot on first.
Stop thinking you’re not ready. – Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises. Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first.
Stop getting involved in relationships for the wrong reasons. – Relationships must be chosen wisely. It’s better to be alone than to be in bad company. There’s no need to rush. If something is meant to be, it will happen – in the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason. Fall in love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.
Stop rejecting new relationships just because old ones didn’t work. – In life you’ll realize that there is a purpose for everyone you meet. Some will test you, some will use you and some will teach you. But most importantly, some will bring out the best in you.
Stop trying to compete against everyone else. – Don’t worry about what others are doing better than you. Concentrate on beating your own records every day. Success is a battle between YOU and YOURSELF only.
Stop being jealous of others. – Jealousy is the art of counting someone else’s blessings instead of your own. Ask yourself this: “What’s something I have that everyone wants?”
Stop complaining and feeling sorry for yourself. – Life’s curveballs are thrown for a reason – to shift your path in a direction that is meant for you. You may not see or understand everything the moment it happens, and it may be tough. But reflect back on those negative curveballs thrown at you in the past. You’ll often see that eventually they led you to a better place, person, state of mind, or situation. So smile! Let everyone know that today you are a lot stronger than you were yesterday, and you will be.
Stop holding grudges. – Don’t live your life with hate in your heart. You will end up hurting yourself more than the people you hate. Forgiveness is not saying, “What you did to me is okay.” It is saying, “I’m not going to let what you did to me ruin my happiness forever.” Forgiveness is the answer… let go, find peace, liberate yourself! And remember, forgiveness is not just for other people, it’s for you too. If you must, forgive yourself, move on and try to do better next time.
Stop letting others bring you down to their level. – Refuse to lower your standards to accommodate those who refuse to raise theirs.
Stop wasting time explaining yourself to others. – Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it anyway. Just do what you know in your heart is right.
Stop doing the same things over and over without taking a break. – The time to take a deep breath is when you don’t have time for it. If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting. Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly.
Stop overlooking the beauty of small moments. – Enjoy the little things, because one day you may look back and discover they were the big things. The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.
Stop trying to make things perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done. Read Getting Things Done.
Stop following the path of least resistance. – Life is not easy, especially when you plan on achieving something worthwhile. Don’t take the easy way out. Do something extraordinary.
Stop acting like everything is fine if it isn’t. – It’s okay to fall apart for a little while. You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, and there is no need to constantly prove that everything is going well. You shouldn’t be concerned with what other people are thinking either – cry if you need to – it’s healthy to shed your tears. The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again.
Stop blaming others for your troubles. – The extent to which you can achieve your dreams depends on the extent to which you take responsibility for your life. When you blame others for what you’re going through, you deny responsibility – you give others power over that part of your life.
Stop trying to be everything to everyone. – Doing so is impossible, and trying will only burn you out. But making one person smile CAN change the world. Maybe not the whole world, but their world. So narrow your focus.
Stop worrying so much. – Worry will not strip tomorrow of its burdens, it will strip today of its joy. One way to check if something is worth mulling over is to ask yourself this question: “Will this matter in one year’s time? Three years? Five years?” If not, then it’s not worth worrying about.
Stop focusing on what you don’t want to happen. – Focus on what you do want to happen. Positive thinking is at the forefront of every great success story. If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.
Stop being ungrateful. – No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life. Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs. Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.

taken from: http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/2sjIFw/www.marcandangel.com/2011/12/11/30-things-to-stop-doing-to-yourself/

The Birth of Prince Jackson

2012-02-15T08:16:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I went to check on Prince (Jackson). His birthday was the 13th of February. I didn't realize how old he was getting. Already 15 years old and becoming a young man.

It's hard to explain how I feel about Michael Jackson's children. In some respects I feel obliged to check on them and make sure they are OK. I worry about them like a parent and can only attribute my concern to sharing the feeling of energy with Michael himself.

Twin flame soul mates are energetically linked. Many times the emotions one feels, the other feels as well. This has been documented in studies of twins, as in twins that came from the womb together.

Proceeds from the sale of this picture went to charity

On February 12 in 1997 Michael asked what it was like when I had my son. We had been blaming each other at that time. I had accused him of using me as his muse and was angry with him. I didn't want to talk to him anymore and tried to cut him off. This is the part of testing in the Twin Flame relationship. When you realize you have outdated patterns of belief about how you think the relationship should serve you instead of how it is supposed to serve the world. I began to view Michael critically and suspiciously. At this time my thoughts were "he is using me."

So on the 12th that's where I was. When he asked me about what it was like, that was also my energy. My responses were short and abrupt.

This is how the conversation went:

"How are you?"

"Fine"

"I'm going to have a baby"

"I heard"

pause

"What was it like?"

"It was fine."

(This was my pattern. In a relationship this is how I acted. I was mad, hurt and wanted him to know it. I was cold.)

"No, I mean really how was it?"

"Fine!"

There was a pause again. I tried to stay angry, let him know how I feel. but his presence was just that; a presence. He was just there, waiting for me to answer with no ill will, no ill feelings, just love. I could not stay mad anymore. I was literally impossible.

I sensed worry and became softer.

"Don't worry she'll be fine. Women do it all the time."

"No. I don't mean that. I mean how was it. Do you think I should be there. In the room I mean?"

I began to think back.

"I don't know. A lot of men think it's gross. Some don't like to see the blood and stuff."

"What if it were you. You were me. Would you want to see the birth?"

I put myself in his shoes as a man and remembered the birth of my own son. How I felt when the doctor put him up on my belly right after he was born.

"If it were me. Yes. I'd want to see it. There isn't anything else in the world like it. It's amazing. The moment the doctor put the baby on my stomach he was crying so hard. He was so warm, all I could feel was love. I placed my hands on him and he immediately stopped crying. There is bonding time too. Those first moments are so precious. Yes, I'd be there."

"Thank you"

I was pleased and amazed he asked for my opinion and I could feel how excited he was. The next day I thought about the night prior. I felt so incredibly happy and couldn't figure out why. Here was a man that was supposed to be my (at the time I thought) romantic twin flame soul mate. He was having a baby with another woman and I was elated.

That day it was reported that Prince Jackson was born. Michael must have known the night before that he would be born the next day. The news reported that he took the baby home himself for "bonding time".

The reason I decided to share this is because Michael always had this "presence" about him. This presence was like a field of energy that was conscious and uplifting. It was like generating a field of energy around you. By doing so you can change who ever or what ever energies are in that field. It's like you transform them.

In 2008 Eckhart Tolle release a book called The New Earth where he talks about this presence. It's the one thing we can do to help ourselves heal and heal those around us. Becoming the presence ourselves helps transform the energies into something brighter and lighter. In essence, it helps us all heal the world.

L.O.V.E.

2012-02-14T07:47:00.000-08:00

L.O.V.E.

Love is a funny thing to describe. It's so easy to feel and yet so slippery to talk about. It's like a bar of soap in the bathtub, you have it in your hand until you hold on too tight.

Some people spend their lives looking for love outside themselves. They think they have to grasp it in order to have it. But loves slips away like that wet bar of soap.

Holding on to love is not wrong, but you need to learn to hold it lightly, caressingly. Let it fly when it wants. When it's allowed to be free, love is what makes life alive, joyful, and new. It's the juice and energy that motivates my music, my dancing, everything. As long as love is in my heart, it's everywhere.

- Michael Jackson, Dancing the Dream

*Video taken from YouTube posted by a fan*

My Valentines Day with Michael Jackson

2012-02-13T09:10:00.000-08:00

With Valentines Day coming around the corner, there is no doubt that the minds of many are turning to their romantic interests or lack there of. Perhaps you're wondering why you don't have that "special someone" in your life or maybe why the "special someone" you thought was yours has left you.

As we spiritually progress and gain the knowledge necessary for our growth, we come to realize that there are many beliefs and patterns we hold internally about what love is that resonate to the universe without our necessarily knowing it. For instance, do your thoughts about love mirror something that was told to you or something that you have created yourself? Most of us create our own internal stories about what love should be, even who we should love. Sometimes when love feels so right to us and doesn't to the other person we question why it exists. The best outcome in any of this is to learn to be open and learn to know that as we are complex little planets with our own creations and thoughts within us, so are others. Maybe the "other" that you are interested in has some patterns and issues that have not been cleared away.

Many times in the old consciousness we have found ourselves bringing expectations into the relationship about what we expect from the other to make us happy. In the new consciousness we realize that the only source for our happiness comes from within. Our relationships then become the icing on the cake.

One of the hallmark stages of coming into a twin flame relationships is doing away with these outdated views of how a relationship "should be". You love the other so completely that you are faced with the termination of the love or growing into the thought that relationships can be viewed differently.

It was on Valentines Day in 2001 when the thought about what my relationship was with Michael changed.

We had been meeting each other for years prior. Most every time I walked away. There were patterns present in both of us that needed to be healed, some things within us that needed to be recognized. I had learned through the years that rather than trying to make something happen, as someone would in what I viewed a "normal" state of mind or relationship would be, that I needed to wait for divine guidance.

He had been to a few fundraisers with Elizabeth Taylor I had thought to go to, but divine guidance said no. There was a time when he came to my home town to make a public appearance and I thought to go to see him, but divine guidance said no. Thinking back I now know these would not be the events because they had nothing to do with our mission together.

In 2001 there was an announcement that Michael would be at Carnegie Hall in New York City, USA to present a new charity called Heal the Kids. With divine guidance you wait. The universe gives you clues and when things are right, divine timing sets in and synchronicity takes over. So I waited. Pretty soon I was given some points to use for a free night at a hotel in New York by my employer. Then I was prompted to a site for a discount ticket on a flight. A neighbor down the street offered to babysit my son "out of the blue".

I wanted to be sure however, so one day I sat the computer looking at the flight ticket on a website called Expedia trying to decide if I felt it was the right thing to do. I didn't ask Michael about it. I just felt he needed me to be there for some reason. I wanted it to be a surprise. So as I sat thinking, I heard a voice from behind me say "let us know if you need help." It was then I knew my angel sources, my spirit guides would be blessing the event. Twin flames always have other guides, helpers, spirits and "sponsors" that remain on the other side guiding the relationship. These beings intervened many times during the relationship I had with Michael.

I knew then it was the right thing to do and booked my ticket. There is a special sense of peace on events like this. You know without a doubt that the relationship is sacred, you know that it is divinely protected and going to meet him this day I knew without a doubt that I was protected from above. The plane even encountered an abnormal amount of turbulence that day. The woman seated next to me did not speak English. She was terrified, grabbing my arm and making the sign of the cross with her hand. Normally a situation like this would have jarred me too. This day, however, there was a complete and utter knowing that nothing would happen to me. There were beings close by watching my every move and protecting my journey.

I was a little nervous as the taxi cab pulled up to the hall. I had main floor tickets, in the eleventh row. Again, not by accident. In numerology the number 11 is often considered the number of the "spiritual messenger". Two "ones" joined, that make the pillars to the heavenly gate. The vibration and message of "two into one" and "ones' into two", the power of "one" twice amplified ... this is the symbol of the twin soul. Many twin souls have experienced this phenomena of 11's in birthdates and dates of meeting. It is a symbol of the greater work that twin souls have been united on this earth to do. This was a Heal the Kids event, and something I continue to work on to this day.

As I stood in the entrance I watched and listened to the numerous Michael Jackson fans talking excitedly about the event. I remember feeling so amazed learning that many of them had flown in from other countries just to get a chance to see him in person. The sheer excitement in the room made me smile.

I sat next to a school teacher who asked me of all things if I had ever been to the opera. What's strange about it is that I had only watched one opera, and that was because of Michael. It had been said that opera's like Madame Butterfly told the tragic story of twin souls. I wanted to see it for that very reason. Further, however, I never realized that Michael had written operas in his past life as Mozart. In that lifetime I was Marie Antoinette and it is widely known that she too enjoyed the opera, but that's a story for another day.

When Michael came out on stage he was so gracious greeting all the fans and even bending down to shake the hands of those in the front two rows. I just watched as everyone rushed the stage and began screaming at him. I was amazed at how people reacted to him. So I stood at my seat just taking it all in. I didn't expect him to look so soon, but he did. His gaze went directly to me and at that he gasp for breath and mouthed the words "Oh my God.". It worked. I did surprise him. He stood up, then grabbed his stomach, bending over walking around the stage. It seemed I not only surprised him, but maybe even shocked him. I just watched, wondering why it was that the guides wanted me to be there and what this moment might mean to him. He kept it up for quite a while. Pacing back and forth on stage holding his stomach and pointing to me looking at someone behind the stage.

It went on for so long I started to worry about him. Twins resonate at the same frequency. We spoke telepathically and although that sounds crazy by then I knew he could hear me, so I told him to stand up. He was doubled over still. I kept repeating it, then like a soldier he snapped up and walked to the podium. He stood for a moment as the crowd went crazy, looking in my direction he said "I love you" and began to speak about healing the kids. In that moment something miraculous happened. It seemed our hearts connected so much so that I seemingly merged with him in spirit and in doing so felt I encompassed the entire room, entire building and everything in it. This is the part in twin soul unions that talks about and the two are joined creating a third. The third is this very special energy.

When Michael wrote You Rock My World and released it later in the year, I believe he called it "magic", This was the year he released "Invincible". The album who's cover is on the right. The album whose cover art option was the photograph entitled "Blue eye" . As twin souls, you are 1/2 of the whole. Not only did he release the album with that image, but he released it back in New York City on my birthday, wearing blue.

We never came together that day. I left the hall and went back to my hotel. There is a little more to the story, but the point is, is that in a normal relationship you would expect to be brought together physically. Maybe in an old pattern of thinking I would have that expectation. In this new pattern, however, I only wished to make my presence known. To assure him he was not alone and to
take our energies into a higher vibration.

Our new thought pattern in this new state of consciousness resonates more with the statement "let's see how this goes." Being open, without expectations, even thinking about it, spurs freedom of self expression, exploration, and growth for both partners.

There are those who have reached God directly

2012-02-11T10:42:00.000-08:00

"Consciousness expresses itself through creation. This world we live in is the dance of the creator. Dancers come and go in the twinkling of an eye but the dance lives on. On many an occasion when I’m dancing, I’ve felt touched by something sacred. In those moments, I’ve felt my spirit soar and become one with everything that exists. I become the stars and the moon. I become the lover and the beloved. I become the victor and the vanquished. I become the master "and the slave. I become the singer and the song. I become the knower and the known. I keep on dancing and then, it is the eternal dance of creation. The creator and creation merge into one wholeness of joy." - Michael Jackson

"There are those who have reached God directly, retaining no trace of worldly limits and remembering their own Identity perfectly. These might be called the Teachers of teachers because, although they are no longer visible, their image can yet be called upon. And they will appear when and where it is helpful for them to do so. " - A Course In Miracles

I came across this by "accident" and I put that in quotes because I believe there are no accidents. Some people have written that they find it difficult to believe that Michael would help them. I don't find it difficult at all. So I'm sharing another story I "bumped" into by someone who knew Michael taken from another blog called "Reflections on the Dance"

"Below is an entry that showed up late last night on the website guestbook entry. I read this and started to cry. It's a beautiful testament not only to Michael, his strong faith in Jesus Christ, and what kind of person he truly was, by another person who had the blessing of knowing him for 2 years, but it is also one of many, many confirmations I continue to receive about the validity of what is on the website and how accurately it portrays what kind of person Michael was. I take no credit for that, but thank my Heavenly Father, because this is all God's doing. He brought me the right people and the right information because, as all of you know, I never had the blessing to know Michael personally. Praise God for continuing to validate what kind of man Michael was. The truth is getting out there! God will vindicate His child...the truth cannot be hidden.

jbwills	Tuesday, 6/28/11, 11:49 PM

	I first of all I would like show my appreciation for the time and effort put forth in compiling this website. The world has been exposed to many images of Michael often being harsh and unfair. I personally have had a chance to know Michael over a two year period and I have seen an image of an individual that I wish more people had known. Most have a defined view of such an iconic figure as his media image can't be escaped. When I met him I was facing serious life challenges and transitions, way insecure. It truely was not a time I felt confident to meet such a notable public figure. In my personal struggle I found a graceous,compassionate,and honoring man. He is a gentle person that loves people. He loves to laugh and his joy, his big huge smile can light up a room. My moments with him over this period of time are filled with life as he belived in living life to its fullest. He forever has touched my heart in deep ways that have impacted my life. The expressions of Michael throughout this site are consistent to the man I knew. His faith is true and he was a humble expression of Christ's love. As he walks in heaven this day his life can give testiment to many things, but i know he'd like most of all to underscore his faith in Jesus Christ. It opens ones eyes to see the impact we have on others, to truely make a difference this is the greatest part of his legacy. He would encorage everyone to reach out and make a difference to make the most of the short years God graceously grants. The world is a bit sadder without his presence but his life still speaks.~ Amen Jb and God Bless You for sharing this." http://www.reflectionsonthedance.com/GuestBook.html

** The Deborah that posted this entry is not me. It's another Deborah and author of the blog Reflections of the Dance **

What do Michael Jackson and Kid Rock have in common?

2012-02-10T08:05:00.000-08:00

There are some rules that David Simon, the late partner of Deepak Chopra used to speak about. The first was before you speak ask yourself "Is it true?". The second, ask yourself "Is it necessary?", and the third, ask yourself "Is it kind?".

This morning I was listening to the radio and heard a story about another musician called Kid Rock. He lives in Detroit, Michigan, here in the United States and I've heard for a number of years now about the impact that he's had on the city through low mumbles among the people in the community. I had several ideas about what to post today. At first I thought maybe I should write about David Simon, or Michael Jackson's past lives, since at first glance the post Kid Rock made had some fairly strong language in it. Then I had to ask myself the three questions that David used to ask. After, I had to ask myself what benefit will I be serving? After a careful review, I decided to post a link to Kid Rock's story. He sells t shirts in Detroit, Michigan USA, gives most of the profits to charity and invests in rebuilding business in Detroit.

Recently, one of the newspapers posted a story that the t shirts he used in the Made in Detroit line weren't actually made in Detroit but shipped from overseas. That the designs were stamped in Detroit, but the t shirts were imported. I had a clothing line myself and know almost ALL clothing for imprinting comes from overseas.

So what does this have to do with the blog? Kid Rock, like Michael Jackson just had a very slanted article printed about him in the news. There are literally thousands of people that will most likely read the article. And, like most people will believe what they read because they have no other reason to believe differently. Michael's entire life was distorted very badly this same way. People began to believe he was much different than he actually was all because of the media's distortions and lies. This is public abuse and bullying on a grand scale. Media and press personnel must be held responsible for truthful reporting. Not because I just don't think it's a nice thing - I mean really, when you think about it they are acting like the high school gossip girls; But, as a society we should expect and deserve to know the truth; we should demand it. It is our right to know and how else would anyone know any different.

This type of reporting, these types of slander are exactly what caused the French Revolution. That's how serious it is. If you look back, you'll realize it was select group of individuals that began rumors about Marie Antoinette, that she purchased a diamond necklace while her country starved. This single event, inspired an entire country to revolt, resulting in the French Revolution. All based on one lie.

Now, I don't think the US is going to start a war because of Kid Rock's t shirts, but I do I think he did the RIGHT thing in speaking out against this type of behavior. I'm posting it so you can know the impact our words have and so you too can speak out against the lies and injustices of society.

Here is the link to his story: http://www.kidrock.com/news/600863-susan-tompor-kid-rocks-clothing-line-says-made-in-detroit-but-isnt/#comments

The Planets Are Lining Up!

2012-02-09T10:56:00.000-08:00

"We`re takin` over

We have the truth

This is the mission

To see it through

Don`t point your finger
Not dangerous
This is our planet
You`re one of us

We`re sendin` out
A major love
And this is our
Message to you
(Message to you)
The planets are linin` up
We`re bringin` brighter days
They`re all in line
Waitin` for you
Can`t you see...?

You`re just another part of me..."

As we progress into a more spiritually evolved society, the veils between our dimensions will become more transparent. According to Maria Shaw, Psychic Astrologer for the National Enquirer, these next few months well be highly charged in spiritual development. In her latest news she shares this:

"On February 3rd Neptune returned to the planet it rules; Pisces. It will be there until late March 2025. Pisces folks will experience some amazing spiritual growth like never before. In fact, we all will. This aspect has not occurred since the 1840's so it's a pretty big deal.

We can expect passion for social issues and spiritualism to grow like never before. There will be many advances made to help people and one thing that comes to mind, is the change in health care and medicine availability to more of society. Our dreams will be more lucid and prophetic.

Tuesday, we had a full moon in Leo. Saturn, the lord of karma is turning retrograde in Libra on the 9th. Our most intimate and KARMIC relationships will be highlighted. Some fated relationships will begin now and others will end. Saturn retrogrades until June 25th. If you've been thinking of about leaving, you'll probably do very soon or you'll wait until after July 3rd.

"This is a classic push/pull dynamic, according to my astrologer friend Eric Linter, who says the lunation is urging us onward while cautious Saturn asks discipline, and patience, especially in partnership and legal matters."

But back to Neptune in Pisces.....Neptune is about

Forgiveness, compassion and moving past old boundaries that have held us back. On a personal level, this aspect will help dissolve old pains and hurts so we can create a new future. Wherever Neptune is in your chart, is the area of your life you will see dissolve and make way for something better.

Meanwhile mars is still retrograde in Virgo until April 13. Many of you I have heard from, are seeing plans and job prospects fall apart now. Things are not working out as planned. Be patient. Sit still."

So pay attention to your dreams! One of the readers on the blog posted some questions about her dreams. Most of us travel out of body when we are sleeping, so don't be surprised if you find yourself somewhere and are not sure how to get back. Also, make sure if you are dealing with ANY kind of spiritual matters you PROTECT yourself! There is good and bad on this side and the other. Working with spirits, meditating, anything that may put you into contact with another level of consciousness is best done under divine direction. Visualize a white light enveloping you, or in worst case scenarios ask the archangel Michael to come and cut the cords of attachment to anything other than the light. Remember good and evil both need a vehicle to work through. Make sure you choose wisely! :)

To find out more on astrology and Maria, visit her website: http://mariashaw.com

Miracle at Neverland

2012-02-08T13:39:00.001-08:00

I went to check on the status of Michael's Children's Hospital and saw a post on their Facebook wall. I wanted to share it because my friend Ester is writing a book on these stories and I hope that more people will come forward with their stories, even if they do wish to remain anonymous.

When you read this I hope you will understand my comment about how the world has still not realized the magnitude Michael had on the planet. There is still yet something to be learned here. I too had a little girl that was healed of cancer by someone with a similar touch. There is something to be remembered when Jesus spoke these words:

John 14:12, KJV

"Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father"

These works are real and the time for them to come to fruition is now. This isn't holy roller stuff, this is the stuff we were made from. The stuff of the spirit that connects us all. We only have to believe and tap into it to achieve a state that could truly heal the world.

Here is the story:

A Testimonial From A Visitor to Neverland Who Shares Her Story:

This is when I stumbled across this discussion and decided to share my story. I was diagnosed with a rare form of child bone cancer in 2000 at the age of fifteen. I was to start chemotherapy in August of that year. Not many people know this but Michael opened up Neverland several times each year for anyone to come and enjoy the park. Everything was free. Rides, games, food. A friend of mine who was a regular at Neverland called me one night and told me the park was going to be open for two weeks at the beginning of August that year. I asked my parents if they would take me the week before I was scheduled to start chemo. My doctors all advised against saying they feared I was too weak but I eventually talked my parents into it. We had to drive what seemed like several miles after we went through the front gates of Neverland to get to where the actual park was with the rides. As we were driving down the winding road something came over me that I can't explain to this day. It was almost a feeling of peace.

When my family and I stepped out of the car we weren't sure if we should check in with someone or really what to do. A man finally walked over to us and introduced himself and then explained to my parents how everything worked. We signed in with our names and other information and were given matching wrist bands and told we could ride anything we wanted, eat anything we wanted, play any of the games, etc. The man mentioned that on occasion Michael would come outside and say hello to everyone there. My parents thanked the man and within minutes I was at the top of the ferris wheel with my Dad. We rode it three times in a row and then it was on to the swings. We rode the rides for hours before getting in line to get some cotton candy and popcorn. As we sat down at a table with our snacks we noticed a crowd of children running all in one direction. I stood up on the seat of the table we were at but couldn't see anything. Several minutes later the crowd began moving towards us and it was then that I saw Michael. Standing under a huge umbrella and laughing as children were pulling at his arm, legs, and hugging him.

My Mom then grabbed my hand and we made our way over to him. We introduced ourselves and my Mom told him what a wonderful time we were having. She then told him about my cancer and that I would be starting chemo the next week. When she said that Michael put one hand on my head and said, "God bless you." When he touched me I felt the same feeling of peace and comfort that I did as I had when we drove through the gates of Neverland. He stood there and talked to us for a couple more minutes and then he left. I continued riding rides with my family and the other children but I couldn't stop thinking about meeting him. As we were leaving that night the man who we spoke to when we arrived stopped my dad and handed him a note. The note was from Michael and it was inviting the three of us to have dinner with him. Without hesitation my Dad accepted the invitation and the man then directed us though another gate which led to the main house. I was surprised once we were in front of the house. I expected it to be this huge mansion but it wasn't. We had dinner with Michael and his children that night and to this day it was the best night of my life. After dinner he asked my parents if it would be ok if he prayed with us and of course they said yes. I had never and still to this day never heard anyone pray the way he did. At fifteen years old it made me cry.

After he finished praying I opened my eyes and looked to each of my parents who were in tears as well. Michael was gracious enough to give us a tour of some of the things we weren't able to see earlier in the day. He showed us the arcade and the movie theatre. The movie theatre at Neverland was not your typical theatre. Not only were there seats like a real theatre, there were also beds for the children who were too sick to sit up. After showing us around we said goodbye to Michael and thanked him for everything. Imagine my mother's surprise when she received a call from him several days later! We assumed he had obtained our number from the sign in sheet that we filled out upon arriving at Neverland. He asked her how I was doing and she told him I would begin chemo on Monday. He then gave her a number in which to reach him directly and asked her to please call him and let him know how I was doing around the middle of the week. She agreed. I went that Monday morning to the hospital prepared to begin chemo. When the doctor walked in the room he asked both of my parents to sit down. The three of us feared he was going to say the cancer had spread. They had run blood work and some more scans on me two days prior which is typical prior to beginning treatment.

When the doctor began to speak he looked at my parents and said, "I don't know how to tell you this. I don't know how to explain this but Danielle no longer has cancer. There are no signs of it on any of the scans we just took." My Mom, my Dad, and I sat there and just stared at him and finally my Mom burst into tears. We left the hospital and the first thing my Mom did when we got home was call Michael. I was embarrassed because she was crying on the phone but then she handed the phone to me to speak to him and it was obvious he had been crying as well. Through the years Michael remained in touch with my family and would call us several times a year on the phone to say hello. He would sometimes send us gifts and cards. I have been cancer-free for ten years now. I can't explain what happened when I went to Neverland. It defies explanation. I want people to know that I am not the only one who visited Neverland very sick only to become well after my visit. There are hundreds, if not thousands of us. Our stories were never made public because Michael didn't want that. He was a wonderful man. I have never met anyone who cared so deeply about not just children but people in general."

Annoynomous Author

For more information on the Michael Jackson Children's Hospital visit http://www.michaelschildrenshospital.com/

Magical Child and the I AM Presence

2012-02-08T08:05:00.000-08:00

Maybe you remember, when the book Dancing the Dream, by Michael Jackson was released. It wasn't on the shelves as long, nor was it popularized or wrote about as much as any other "scandalous" material. Sometimes that's just how press works. If it's not shock and awe, they just don't cover it.

If you've read the book, maybe even have listened to Michael's music, there is no doubt in my mind you walked away knowing there was more to Michael Jackson than what was reported. I can tell you with certainty there were times in my life, I thought the man I knew was in no way, shape or form the one that was represented in the public.

There is a certain role people in the public eye play. There are guidelines, even in the music business about what you can and can't say. There are committees, managers and others who have their opinion on what should or shouldn't be said or done.

But how well did anyone really know Michael? The following poem was written in 1992. In a previous post, I talked about divine guidance. Keeping that in mind, read the following poem. You'll see that he not only talks about the divine guidance, but the historical facts that we represented. The line "Threatened the priests" may remind you of Joan of Arc, or perhaps even Jesus himself.

Magical Child

Once there was a child and he was free

Deep inside, he felt the laughter

The mirth and play of nature’s glee

Beauty, love was all he’d see

He knew his power was the power of God

He was so sure, they considered him odd

This power of innocence, of compassion, of light

Threatened the priests and created a fight
In endless ways they sought to dismantle
This mysterious force which they could not handle

In endless ways they tried to destroy

His simple trust, his boundless joy

His invincible armor was a shield of bliss

Nothing could touch it, no venom, no hiss

The child remained in a state of grace

He wasn’t confined in time or place

In Technicolor dreams, he frolicked and played

While acting his part, in Eternity he stayed

Soothsayers came and fortunes were told

Some were vehement, others were bold
In denouncing this child, this perplexing creature
With the rest of the world he shared no feature
IS he real?He is so strange
His unpredictable nature knows no range
He puzzles us so, is he straight?
What’s his destiny?What’s his fate?

And while they whispered and conspired
Through endless rumors to get him tired
To kill his wonder, trample him near
Burn his courage, fuel his fear
The child remained just simple, sincere

All he wanted was the mountain high

Color the clouds, paint the sky

Beyond these boundaries, he wanted to fly

In nature’s scheme, never to die

Don’t stop this child, he’s the father of man

Don’t cross his way, he’s part of the plan

I am that child, but so are you

You’ve just forgotten, just lost the clue

Inside your heart sits a Seer

Between his thoughts, he can hear

A melody simple but wondrously clear

The music of life, so precious, so dear

If you could for one moment know

This spark of creation, this exquisite glow

You would come and dance with me

Kindle this fire so we could see
All the children of the Earth
Wave their magic and give new birth
To a world of freedom with no pain
A world of joy, much more sane

Deep inside, you know it’s true

Just find that child, it’s hiding in you.

Illustration of the I AM presence

So who is this magical child hiding inside of you? Some might call it the I AM. In the picture at right, you'll see a golden light extending beyond the figure of a man. This is the I AM presence. If you've ever seen older paintings or paintings of Jesus, you may have noticed a golden circle surrounding the head. This represented the aura. The color gold represented the God force, so most of the saints and heavenly figures that have been represented in art and literature for centuries have had the same type of illustration.

It's not mentioned, however, that we all have one of these "halo's" or auras. And, as referenced in Michael's poem, we all have the ability to tap into the God force as children of God. We've just forgotten who we really are.

Not every aura is gold. Our aura's change as we develop and the golden color being the force of God is the pure radiance level of developing spiritually. That development, or some may call it ascension, starts at the heart center and extends up. If you think of the cross that represents Jesus, you'll realize that the intersection is at heart center. Above is his access to heaven, below is the earth.

Jesus points at the heart center; illumined as is his head or "crown"

Divine Guidance; A Lesson from Jack Sparrow

2012-02-07T06:52:00.000-08:00

What is divine guidance and where does it come from? Divine guidance is the ability to recognize the divinity that exists within and around you. It is tapping into the source of your creation and without questioning it know absolutely that it is. Some may call it God, Allah, the source, your higher self; it can go by many names.

Divine guidance can be accessed only by going within. You may recall reading or perhaps hearing a passage in the bible, that "the kingdom of heaven is within.". Those were the words uttered by Jesus. Michael used to say, "the mind is the divine connection". Both statements lead us to knowing where our true source lies.

Meditation,yoga, contemplation and peaceful states where you can clear your mind from everyday distractions help you access this very special place. We have what's called an ego that is the overlay or barrier that is the only hurdle to access. The ego consists of the personality and thoughts that distract you from being your authentic self. These are the thoughts of how great you are, or maybe even how small you are. The ego goes both ways. To begin to shed some of the ego, you only have to ignore it. Let it go, meaning let the thoughts go that tend to dominate your mind. As Jack Sparrow would say in Pirates of the Caribbean, "I like to wave at them as they pass by".

Ego likes to "do", divine guidance "is". So how do you tell the difference between divine guidance and a thought? Did you think it, or did it just come to you with absolution?

Divine Guidance and Michael's Soul Mates

2012-02-06T09:03:00.000-08:00

In the Conrad Murray court case that ended last year, Dr Murray testified that Michael told him that his "divine guidance" was telling him to hire a doctor. These two words should tell you a great deal about who Michael Jackson was and the mission he felt he was here to do.

If we look back to history you'll discover others with "divine guidance" as well. Joan of Arc was born in 1412 in France. Believing that she was acting under divine guidance, she led the French army in a momentous victory that repulsed an English attempt to conquer France during the Hundred Years' War. At the age of 13, she heard the voice of God. The voice was telling her she had a mission before her. She ignited the spirit of an entire peoples and created a legend that still inspires us today.

Joan of Arc was burned at the stake by those who feared her power.

There was another man in history acting under divine guidance as well. His name was Jesus. He heard the voice of God and received his mission. He was here to tell people how to know God and come to Him. He ignited the spirit of an entire world and created a legend that still inspires us today.

Jesus was nailed to a cross because the kings of this world feared his power.

Michael Jackson also had divine guidance, he felt he had a mission. The money he made from touring he gave to non profit organizations and children because that's what God wanted him to do. God wanted him to heal the world. He ignited the spirit of an entire world and created a legend that still inspires us today.

Michael was persecuted and murdered.

Do you ever wonder how many people have to be sent here with a mission before we stop killing them?

There have been only glimpses into the reality and impact Michael Jackson has had on the world. And although perhaps as first glance, one might think this is to sing his graces and put Michael on a throne, it's not. More it is to instill in you the realization that there was yet someone else here on the planet that began laying the foundation for something extraordinary on the planet.

There was a reader named Carmen that posted some comments on the blog. She said she felt she was Michael's soul mate. There are literally thousands of letters all over the internet just like this one:

Dear Michael,

in those 7 months I never stopped believing that you were still with us I’ve always been close in my heart and in my soul.
In moments of despair your music has given me strength and showed me the way to go on; We Are the World, Man in the Mirror, Heal the world, Will you be there, Planet Earth, these are the points of arrival in my life.
You tought me to help people and children, and that’s what I’m doing and I’ll be grateful forever.
Michael you has changed my life, thanks you’re a great person.
I will love you forever and’ll be alwais with you.
Came back and take from us all the love you need.
Please help the people of Haiti, you can.
With L.O.V.E Tania.

Above taken from: http://mjawakening.wordpress.com/2010/01/14/mission-0-0-7/

I humbly ask pardon should there be any ill will with me sharing this information.

There is something very important in these letters. Something I mentioned in a previous post. Sometimes people need to be shown love before they can give it. Do you realize that 85-90% of us did not receive the kind of nurturing we need as children to be in healthy relationships now? Nurturing is love. When our parents don't get it, we don't get it, and our children? Well how can they get it if we don't have it ourselves? Michael gave the love and compassion he knew was missing in the world, and from the looks of people like Carmen and letters like the one above, the world responded.

This is LOVE, this is real, this is the light of the world and the very personal relationship you feel you had with Michael Jackson. So when you say I'm Michael Jackson's soul mate, I believe you.

Michael Jackson in the Unbounded Ocean of Consciousness

2012-02-02T10:59:00.000-08:00

Some of you may be aware that one of Michael's very dear friends and inspirations, was a man named Deepak Chopra. Dr Chopra is a writer, teacher, doctor and philosopher in many ways. If you've ever read the book Dancing the Dream, a book of poems and reflections, you'll see Dr Chopra's dedication in the front. There were many spiritual seekers and teachers Michael had the great opportunity to meet and converse with.

Recently David Simon, M.D., a partner in education with Dr Chopra passed. I was saddened by the news. There are a great number of people on the planet who lend their whole lives in helping others discover their true spiritual natures. Sometimes I think of the volunteers at the soup kitchens. They are there, but no one puts them on the news, pays them, or gives them credit for their work. So in a way I'm posting this to give David Simon, M.D. his due credit. To thank him for the multitudes of people he served while he was here. In another way, however, I'm posting it for the Michael Jackson fans who have had "experiences" lets say since Michael's passing.

Sometimes the every day person is unaware of the how or why things happen. When we don't know about seemingly mystical experiences they can be scary, unnerving, or we begin to create stories in our minds about what they are all about. That's just how we operate as human beings. The how, in some of these experiences is very well stated in Dr Chopra's message about David Simon, M.D. He stated very clearly "to merge again with the unbounded ocean of consciousness". Think about that statement. Then think about what Michael Jackson's message was when he said heal the world, we are all one. This ocean of consciousness permeates our planet. When Michael left, he too merged with that unbounded ocean. Now he's not just in the body, the consciousness of who he was is everywhere!

Another respected teacher and friend of Michael's here in the states is Dr Wayne Dyer. This video gives insights on who Dr Dyer thought Michael was.

In Honor of My Friend and Dear Brother, David Simon >>

Dear Chopra Center Community,

It is with a heavy heart that I share with you today the news that Dr. David Simon has passed away. David has been my friend, partner, teacher, trusted colleague, and younger brother for more than twenty years. He has touched my heart, influenced the way I think, and expanded my spirit. David approached life from a place of pure potentiality and unlimited possibilities. His wisdom, courage, and love will continue to inspire all of us for decades to come.

In his books and workshops, David loved to share poems from spiritual masters who lived many centuries ago yet whose beautiful insights into love and our eternal nature continue to resonate with so many people today. David's favorite poems were reminders that while we appear to be separate, limited individuals, we are all expressions of an infinite divinity. Here are a few beautiful lines from the poet David called "my beloved Hafiz":

The Sun Never Says

Even

after

all this time

the sun never says to the earth,

"You owe me."

Look

what happens

with a love like that -

It lights the whole world.

As a talented physician and author, loving father, husband, and dear friend, David shared his unique gifts with the world. Through his dedication and authenticity, he helped so many people go beyond their limited perspective of themselves and reconnect to the love, joy, and peace of their true selves.

I have felt privileged to work closely with David for many years, and I am grateful that we have had the opportunity to develop seminars, retreats, and programs on mind-body healing and spirituality. While David, as he would put it, has now let go of his temporary human disguise to merge again with the unbounded ocean of consciousness, the gifts that he gave so freely during his life will continue to benefit and inspire everyone he touched through his words, wisdom, and heart.

If you would like to share your thoughts, prayers, and intentions for David's family, please visit lovefordavid.com.

Deepak Chopra, M.D.

Energy Patterns and Reincarnation

2012-01-31T15:21:00.000-08:00

In one of the previous posts, I mentioned past lives. There is a post that references similarities between Mozart and Michael Jackson. It's also in that post that it mentions my past life and how they correspond to our present lives and situations.

If you've ever considered past lives, you may have wondered what the significance of them might be. Perhaps part of the journey through them is to get through our karma (the law of cause and effect) and get back to our true God selves. I've heard many people speak about karma, past lives, getting to the source and many avenues to get there. I don't believe, however, that it was ever intended for us to just sit around waiting for our "karma" to happen.

I think Michael had said, or perhaps it was St Germain, who referred to the fact that although most people know about karma, few actually understand it. If I say karma is when I hurt you and then the next time around you will hurt me, there may be truth to that, but it doesn't encompass the entirety of what karma is; or by the true definition of what "the wheel" of karma entails.

When we began to look at our man in the mirror, in the Man in the Mirror project, we started to notice patterns within ourselves. Those patterns are most often brought through with us through our past lives. In yogic philosophy some believe that the soul is "energetically" drawn to those people and situations that will most "resonate" with the frequency the soul needs to be at in order for it to be put in another similar life situation to be able to give that soul an opportunity to "transcend the wheel" or release itself from it's karma.

For instance, Michael had a life as Mozart in a past life. His life was very similar that time around as it was this time. His father in both lifetimes managed him. This lifetime, however, he broke the wheel of karma by making an independent choice of becoming his own manager. That karma was released and Michael began his journey into becoming a "God free" being, independent of the prior pattern of oppression.

It's those "patterns" of energy that need to be tapped into in order for us to not only release our personal karma, but to also release the planetary karma. Becoming conscious of both could truly heal the world.

Michael Jackson on frequencies and divine love

2012-01-29T17:13:00.000-08:00

I just had a question about where Michael was in the spirit realm and had to ask him. He told me he was in the fifth dimension with a third dimensional frequency. Michael then gave me the following in an explanation to post:

"Third dimensional frequency is the rate at which a vibrational field resonates at within a specific level. We are all spiritual beings and every one of us vibrate at a "frequency" or vibration. When you die, you take that with you. Although your body has it's own frequency, your spirit and thoughts also have a frequency. The more hatred, or bad thoughts you have the denser the vibration. The more love and compassion you have, the higher the vibration or frequency. When I wrote "I'm the light of the world" in This is It, that's exactly what I meant. I felt light, and high on life. Like there was nothing beyond me, that everything was a part of me and I was a part of it. Love in it's highest vibration is divine and that's truly what we should all strive to be at. Divine love is different than people love. Divine love accepts everything and everybody for who and what they are. Allowing for mistakes, allowing for indifferences and allowing for other opinions on things. It is the love of all and what I hoped to convey through my music."

Looking for Michael Jackson Stories

2012-01-27T08:37:00.000-08:00

As many of you have probably noted, not everything said about Michael Jackson was true. The biggest hurdles he had to face also involved the biggest loves of his life - children. If you think back over the years, there was a ton of press about the molestation charges, the color of his skin, the way he opened his home to children, but it was only on a rare occasion that you heard the good Michael was doing for children and people all over the world.

Did you know that humans can actually die from not having human contact? That in many orphanages all over the world there are children starved for human contact? This was one of the things Michael did. He visited orphanages all over the world providing not only necessities, like clothing and bedding, but offering his time and touch. Holding the hands of children and offering them LOVE. These are the real necessities of life, he says.

There is a very special lady I met through the internet that is working on a book about all the people that Michael Jackson touched in his life. The people that visited Neverland, the people who's lives he affected. She is looking for people to interview and if that might be you or someone you know, I invite you to contact her:

Her name is Ester: ester@blueyonder.co.uk

Ester and I met through Heal the World organization when it was still up and running. Through a prompting by Michael, I wrote to her. Michael has said she has a pure heart. He's put his blessing on this project and has also remarked to me about her name, Ester, and that it's in the bible. Although I have yet to ask Ester personally what this might be about.

If you are fan of Michael Jackson, or possibly just following his work, you might have noticed that Heal the World is no longer a presence. They have been sued by the Michael Jackson estate and have had to take down the website. You might have seen Kathryn Jackson and Michael's children on ABC news here in the states supporting Heal the World, but unfortunately even they could not make agreed upon arrangements for the organization to retain Michael's name.

Michael also had a Heal the Kids organization, which you can read about here: http://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/WolfFiles/story?id=93894&page=1#.TyLHqMX1WuJ I personally was following this organization, as it contained elements both Michael and I were interested in and have been working on in the Man in the Mirror project. Parenting and their roles in our lives have a great impact. We continue our legacy through our children and it is this very critical relationship that needs to be healed in order to begin healing our world. If it's not healed with them, it must be healed within ourselves.

This organization has also gone defunct. Unfortunately, there was someone who misappropriated the funds and that lead to it's demise. You might begin to notice a trend here: money, control, and endings to charitable work. Unfortunately, I've also been following the Children's Hospital a few fans from the UK have been trying to get off the ground. They've contact the estate and have yet to hear back of any support from them. If you remember Michael said in the recording they played at the court house what he wished to do with the money from his This Is It Tour:

I am saddened that I've yet to hear of anything the estate has done on behalf of Michael's wishes regarding his charitable work. As you can see from his statement, that's what he wanted to be remembered for most of all. I really feel it's up to all of us to continue this work and heal the planet.

So PLEASE . . if you know of anyone that has been touched by his compassion and love, reach out to Ester and let her know.

THANK YOU!

P.S. Just as a side note. Did you notice that this transcript from court, that was dated May 10, 2009 , weeks before Michael's death has Conrad Murray recorded as saying "I know you would" in response to Michael telling him he was going to build a hospital? Why would he say "would", shouldn't he have said "I know you WILL", if he didn't know something was going to happen to him? Just sayin . . .

Listing of Michael Jackson Charity work: http://www.scribd.com/doc/14283749/Michael-Jacksons-Humanitarian-Efforts-19792003

Michael Jackson and the I AM Presence

2012-01-25T09:42:00.000-08:00

It's a stop in your tracks something is going on feeling, only this time I not only stopped in my tracks, I was swept up in my being as well. There were always "meetings" with Michael. When I say "meetings" I mean times when we would come together physically in the same place. This is common with twin souls. You are getting used to the others energy and testing yourselves on the path. Look at the picture on the right of Michael and the Blue Eye. I have blue eyes. If I was a part of him, this is how I would represent it (as I did on my cover art work for the first draft of the book) When you look at the mirrors on his jacket and if you've ever read any stories about this shoot, you'll realize the photo speaks of looking at oneself. When you meet with a twin in the physical realm that's what you do - it's as if you are looking at yourself; your mirror.

I'd like you to understand what this is truly about. More than love, its about being able to come to terms with everything about yourself and growing spiritually. That can be very scary. For as much as we all want a complete love, it's just as scary to have to look at ourselves and all of our fears, flaws and mistakes. That's exactly what you are doing, and exactly what it takes to come together. An honest, open look at yourself and acceptance of everything about you. This is the ultimate vulnerability. Many twin flame soul mates are just as afraid of meeting this other being than they are in wanting to. The natural inclination is to run.

There is another thing that happens energetically when meeting on the physical plane. You are increasing your vibration and expanding the field around the two of you. It's a very intense and uplifting experience. It literally is like you are both encompassing everything around you. These are the experiences I speak of when I say when you come together with a twin flame because you have experienced oneness with them you have no doubt that we are all truly one.

So when Michael passed and this feeling came over me, it was even stronger. There is a divine spiritual presence that we all have called the I AM, and I can only associate the joining of these with the experience I had. I experienced the feeling of not only his body, but his past lives flashed before me, and the impact of what his life was like. I had always tried to imagine, thought I could, but never in a million years could I. The pressure from so many people was immense. There are simply no words to describe what it was like for him when these feelings came. The other feeling, was his presence, however. It not only encompassed the room I stood in or the building, like in our previous meetings, it encompassed the world. Sounds crazy doesn't it? But it's not. Michael's presence was in the world, true, but it made his statement of We are the World, very literal.

I never planned on sharing this until much later, if at all. But there is something I think you should know. These experiences have happened all my life. I have and still do believe there is and was spiritual work to do together. His life was taken and mine is still here. If I do not finish what he started I'm afraid my life and his will not fulfill the purpose for which they were intended. Twin Flames always work on some spiritual purpose together. The purpose of this, my writing is not to prove I am Michael Jackson's Twin Flame - It is to continue the message and the work.

That being said, I've expressed the experience because I know without a doubt there have been many other people who have had experiences. Because I was connected with him, does not mean he was not connected to anyone else. I may have had experiences, but know there are others as well. How can I know this? Not from message boards, I assure you. It's because of the kind of soul he was. I had that experience because his soul did have an effect on the entire world. How can someone have an effect on the entire world and not be part of it?

All I'm saying it if there are masters in this world, those that heal, love, and create miracles, they never come here for just one person. They come for the world. I keep trying to refer back to his music because, like I said, he's told this story all along. Listen to Another Part of Me and when you do, I hope you realize he felt there was a mission. He tried to tell people all along through his music that we are all part of one another and that we all contribute to healing the world.

After you listen to the words, refer back to the handwritten note I posted in the last post. These brighter days he sings about are the days of the higher consciousness he wrote about in the note. These days are now.

Another Message from Michael

2012-01-23T07:45:00.000-08:00

He's back! Michael wanted to write again today. I'm not sure who exactly this is for, maybe you, so listen up:

"I want to tell you how much I've enjoyed watching all of you. You've been awesome at attempting to recreate the reality that is beyond the shadow. I've noticed many of you singing my songs and some of you even performing them. I've seen tears and distress and hopelessness with tears that are shed behind closed doors. Don't worry about me any longer. I AM FINE! I don't know what else I can say or tell you for you to know, but it's true . . I'm fine. That being said, where are we going? How do you think my life did effect you? Do you think that I would have you stop your life in your tracks to mourn my passing? NO.
I would have you go on and be stronger than you were before. I'd tell you to pick yourself up and move on to higher ground. It's not me that will do that it's you.

Peace and L.O.V.E., Michael"

**The note at the right is from a fan website: http://www.michaeljacksonthelastangel.com

A Twin Flame Conversation

2012-01-20T20:16:00.000-08:00

I had a conversation this evening with an honored friend who was first in the field of recognizing and documenting twin flame relationships. He told me about someone he knew and seemed distressed because she had felt she found her true twin flame soul mate and he left her. She was abandon and couldn't get over the fact that he had left. We talked about the ego self, how your ego self, the personality is the part of you that wants to hold on or claim someone for their own.

I say this because if this person was truly her twin flame and if she was truly ready to come together with him, she would have sensed that no matter where they are, no matter what personality or ego decided to do, they would still always be a part of each other within. Twin flames are not possessive of one another. Although you may long to be with that person, there comes a certain point when you realize that everything happens in divine time. Of course while you are on that journey, it's painful, and most of the time unclear. The fact is, is that while most people feel these relationships are meant for the earth and by the earth standards I can tell for a fact they are not.

It's very rare for twin flames to come together at all. Now, since we are entering into an era of enlightenment there are more twins coming together, but this doesn't necessarily mean they are coming together as man and wife or boyfriend and girlfriend. There is work to do and that will be the only reason twin flames come to this planet. I have never heard of twin flames coming only for the pure joy of experiencing one another. A relationship like that would be self serving for the twins and true twins are never self serving.

I hope that it is realized however that true twins are about divine love, and never only about the love of what is defined on this earth. I hope that there is a realization that with each relationship you have, and each depth of love you experience, there is still another layer beneath. A more fulfilling, deeper and more complete love. As you allow yourself to enter this state of being you draw ever closer to bringing the light of God within you. That source is the stuff you were originally made of and where also the source of the true twin resides. Being God centered the love that is experienced is that of God, not of man. It is God love, divine love, not man defined love.

The following video is a very nice summary of the journey and follows what happened on my journey with Michael. You'll see the mention of the mental and emotional bodies and those are the bodies we were working with in the Man in the Mirror Project.

When Michael Died

2012-01-19T14:01:00.000-08:00

I recently had a question about where Michael was, what it was like for him now. I answered it on the Soul Connections page this morning.

After he passed, however, I asked what had happened. He agreed and gave me some details I have yet to release, but one of the things he did say to me was "he gave me a shot and said this will put you to sleep, but it didn't. I was still awake - I didn't know what else to do. Everyone was running around trying to figure out what had happened and I was just standing there not knowing what to do." This was the moment that Michael passed and left his body.

This afternoon I received a link to the following email and I'm sharing it because this boy experienced death then came back to tell about it. He went to a similar place that Michael is in. I refer to this place as the place with no name. There are no walls, really nothing but light. I hope that the videos will warm your heart and help you know that there is so much more to this life we call life than what we've been told and that if you don't know, that you realize that Michael truly is in a good place.

Healing Ourselves and Healing Our World

2012-01-18T12:00:00.000-08:00

Taking action to heal the world doesn't have to be a major undertaking. One step, one gesture can make a difference in someone's life and change their thoughts about "people" for the rest of it. How many times have you had one person do something really great for you that you'll always remember or maybe someone who did something really bad to you that you'll always remember? These are the experiences we take with us into the rest of our lives. Sometimes our view of the world is based on these single events. But knowing this, knowing you can effectively change the course of someones life by a small gesture on your part really gives us power in influencing the world around us. Smiling at someone, holding a door open, helping an elderly lady reach the soup can on the top shelf; any of these things can make or break the rest of someone's day.

When Michael lived he was very instrumental in the lives of children around the world. We have been very fortunate in the United States, France, the UK, and other countries. Most of us have food to eat, and clothing to wear. Some aren't so lucky. Now, I know you've heard this before, but as the old saying goes, "what's out of sight is out of mind". I mean, Michael had a unique perspective you know? Not many people in this world have an opportunity to travel the world and actually SEE the suffering of our mankind in other countries. Just because we don't see it, however, doesn't mean it's not there. How is it that you and I can help? How can we find the compassion in our hearts to help others?

First we have to find the compassion in ourselves. To forgive ourselves for our wrongs, our failures, our imperfections. To promise ourselves that we can do better for ourselves and BELIEVE we have the power within us to lift ourselves up no matter what the circumstance is. Some of the most successful people in this world have overcome the most adversity. I love to look at those people and know that if they can do it, then so can I. You have the power within you to heal yourself. We all do. It doesn't matter if I only have a dollar in my pocket or I'm very, very rich. Depending on how I view myself and my world is what will either make or break my life.

I'd like you to find that compassion for yourself. I'd like you to view your world with kindness. Maybe the best way to do that is by showing kindness first ourselves. White, black, yellow or green we are all the same inside. May this day be the day YOU decide to accept who you are and know that you are a divine being, made of love, and when you look at the world, may you know that one day you will also return to love.

Checking in with the Man in the Mirror - URGENT

2012-01-17T07:52:00.000-08:00

Today we are checking in. The shift in consciousness is now occurring and there are several things in process. Partly some of us our raising our consciousness and doing the work necessary to become conscious beings. As we work on our Man in the Mirror, you'll find that there are others who are desperately holding on to the old patterns of life. Like so often most people don't like change. When challenged with changes or in the face of having to come to terms with themselves some people will get increasingly angry and instead of looking inward to where this anger has come from, they will express it outwardly. This means that as this shift happens we will begin to see the unconscious act out more. There will be more destruction for a bit before more of us can come to a level of consciousness where we can also begin raising their vibrations.

What does this all mean? I'll tell you. Have you noticed on the news, maybe in your hometown, or with people around you that they might be acting angrier, having a shorter temper, or being just plain mean? Maybe you've notice others being more tolerant, light hearted and happy? This shift is dividing many into two categories. Either you get on the program of love and light or you resist the changes and struggle with your inner demons, expressing them in unhealthy ways.

This morning I learned of a girl who killed herself because she was being bullied at school. I also heard a story of a grandmother being punched and dragged by her hair at her grandchild's birthday party in a public restaurant. All because she asked the neighboring table to try and keep down their cursing in this "child's party place." The children, around the age of seven, watched as their parents "bullied" and beat the grandmother. This is exactly the type of behavior that needs to be stopped. The only way school aged bullies don't grow up to be "parent" bullies is by stopping the cycle. To do that we MUST begin looking at ourselves in a new way.

This has me very upset because both Michael and I and I bet many more of you out there reading this have been bullied. Mostly by our own families and so called friends. Sometimes if you don't go by "their program" and set of rules or simply speak your mind, like the grandmother did, they punish you. Some might never speak to you again. Punish you by alienating you so you feel that you have been the one in the wrong or send you nasty emails, defame your name or write bad press like they did to Michael. It should be no surprise then that because of the treatment many of us have considered killing ourselves thinking we will end the pain. I can tell you, however,that this will not end the pain and this is why we have ghosts and those that are in the astral planes of existence. We take with us these emotions as they are stored in what we call the "emotional body". That is part of what we were working on in the Man in the Mirror Project. Remembering the sensations of what we feel as we think our repetitive thoughts.

I'd like you to visit the Return to LOVE page if you have questions about what bullying is. My son has been recently bullied in his school. When I reported it the teacher said when she talked to the students doing the bullying (both age 8) they had no idea what it was. Our first step is education and that's why our Return to LOVE page is there. Please feel free to print out any information to help educate our families, children and schools. And, if you've ever been the one to bully someone else, please take a good look in the mirror. Instead of condemning yourself, try and see what and who bullied you to make you feel as if you had to bully another.

Your Divine Identitiy

2012-01-12T06:50:00.000-08:00

I saw a man named Gregg Braden speak a few months ago. As we've gone through some of the Man in the Mirror Project my hope is that you are continuing to work on those repeating patterns that you wish to change.

As often as I can, I'll be posting supporting material to help you on your journey. In the meantime, I'll be working on the book, which Michael feels should be the priority at this time.

I hope that you keep an open mind when you watch this video. There is a story that Gregg tells that relates to twin souls and/or twin flame soul mates. It's about synchronicity. In the video Gregg calls it the Divine Matrix. I'm not one to get too caught up with labels, I just want you to know that once you start becoming in tune with yourself, you'll also begin to tune into the universe around you. This is the Divine Matrix. People and events may seemingly magically transpire into your life. It's not an accident. It's our true blueprint and our true identities that will be shining through. This is truly an exciting time and I do so hope that you all find magic in areas of your life you never dreamed possible!

More on Thought Patterns

2012-01-11T12:51:00.000-08:00

I saw a post today that related to thought patterns and found the video below that I thought I would share. We were focusing on our thought patterns and emotions and this video goes hand in hand with what was discussed.

I hope you get some more clarification on how it works here:

Success On Your Journey

2012-01-10T12:40:00.000-08:00

"Today I want to wish you success on your journey. This has been fun. Re-assuring in a way. I hope that you have been able to notice some patterns in your life that have made you realize what it is that you've been doing. In healing the children and healing our planet, it's important to remember that we all play a part individually. All of us have issues we need to deal with on a daily basis and we all see things differently. Being mindful that what you yourself set into motion has an effect on our children is a big part. Our children, and I do say OUR children, play a huge part of the history of this planet. It is important for them to be nurtured and loved in a way that will allow them to nurture and love themselves, the planet and the future children who will care for our world.

I hope you realized that we aren't perfect beings. I hope you realized the part you play in the destruction and the construction of your life. For now we will leave it at this. You've made headway with citing some very specific things. Now the work is yours. And, it is work. Every day you have to be mindful of what you are thinking and doing. Most likely it's repeating patterns, suppressing emotions, that cause you to do the most unconscious things. When you find yourself asking yourself why you do something, come back and take a look at the steps again. This is why and this is how you can begin healing but the work itself, the responsibility for it has to come from none other than you.

It's been a joy and pleasure to be here with you. But time beacons and I have to part ways. There is no one more dear to me than you and I mean it. You all mean the world to me. My life has ended however, at least the one I had on earth. I now realize that as long as I prolong this, you all prolong my death and suffering as well.

I want you to know how much it has meant to me, the thoughts and prayers you have sent and felt in your hearts. Its time that helps us move on in our lives. It's that time now when Debbie and I will come together in a way that we never have before. We have work a head of us to do. This work will entail a great deal of dedication on our parts. Unfortunately, we won't have time to do what we have been here, but I promise you we will be back. Our future holds something in store for everyone. Although it has been expressed that many of you have wanted our identities to remain secret, it simply cannot be. Debbie will be surfacing. Whether she likes it or not, the wheels are already in motion. The public scrutiny will be upon her and I hope that you will be kind. Let's face it, not many people were that kind to me. But I will be behind her. It's important to remember that you all play a part in the future of our world. Please, please, be kind to one another. I wish you the best. Lovingly, Michael"
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I have to post what is given. That's our agreement. I don't know what he is speaking about, but if it's anything like what he's previously given, I'm sure that time will tell.

I have to tell you this came today as a total surprise. I expected him to say he was moving on after he started. I do know that there will be work, I've always known, just not specifically what. When that time comes and it is revealed, and when prompted I'll post it. I hope that if anything does come out it is understood. Remembering that we are spiritual beings first, and not just people in the flesh. . . . Best :)

The Man in the Mirror Project - Make that Change; Day Seven

2012-01-09T14:03:00.000-08:00

"Day seven brings us into determination of whether or not we feel we need assistance with coming to terms with who we actually think we are. Do we think we are reincarnations of our parents, a product of society or an individual manifestation of the God source, which by the way is all empowering.

Do you believe that you are what you have created? Do you believe that being in the seat of power of creating your own life that you have the power to change it?

Many people have issues to deal with on a day to day basis. Seemingly life passes us by and we forget to wonder about the source that is creating our day to day existence. Think for a moment about the past few exercises. Those exercises were designed to get you in touch with the one thing that is creating that pattern of issues that is now present in your life. Thinking back I want you to close your eyes and think about what it was that you noticed about how you felt and what you were thinking. Were you able to link it back to a time when someone said or gave you a message about yourself or how you should act? In addictive behaviors, we sometimes redundantly enter a pattern of self sabotage or self defeat without even knowing it. The "feeling" that we are no good, not good enough, or even that no one would want or love us drives us to create situations to make that statement true. Most of the time these statements hold no truth at all. They are simply statements or feelings we grew comfortable with and have taken on from outside sources.

Since a prior exercise focused on changing the "thought" this time we will focus on changing the "feeling". How do I feel? During the first exercise we noticed these feelings. We tried to name them. Anxious, angry, uneasy. Whatever that feeling was, I want you to tap into the feeling when it comes on. First correcting the thought, for instance if it is "I'm so stupid", we correct it by saying to ourselves "I am an abundant field of wisdom" and begin to believe that with God all things are indeed possible. Secondly, we focus on the feeling. How am I feeling?. When I think "I'm so stupid" I feel my body collapse upon itself. When I think "I am an abundant field of wisdom" my shoulders pull back, my chest opens, and I am open to possibilities. I am not shut down. I am open, literally, to the blessings of the universe.

Changing our thoughts always goes hand in hand with changing our emotions. Focus on this now."

Lyrics from "Man In The Mirror" - It is not only with our heart (our feelings) but with our minds (our thoughts) that we will truly begin to transform ourselves and in turn the world - Make that change!

"I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can't Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)"

It is with joy in our heart that we will be able to spread joy to others.

“In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe.”

-Michael Jackson

The Man in the Mirror Project - Make that Change; Day Six

2012-01-06T10:53:00.000-08:00

"Today lets discuss the topic of rainfall. What does rainfall have to do with anything we're talking about? Rainfall is something that almost everyone in the world has experienced. Some people have seen waterfalls, the lucky ones, but most everyone has seen a rainfall. A really good rain when it streams down from the heavens. What does this rain do? Most people would say that the rain waters the earth and helps things grow, but there is something else the rain does. It cleanses the earth as well. From the great flood, to the gentle down pour on a spring morning the rain has always been natures ways to eleviate the dirty grime left on it's creations.

I've heard someone say that we for the most part take care of our bodies by showering and bathing most everyday, but it is with rare occasion, if ever that we cleanse our energies. By that I mean the stuff we collect in our energetic fields that surround us. We all have a rainbow around us of color vibrations emitting light. It's part of who we are. Our thoughts, wishes, plans, feelings, are all stored in this energy field. Sometimes when you're not feeling so well you might have some really dirty parts in it. Sometimes when you are angry, annoyed or even simply fatigued it is evident in this field.

So today because we've been paying so much attention to what's going on inside of us, it's a good time to do a cleaning. Now that we are noticing our negative thought patterns and focusing on changing them, we can begin to do our own "spring cleaning" so to speak to clear away those old energetic patterns. To do this stand with your feet about a foot apart. Place your hands on either side of you and close your eyes. Breath in deeply and release all the tension from your body as you exhale. Visualize a beam of light just above your head. Within that beam of light place a picture. In your minds eye visualize a stream of brilliant white light covering over your forehead and hold it there. The picture in your mind should be that of yourself with a hat or halo over your head. You are now going to bring that light down into your solar plexus (the place just above your belly button.) Holding it there for a moment visualize it as bright as the sun, streaming out from the center of your body. Finally take your light from above and flush it straight down through your entire body like a really hard rain, taking with it anything that no longer serves you in a healthy manner. Place your hands at your heart like you are saying a prayer and repeat after me " I am now at peace. Peace is with me. Peace I Am. My peace is with you God, Allah, whomever you believe in. May you bestow peace to me and peace to our planet. Ah men."

The Man in the Mirror Project - Make that Change; Day Five

2012-01-05T11:31:00.000-08:00

"It's almost heartbreaking isn't it? When we find out that we are our worst enemies. The thoughts and patterns we have set into motion for ourselves are very destructive and need to be broken in order to create a new pattern of joy and love for ourselves and the world.

I'm truly hoping you will stick with it. The work it takes to get back to a state of bliss is a lot. I know. But like I said, it's well worth it.

So this time lets focus on our energy. The breath. Your breath is the vehicle which your life force is regulated. Notice your breath. When you have thoughts about yourself that are negative in nature or when the feelings arise that we were trying to pay attention to on day one come up, notice now the breath. What changes? Is your breath restricted? Are you holding your breath or are you breathing freely? Is your chest open and expanded or caved and constricted?

The chakra, or energy center of the heart is very powerful. This is the area you will feel pain if you've been hurt. You might have even noticed reliving a painful situation by remembering, it is felt in the heart and solar plexus. The heart energy is the energy that can transform energy of our bodies and minds into something very beautiful. When we feel pain from someone else, emotional pain or trauma the first thing we want to to is shut down. We don't want to feel the pain anymore, It hurts and we want to shut it out. The best thing we can do for ourselves, however, is to feel the pain fully, then let it go. If we let the pain live within us we store it as "pain" energy, that from it's hurt will turn into anger subconsciously. In order to heal we need to release the pain energy back to the universe and let the universe or our heart energy transform it. This is how:

"It is only with the heart that one can see rightly"

When you feel the feeling coming on or the thoughts coming into your mind, stop yourself. Notice your breath. Then make a conscious effort to lift your heart center, sending both shoulders back expanding the chest. Now think of the feeling, breathe in pure white light. Feel it expanding in your chest and illuminating all of the black or gray areas of sadness transforming them into pure light. Now exhale, letting the breath take all the negative energy out. Practice this on each situation that arises."

Note: If the pain is associated with pain from another human being, try to make a conscious attempt to forgive them. Forgiveness is not saying that what they did to you is right. Forgiveness is not about forgetting what they did to you. Forgiveness is about transforming yourself into a loving pattern of energy that rises above the situation that caused the hurt. Realizing that we are all imperfect beings, each on a different level of consciousness.

The Man in the Mirror Project - Make that Change; Day Four

2012-01-04T08:33:00.000-08:00

"Test yourself. Are you ready to make that change? Do you know if you are ready to take the plunge and dive into the depths of your soul embarking on a journey that will change your life and your whole way of thinking? It is truly a huge step. It might be scary for some people, too painful for others and really exciting for a few others. But I do promise you it is well worth it. Making changes in our lives is not an easy process. But if you've ever made any changes in the past you'll know from experience that they are well worth it. The feeling, this gift you can give yourself is insurmountable. Enjoy it that feeling. It truly is a gift.

Today, let s talk about karma and its actions of cause and effect. Karma is something that few people really understand. Its a concept brought about by the east and those enlightened masters that tell us that whatever we do, whatever we think goes out to the universe and is one day brought back to us. What does this have to do with this man in the mirror project? I'll tell you. The thoughts we talked about yesterday. When you were to pay attention to what you were thinking while you were experiencing are going out to the universe. Do you remember what you were thinking? Exactly! So as I said, is there a way you can turn those thoughts into a positive thought?

For instance, the thought "I am fat" can be turned around into a positive statement like "I am beautiful". The laws, these statements we think, that we have created for ourselves, or that have been fed to us, become our realities. If we take the time to be conscious of them, we can change them, thus changing our realities. So your lesson for today is to take the time to "catch" the negative thought and "replace" it with something good."

Michael Jackson

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I think Michael is getting a big head over how amazing I think he is lately. He is enjoying himself immensely and has been gone much more. Apparently going on "visits". Elizabeth (Taylor) has made a reappearance with her little white pooch and they have decided to stick around and work together with us. And I do mean "us". There are others that Michael and Elizabeth have contacted in helping us come to terms with ourselves and our planet. I know it sounds strange, but it really is what it is. If I would have had my way, perhaps I'd like to keep this as a private thing, but, it's obviously not meant to be that way. The consciousness of the planet is being spearheaded by many people, both on the earth and on the other side.

St Germain, an ascended master, is leading the way. There are many on the other side who've been commissioned for service to the planet. His thinking is that the earth is currently in a rut. A pattern of conditioned thinking. To break through this "rut" we have to step beyond the normal confines of our normal patterns. Like a bicycle that rides the same dirt path day after day, sooner or later there is a groove in the dirt. A crevice that is harder and harder to avoid because it's been created over a long period of time. We are right there. But as more and more people begin to wake up to the "crevice" or "rut" they have created, the more illumination we lend to our planet. It is with each individual manifestation that is awakened that our true consciousness of the entire planet can take place.

I suppose it shouldn't be a surprise to most people who know about what Michael Jackson felt about the state of humanity and our planet to know that he is helping lead the way to this planetary shift. He's been "about", ministering, you might say to those who have been calling on him. So to the people who have been calling on him, you have left me alone again! lol He's left Elizabeth with me and her white pooch when he leaves. Don't get me wrong, I love Elizabeth, but it's just not the same. I often feel the need to entertain my "visitors" and Elizabeth is beginning to cover her little dog's ears explaining to him that he shouldn't be hearing my exquisite singing voice. . . I didn't know Elizabeth in life, and never even knew she had a fondness for dogs. I found this video recently and feel it encompasses exactly who she is. She really is beautiful, inside and out.

The Man in the Mirror Segment - Make that Change; Day Three

2012-01-03T14:03:00.000-08:00

"It's with great pleasure that I share with you the knowledge that you all have passed phase one. You've noticed you are doing things again and again and again! This is good. That's what its' about. Now we have to find out why.

Pretend you are someone observing yourself. There is a little man in your head and he's snooping around in there looking for clues as to who you are. What do you suppose he would find? A scared little girl or boy? Someone with grand dreams who was too afraid to try and bring them to fruition?

Every one of us have obstacles that we sometimes unconsciously place in our path. Sometimes they are from our childhood, sometimes they are things we create based on the beliefs we have about ourselves. So before we can decipher which is which, when you notice those feelings come up, be the man in the back of your head. Do some snooping . . .

Then ask these questions;

1. What thoughts are associated with the feeling I am having?

2. Is it something negative about me that I believe to be true, or am I just thinking them because someone else told me I am this or that?

3. Is the thought true?

4. Can I change the pattern of the thought to something positive about the situation or myself?

When you can answer these questions, we'll be ready for the next step. Good work!"

The Man in the Mirror Segment - Make That Change; Day Two

2012-01-02T14:44:00.000-08:00

"Don't try and compare yourself with other people. Their thoughts and wishes are their own, not yours. Your thoughts, your wishes are those that come from deep inside of you, not those placed upon you. You must realize that there is a difference."
- Michael Jackson

Yesterday's post really took me by surprise. It was deep, you know? Sometimes I wonder how did he know that? These patterns he is speaking about are real. In yoga they say there are actually lines of energy and the chakras (the energy centers) are the ones that get clogged by "stored " energy.

So after we posted I went to try to do my own work, you know follow along. I couldn't think of a really good thing. I thought, well maybe the post wasn't clear enough. I need to know what to do too. If I don't then how are other people supposed to know? Then this morning as I was getting ready for my day I noticed a feeling coming over me. The feeling was a sense of urgency and so I stopped myself (as per the instructions) to find out why I was feeling so rushed. Getting in touch with the feeling this is what transpired. I asked myself the three questions:

1. How does it make me feel? It makes me feel uneasy. Rushed, as if I shouldn't be taking so much time.

2. What benefit does it serve in my life? I could find none.

3. What is it that I notice about myself when I experience these feelings? Looking deeper with in myself I ask why. When I do, I remember my father used to remark about how long it took for me to get ready in the morning. I have been on vacation with other girl friends that take much longer than I, but I still carry with me the feeling that I take "too long" in the bathroom. The feeling is that I don't "deserve to spend time on myself" . .the subconscious feeling is that I am not worth spending time on.

That is the over all message I received from my father. He never said "you are not worth spending time on", he portrayed it subconsciously by saying I took too long in the bathroom. That there wasn't a reason that he should go to lunch or spend any time with me. When I needed him to be there, I was told I was old enough to handle my own affairs; simply I wasn't worth the time.

So this is how it works. I wanted to share it with you because in some ways this can be your example. In the coming days that feeling that maybe you were not readily able to connect with may come to you by surprise. When it does, stop yourself and dig deeper. Just observe, without worry of labeling, condemning or judgement. Remember, this isn't about "other people", this is about you and YOUR feelings, patterns inside YOU. Whether or not someone else thinks they are valid or not, doesn't matter. They live within you and it is you that must do the work to clear them.

Until tomorrow . . .

The Man in the Mirror Segment - Make that Change Day One

2012-01-01T14:34:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year and welcome to 2012!! We're ready for change and change it will be. According to my favorite astrologer and numerologist, Maria Shaw, the year 2012 is a "5" year. The number five represents change. In the previous year you may have thought about change. In this year, you most likely will make it happen.

As the Man in the Mirror Segment starts, I hope that you will be patient with yourself. I hope that you will realize that change is a process, not an instant cure. Like anything you do in your life that is worthwhile, it will be important to remember that old saying that "Rome wasn't built in a day". This is a process, and if you give yourself time and forgiveness along the way, I promise you'll see a difference.

Week one we are going to focus on what real change is about. It's not about the way we look it's about the way we feel. Inside of us are many thoughts that come and go. Some of them we are conscious of, and others come and go without any awareness at all. This week lets start with our base level of consciousness, our feelings.

This is a lesson in introspection. To see your man in the mirror, you must focus on how you feel when certain situations arise in your life. To begin, you may recall certain situations in your life that make you feel "bad", make you feel "guilty", or make you feel "ashamed". We won't talk about those things that make you feel good or uplifted yet, as you most likely won't want to change those. So think back on those "ugly" feelings. As you do you may begin to experience the feeling again. You are recreating what is already within you. Do you notice now? There is a pattern. If there wasn't a pattern of energy already within you, you would not be able to recreate the experience. This is the pattern of energy, the addiction, that we need to work on. Keep focused on this "feeling" and ask yourself these three questions:

1. How does it make me feel?
2. What benefit does it serve in my life?
3. What is it that I notice about myself when I experience these feelings? (i.e. do I go smoke a cigarette, drink, eat, sleep) What ever the "response" to the feeling is, I want you to take notice of it.

I would suggest getting a notebook and writing these things down. As you do, you will be revealing the pattern that is present in your life, blocking your joy. This first step, is to merely notice. If you don't have any answers, it's ok. Give it time. For now, just notice.

Should you experience an unpleasant situation similar to the one that you remembered, or even another one that seems unrelated in the coming days, I want you to notice as the feeling comes on what you are experiencing and try to give it a name. Anger, sadness, hurt, vulnerable, whatever it is that comes to mind. Right now just notice.

Michael expresses the role his childhood played in his murder

2011-12-30T11:32:00.000-08:00

There were no plans to post today. It's been very busy. One thing you learn, however, is that when the universe "nudges" you, most often it's in your best interest to take notice.

I've written what Michael wanted to say today. He says someone has been questioning his desire to be heard and wanted to pre-empt the Man in the Mirror segment. Here is what he had to say:

"Take a look at your life today. Do you find that there is something missing? Is there perhaps a pattern that has been recurring in your life that you've noticed, or do you feel sad or shameful most of the time but you don't know why?

My childhood has been the focus of much of my work during my life on earth. I've expressed my concern for the children of the world because inside I felt like them. Cold, abandon, and confused. I now know why I had such a fondness for them. Debbie and I were talking about this project and I honestly never knew how I could feel so abandon without reason. The truth is there was a reason. I just wasn't aware of it. I think most of us go about our business and day thinking we are "normal" when we really don't have a healthy definition of what normal is. I think we need to define a new "normal" for ourselves and our children. I think the "normal" of yesterday no longer serves humanity in a healthy way.

I spoke about my father when I was living publicly. I said that he must have had a difficult time in his life because of the circumstances he was brought up in. It's hard when you can only have the experiences you have this time around to look back on. Sometimes it's difficult to know any different when you've only experienced one side of the coin. My death was brought about by people I had around me that were using me. I felt comfortable with them. I was raised as a God fearing person and taught we should love. I now know I was wrong in my thinking. I loved too much. Not in the way that I should have. I had no boundaries, no friends to tell me what was in my best interest and no knowledge to know the difference.

Do you want to know why I had those people around me? Because it was in my experience. It was what I was comfortable with. I had people abuse me all my life. Sometimes it feels uncomfortable when we get to know someone who really does have our best interests in mind. Many people believed that I was all that and a bag of chips. They were wrong. I am only human, just like everyone else. I made mistakes, and yes, I had triumphs, but you have to believe that everyone has a path to follow. Sometimes it's not that easy.

I want you to know this because as you follow this along I want you to think of your own life. What has transpired in your past and how it's made you feel. Make a commitment to yourself that by New Year's Day you'll have something about yourself that you'd like to change. I promise you, the information we will be giving you will help you make that change. I wouldn't say it if I didn't mean it.

Life is funny. I never thought I'd be here doing this with Debbie. She's always been a puzzle to me and now I see that we teach each other as much as we learn from one another. I'd like to say we are one, but that's not true. She has her own thing going on, and I have mine. Our minds and hearts, however, are connected at a very deep spiritual level. I wish you could know the complete peace it gives me in our mission. My hope when I lived was to give the world what I was so lucky to receive from God - my music. That music carried a message and it was my sincere desire to change the world. We are now at the brink of doing just that and I ask you to join with us in that mission.

Peace and blessings,
Michael Jackson

PS Yes, I want to be heard"

Healing the World in 2012 - A Mayan Prophecy

2011-12-28T08:23:00.000-08:00

Have you ever looked back at your life and realized that everything in your life up until this point has brought you to where you needed to be? Yet through that journey, it was sometimes painful, sometimes joyful, confusing and you always wondered where it was leading you to?

I am truly excited about our future. This year will mark an opportunity like never before in our history, to make great strides in changing the consciousness of ourselves and the planet. Michael Jackson's entire life was devoted to not only his music, but using that music to change the world. If you look back at the messages in his music, you may realize he was preparing many of us for this very moment in history.

With 2012 just around the corner, I wanted to share with you a video from a real Mayan who was taught in the traditions of his people. He explains what the ending of the Mayan Calendar is truly about in his interview posted below:

I also wanted to share with you some work that we've been up to and the next segment we will be presenting on the blog. As you know Michael Jackson had a great love for children. The pain of a child resonated with him deeply. He was sensitive to the abused inner child within not only himself, but within us all. He has said many times that we should be healing the world for our children and our children's children. In order to do that we must heal the inner child within us all first. Some people aren't even aware that they have an inner child. Some people have no idea that the loneliness they feel, or the addictions they have stem from our childhood. This is not about blaming our parents, because if we ever bothered to look, they most likely had the same problem. These are patterns. Patterns that have been established in cycles for generations. The change, however, must start somewhere. Our hope is that it may start with us.

This first segment is part of the Man In the Mirror project. In the coming year we'll be exploring what patterns have been set into motion in our own personal lives on emotional and spiritual levels and how to break through them. We'll also be looking at our role in the world and our true spiritual potential. You may discover a you that you never knew existed. By doing this we will all begin to truly Heal The World.

We can throw money at many problems in the world to try and fix something that has gone wrong. Poverty, war, neglect. But to truly Heal we must realize there is an underlying cause for this destruction. It isn't money that will fix it. It's us and changing how we think about ourselves and our wold. A child that is raised in a war stricken zone knows only war. His comfort, his home is war. What do you think he will teach his children?

A girl who is raped in a poverty stricken community will be subconsciously given the message that she is worthless, she is powerless. What do you think she will teach her children?

These are just some of the things we need to realize before real change in the world can transpire. I hope that you will join us on this journey in the coming months. I hope that you yourself will find great happiness, healing and joy from the advancements made in the coming year for us all. It is Michael's hope, as well as my own, that we can continue what he started in making these changes.

Hope to see you soon!

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Twelve

2011-12-24T08:11:00.000-08:00

Do you believe in Angels, like the one that God sent to
announce the birth of Jesus?

"Day twelve of The Twelve Days of Miracles brings us to a close. The number 12 itself is significant because it represents completion. There are twelve months in a year and if you all remember 12 disciples. The disciples I speak about were those of Jesus Christ himself and on this coming day, which we call Christmas, we celebrate the birth of his physical body made manifest. Your job in life is to remember the message of Jesus. We celebrate his life year after year and know that he suffered greatly . The message he brought was hope to the world, and love. That we are all brothers and sisters. That although there may be kings that rule the nations, there are even greater kings that rule our world. Peace then to our world will come when we all realize that peace must come from ourselves first. My Man in the Mirror song Debbie keeps talking about is true. We have to look at ourselves first. It's there within that the real self, the Christ self can be born and there can truly be peace on earth.

The miracle today is then as we close this segment out is the greatest of them all. Our greatest miracle, our greatest gift was Jesus. God so cared about what was happening in our world that he made special arrangements to send someone with such a high degree of knowledge and wisdom to walk alongside us and try to teach us. We celebrate him every Sunday in some households, every Christmas time, or Easter, but rarely do we take his real teachings to heart to get us all to where our world needs to be.

Since this segment is done we plan to bring more information to you. Our mission as twin souls is to help in someway shed light on those things that have been made dim. This coming year will bring to fruition many more details about my death and how it was handled. It will also reveal to you some very important information as to the nature of my relationship with Debbie. We are spiritual beings and I want you to remember that. We are not merely flesh and blood. If we were how do you think Jesus would have ever been chosen to come?

This season and Christmas time I want to wish the very best for you and all of those you love. I want to share with you my love for the world and extend the invitation for you to join me in my mission. Perhaps you could just for a moment consider coming on a mission to heal the world. I warn you it will take much work but in the end it will be well worth it. Until we are able to write again, Merry Christmas May Christmas hold for you the joy I find in a child receiving the gift of his first toy on Christmas morning. God Bless and truly from the heart, I love you." Michael

I'd like to say Merry Christmas too and thank you for sharing with me on this blog. For your thoughts and to those wonderful people I have been able to meet from around the world I am truly grateful and honestly very honored. Michael's message makes me a little nervous, but we'll have to see what comes to fruition in the coming months. I hope that everyone finds an abundance of peace and love in their lives in the coming days. We'll take back to posting a new message after the Christmas Holiday and as I said before, if Michael doesn't show up then, I'll just let you know . . "Michael seems to have left the building" Until then, happy holidays with L.O.V.E.! Debbie

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Eleven/Ending of the Mayan Calendar

2011-12-23T15:24:00.000-08:00

"Your mind is like a mechanical vault. The thoughts you think travel like light speed through the galaxies and beyond. Did you know that what you think you make manifest? That what you believe, what you think about yourself, is what becomes your reality?

God gave us a gift when we were created and that gift was to be a creator among ourselves. Why then do we choose to create things that are not good for us? What is it in your life that you have created that is not God like, not of love? Are you creating the very best of your life that you can or the very worst, maybe somewhere in between?

Today's miracle is about loving ourselves. It is about the miracle in ourselves to give ourselves the very best of what the world has to offer. Offer then the best there is to give and not something that is mediocre or bad, but something that shines and is a brilliant beam of light to guide your life. Hope is a miracle, a wish is a miracle, nature is a miracle, you are a miracle, we are all miracles to one another, there is one thing all of these miracles have in common - they are all created from you.'

The Mayan calendar is now starting to complete it's last year. With this ending comes the birth of a new consciousness. This consciousness has been spoke of by others before us. According to Sri Aurobindo (twin flame soul to Mother) the foundation of a new consciousness on earth is a consciousness with infinite possibilities of manifestation”. He stated that “The task we now set before ourselves is not mechanical but moral and spiritual .We aim not at the alteration of form of a government but the building of nation. The dharma, the national religion which we also believe to be universal. There is a mighty law of life, a great principal of human evolution , a body of spiritual knowledge and experience which India has always been destined to be guardian ,exemplar and missionary. This is Santana Dharma-the eternal religion. We must return and seek the sources of life and strength within ourselves. We must know our past and recover it for the purpose of our future. Our business is to realize ourselves first."

This is the Man in The Mirror

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Ten

2011-12-22T12:34:00.000-08:00

"Listen to the voice inside of you. What does it say? Did you ever sit in the quietness of your own self and listen to the thoughts and feelings that seem to come from deep within you? Continuing what we do, this mission of healing the planet requires a lot of dedication to ourselves and each other. What is it I think to myself that I can give people that will help them see how to best serve themselves and each other? You see everything to me is a miracle. The sky, the trees, the shapes of the clouds. But in your world the busyness of everyday takes you away from these things. Your focus is on the mundane tasks of life and not on the eternal glory of our Father. Listen then, for it's inside you that you will find a gentle yet guiding voice leading you on your path. It is here that you will find me and where I will find you. It is at this point, this specific inner place that we are truly all joined as one. Do you know where it is? I do. It's called the soul. And in it's essence, it's creation, we are all truly soul mates. The miracle is that we have just never realized it."

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Nine

2011-12-21T11:21:00.000-08:00

"One thing to remember is that we all contribute to the well being of one another and the planet. Making wishes, using our dreams, our inspirations and hopes for the future always contribute to the all of everything that exists. In union with everything that surrounds us we experience that which is called "samadhi." That union is what we should all strive to achieve because it is there that you will soar to new heights and be able to transcend any difficult situation.

The miracle for today is that seeing and believing are one thing, but doing is quite another. When you look at a tree you can see the trunk and it's leaves, You believe that it is there. But what you don't see is the true miracle of the tree. The energy that surrounds it, it's roots, its existence on the earth for sometimes hundreds of years. We are like trees. We have roots, energy that surrounds us, and some of us, yes, have been here for years. What is it then that we can learn from this? Is it our consciousness expanding to a level that we can see ourselves not only in one another but in a tree as well? Or is it the miracle of knowing that we are not only connected to one another but to everything that exists around us as well?

Contributing to the all of everything is what this is about. Our miracles are most often those things we ourselves help create. When we don't know this ourselves, we only have to look around us to be reminded that it is already present in our world. The tree, its roots, you and your roots, have taken you this far in your life. The next step is yours."

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Eight/A Poem for Michael's Fans

2011-12-20T14:58:00.000-08:00

"Don't worry about the small stuff, worry about the big stuff. How much love you have in your life. How much love we can give to one another. Remembering the season is not about the shopping. Remembering the season is about remembering the giving. Giving from the heart without expecting anything in return. When you do a miracle happens. The love that you shared by giving is ten times the love you feel when you receive. What is that feeling, that heartfelt sentiment that happens when the person you give to expresses their joy? It's called love, and as we spoke yesterday about how we can take the first step into our own miracles by wishing, we can also begin creating miracles by our giving.

The miracle of love is truly alive It lives within us all. This is the true meaning of Christmas; the true message. Without love we would not exist. Without love we would not be here. Somewhere at sometime two people had to have expressed their love for one another for you to even be here. How is it then that a world can even exist without love? It can't. So I urge you to increase your love this day and do those things that bring others the most joy. In doing so, the miracle of love will abound in your heart."

There were many times that I heard Michael recite poetry. Sometimes the poems I heard came to be lyrics in his songs. For many years I doubted it was him, because I'd never "heard" that he wrote poetry. When his book "Dancing the Dream" came out, I started to believe the words were his.

I've had some people ask me if Michael was giving me songs, etc. and I've said no he hasn't. It's kind of strange because being twin flames you find that you both have a tremendous amount of similarities you never knew you had. I used to write song lyrics, make up my own songs, read self help books, dance, and truly thought I was the one that originated the saying "I love you more". I even put it in a book I wrote many years ago. I had read that twin flames Sri Aurobindo and Mother had this happen quite frequently and it still amazes me to this day. You don't know what really is your idea or what is the other's idea. The more I find out, the more I am amazed.

So today, Michael has taken the time to write with me. This isn't just from him and not just from me. We wrote this together and are dedicating it to all the people (his fans) and others who have done things on his behalf, been there for him and thought of him in kind and loving ways.

So for those that have kept the faith and are continuing to shine the light, this is for you; THANK YOU!

Miracle of Love

Every time you sing my songs

It plays upon my heart.

The words you sing, the love you send

Is like a piece of art

I wonder time and time again

About the love we’ve shared

The love I have, the love you give

Is truly ‘cause you’ve cared

My wish is that there is a time

When all of you can see

The love you gave

The love you start

When you pray for me

I’ve played the tune, you’ve spoke the part

Even though it seems we’re miles apart

But if I could share, just one more care,

I’d tell you from the heart

That you are the world, you are the light

That lifts the world in song

I am that man, I am that strong

To carry this along

Angels lead us on above

Paving the way with truth and love

Please be strong, don’t stray the path

This miracle is not God’s wrath

The kindness we can give each other

Make us strong, makes weakness shudder

Open your hearts, open your minds

The Miracle of Love is not far behind.

Blessings to everyone. May the love you have sent be sent back to you ten times over. Thank you so much!

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Seven

2011-12-19T11:19:00.000-08:00

"I'd like to tell you a story about my childhood. When I was little I used to wish on every star I would see. I'd wish for things like race cars. My early childhood dreams were shattered when I heard that there wasn't a Santa Claus. I was convinced that one day he would hear me and bring me something.

One day when I was alone I found myself wishing again. This time I was wishing for other things. A new bike and some skates. I wanted to be like the other kids and have a normal childhood. Although I didn't believe in Santa Claus anymore, I still believed in the power of wishing. When I was done I looked at the time and it was time to go home. I didn't know what time I would have to be to practice so I hurried up and looked for something, anything around the house to see if any of my wishes came true. I believed in magic . . . and there it was. A brand new bike. My father bought it the night before with money he had set aside from a gig we did in Detroit. Not only was I surprised but from that day forward I believed in wishing all over again.

When a miracle happens, most likely we are the ones that give birth to it. So create your miracle today by wishing for something you thought you would never get. You never know, you just might get it."

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Six

2011-12-18T11:29:00.000-08:00

"What is it that expresses a miracle most? Is it the trees that stand as silent witnesses among us or the mountains that tower above the earth adding splendor to the already implicit wonder of the earth? Who is it among us that can say what a miracle is? Maybe we all have a different definition of what a miracle actually is?

Today the miracle I would like to convey is that of love and splendor. It is those things that capture the attention and give way to expanding the heart and increasing our love. The wag of a puppy's tail, the smile of newborn baby, a wave from an admiring fan. These are all miracles to me.

Big or small it is the every day that we need to notice. The everyday of the everything that brings us joy and is truly a miracle that plants a seed within us. When the miracle occurs that seed sprouts wings and flies above us like a rainbow, increasing our compassion, opening our heart and blessing those around us.

Happy Sunday. On this day many years ago I would go on pilgrimages knocking door to door spreading the message of God's word. I look on this day today, and laugh because now I'm doing the same. Some things never change. When we love, we love. When we want to bring joy, we bring joy. When we want to sing, we sing. Don't let your music die. Let it live and do what it is that brings you the most joy today."

Charity worker Seany, 25, is a devoted Michael Jackson fan

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-460910/Lively-Gerry-new-favourite-win-BB.html#ixzz1gulrWAfd

Michael Jackson-The Love of his Life, Soul Mates and Mediums

2011-12-17T15:41:00.000-08:00

Michael was very spiritual when he lived. Even psychic. So when he passed, I thought to myself, it wouldn't surprise me that if he was murdered he would be "contacting" people. I did a search just recently because, like I've said, I've not really been "up" on what's been transpiring in the world about Michael Jackson. I mostly keep to myself and don't "look" for information.

A few posts got me wondering however, and that's what led me down this road. I found that there are some people who have said they are channeling Michael, some that say they are the loves of his life, some that say they are his soul mates. I won't discredit any of those claims or experiences. I won't, and have not ever claimed even that I am Michael Jackson's love of his life. Being a twin soul is very different from being someone's "love of their life".

Therefore, I'd like to explain a bit more about that statement. Currently, most of society is under the impression that the term itself "soul mate" means the perfect love. We tend to romanticize the concept, telling ourselves that it will be the answer to all of our loneliness and we will never look elsewhere for love again. Although it can be that, most often it is not always JUST that. Soul mates, twin souls, etc. are most often in our lives for learning. They mirror to us what it is about ourselves that we need to look at more closely so we can learn. I think that when most people read the term "twin soul" or "soul mate" they tend to think that the person claiming the term about the other is some how staking their "claim" on them.

When I turned a copy of my first manuscript into a publisher back when Michael was alive, I remember her saying to me "You can't claim Michael for yourself. He belongs to everyone." I found it strange, only because I had never thought about it that way. How was I claiming him for my own? I had already conceded that his life belonged to the world, not me. Ego is what makes us think we have the right to claim someone as our own, not spirit. I've seen Michael through the years with many women. I would get flashes of his life and yes, sometimes it would be with women. Those women were not me. Yet I harbored no ill feelings, and no jealousies. His happiness is what concerned me most. I could never claim that I was or am his only love of his life or he of mine.

All of us, I believe, have many lifetimes and during those lifetimes we experience many kinds of love and relationships. That's what makes the journey in life a journey. We learn from each one of those relationships how to love. The ultimate love, truly is the love that we find back from our beginnings. That would be the love we were created through. The love from God. Twin Souls then, because we were created out of the same love, will never "claim" one another for themselves. For we all know it is with the whole in mind and in love that we ever even came to be. Our relationships with other people then are NECESSARY if we are ever to come together. They are not merely just an option.

The other part I wanted to address is the thinning veil. As we progress into the next century, more and more people will be becoming more spiritually aware. The veil between the dimensions will be thinning and many people will be experiencing more. I've read a few Michael stories and they've bothered me enough to write this.

I've been psychic all of my life. I've seen and spoken to spirits all of my life. I've even given psychic readings and have had my cards, tea leaves, you name it, read for me. There is something, given the circumstances of who Michael Jackson was, I really feel you need to know.

First, there are many layers to us as individuals. We are like onions, and we have to peel these layers back to expose our true selves. The true self is the spirit. That's the part of us that lives forever. Getting there, however, is tricky. The ego, as I mentioned above, likes to keep us busy, so to speak. We are all products of our childhoods and beliefs, and the ego (personalities) that we have developed in this lifetime and others and this energy is very strong and real. Some traditions have termed it the watcher on the threshold.

How then, when you open yourself up to the beyond are you to get a clear picture of what you are receiving? If we all have "watchers on the thresholds" which contain a bunch of beliefs and patterns from many lifetimes and haven't worked through it all, what do you think we end up getting? Most likely, like a television set, a lot of interference.

If I'm a lonely woman, for instance, and I fantasize about a singer, lets say Michael Jackson and someone in spirit comes along that I can not see. I might be inclined, because he wants me to and I too want to believe that it's Michael Jackson. I will actively participate in my interpretation of who Michael Jackson was, and that spirit will participate with me. Because I can not see, I can only hear, or write, I will believe what this spirit tells me, because I know no different. My needs, my energy of what my needs are, are being projected into the universe and bring me what it is I desire.

This does not mean that I believe that no one has spoken to the "real" Michael Jackson. Only that as the veil thins and we all begin to experience things, you should know that there is a process. Just because a spirit comes to you, maybe just because you may hear a certain song, doesn't necessarily mean you should take it at face value. You must learn to discern who it might be, and if necessary send them on their way. My teacher always told me "If the light bulb goes out, don't automatically assume it's a spirit. Check the bulb first!"

I've also read about psychics in relation to Michael. "She told me ...." And although I too have done readings and have had them done for myself, and as many have told me about my twin ship with Michael, I never believed very many. I always have had to take a reading with a grain of salt. It has nothing to do with the fact that I don't believe in them. On the contrary. It is more due to the fact that through the years I've realized that the words Jesus himself said "my father's house has many mansions" is very true. I've noticed I can go into a reading and the reader will pick up on exactly my plans for my own future. Sometimes, she will tell me exactly what I expected to hear. Why? It depends on which "mansion" she's in. There are many levels to picking up energy for a reading. Every psychic reads based on their own ability to reach for the energy level they resonate at.

For instance, my girl friend and I once sat together and read for the same person. She came from a completely different area of her energy than I did. Then, taking into account our "watchers on the threshold" she "interpreted" what she got very differently as well. For instance, if I read for you and got a picture of an apple in my mind, and I hated apples because my mother ate one and died, I might give you something awful. I'm now "filtering" YOUR reading THROUGH my energy. A psychic has to be very diligent in keeping their own PERSONAL views in check when they read, and I can tell you from experience, that it is very difficult to do. That's why I always think it's best when people tune into themselves. You can be the captain of your own ship and navigate your own life based on your own feelings.

Going to a reader, speaking with spirits, isn't necessarily a bad thing. I believe that everyone's experiences are valid. After all, they are the ones experiencing them, not me. Who am I to say? What I am saying, however, is that as we progress and more things begin to happen like this, we should do our due diligence and educate ourselves just to make sure that what we believe to be transpiring is actually true.

Peace

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Five

2011-12-17T13:37:00.000-08:00

"So you're not going to believe what I have to tell you but it's true. It's time you know the truth about what is written. In society we tell people to believe in what they are told, in spirit, we believe in what we experience. How is it that this transition from one state of matter to another is so secretive? We have for ages known people of all nations and colors to die yet we still wonder at the continuation of life that still exists. We speculate on ghosts, channel spirits, and others seem to think that we just go to heaven and live happily ever after. Did you know that the native american Indians pray to their ancestors for assistance? Did you know that Jesus himself said that we would do all of the things he once did and more?

Today I want to tell you about my miracle. There was a day in my life when I thought everything that I had worked for, everything that I thought I had in my life was gone. That was the day I left the earth. My body died and I felt lost and confused. There were people on the other side of the veil that helped me see that I had not lost a thing. The only thing I lost was my body. Everything else was completely unnecessary.

I say this because putting all things into perspective I realized what I was missing from my life. It wasn't money, things, people or success, it was the knowledge that everything and everyone exist in perfect unity. That no matter where we are, no matter who we are or who we think we are, we still all exist together. That no one truly leaves us, no one truly ever really leaves.

They say we leave footprints on the hearts of those we have touched in life, but I believe it's much more. Today the miracle is that all that we give of ourselves, all that we think and all that we do will forever play a part in the matrix of the universe. Our words, our thoughts our deeds, all fall into alignment with all there is.

If you ever wonder where someone has gone in your life, you need only close your eyes and feel their presence in your heart. The footprints they have left are real. Its called love and it's that love that resonates at all times within you that is the miracle for today.. Peace and love, much love (blowing kisses) Michael "

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Four

2011-12-16T10:53:00.000-08:00

Today I'd just like to say that if you believe that this coming from me, thank you, because if it did then I feel really smart! This is a good one . . .

"Day four of miracles brings us to the challenge of believing in things that seem distant or remote.

I believe that everything that happens to us, happens for a reason. Sometimes you think when things go badly you are singled out or being punished for things you think maybe you've done badly. On the contrary. You are only being led in the direction that is most beneficial for your soul. The soul resonates at a frequency and similar vibrations attract themselves to it, thereby bringing you those situations that would be most beneficial to your growth and being. How many times have you looked back on what seemed to be a bad situation and it turned out to be one of the best turning points in your life?

Today's miracle is then to believe in the compass of your soul. For it is the soul that ultimately brings you to your purpose in life and your destiny. The miracle is the journey."

- Michael Jackson (present today with "friends" including Elizabeth Taylor and her cute little white pooch!)

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Three

2011-12-15T12:43:00.000-08:00

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Three

I have to say personally I got a little nervous today - I feel like I'm required to perform now that I said I've committed to these 12 days. I'm like "Michael?! Are you there?! What up dude?! Are you going to give me something or what?" He laughed, said he has to test me; test my faith . . .but if he ever does leave, you know maybe takes up residence in his old pad to haunt the people there just for fun (just kidding!) I'll tell you straight out. "sorry but Michael Jackson seems to have left the building".

So here is his miracle for today:

"Miracles are two fold;
One is that they always seem to have a magical essence associated with them.
Two is that they always seem to take our breath away.

Every day in your life you are faced with challenges. These challenges seem to encompass most of the day for almost everyone. Seemingly life is full of challenges, but we rarely stop to see the beauty of that which is around us waiting to be noticed. I see beauty in trees, in life, and in the air. Nature holds a beauty all in of itself that we rarely stop to notice. How is it that a bird finds food when he needs it? Or the skies paint themselves in colors of the rainbow? Is it magic, a miracle or both?

Today's miracle has to do with remembering. Remembering Gods' beauty in the things that surround us. It is the gift of beauty and love that has created every miracle in existence. When I see a child's face I see a miracle. When I see a tree, it is the same miracle, but a different face. Don't you see? We are all miracles, living in a miraculous place. Just take a moment to notice those things that have been miracles from the very beginning of time."

The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day Two

2011-12-14T13:23:00.000-08:00

Day two of the twelve days of miracles brings us the following message from Michael:

"You don't have to look far for a miracle. Sometime miracles are in your own back yard. The words that someone can say to you can soften your heart, or bring a smile to your face.

The miracle of our creation is the first miracle of twelve. The miracle of our "creating" is the second. Be inspired to change the way you look, the way you act or the way you feel. Taking it a step further, try changing the way someone else feels by offering your kindness in words, actions or deeds. Now you will not only be your own miracle, but a miracle to someone else."

Scam Organizations and The Twelve Days of Miracles - Day One

2011-12-13T17:45:00.000-08:00

I've just read some disturbing information about the fans of Michael Jackson being scammed by several different entities designed to exploit Michael's name, dream and the money of the fans for the same. This world, unfortunately, is full of those people who will always seek to put money in front of any heart felt gesture. Michael stated many times that he would do just the opposite. He has said that he would die broke giving his money away to the less fortunate. His life ended because of greed, yet this world still reeks of it.

When I first started researching information on what has been transpiring during the past two years since Michael's death with the fans, I was amazed at how many fans were dedicating their time and efforts towards projects they felt would be close to Michael's heart. I remember feeling so bad. I hadn't done anything. Here there were literally thousands of fans who have with Michael in mind, picked up their torches to shed light in a dimly lit world. For a time, I thought, what could I ever have to offer? Even the blogs by fans had a ton of information and hours of research on them regarding the nature of his passing. I still am amazed at the outpouring of love and generosity that exists among the true fans. Because there are those people in the world that choose to cloak their deeds in darkness, I hope that those true fans never feel as if they should shame themselves into the darkness with those who aren't doing the "right" thing. One light, one torch, can light an entire room. There is a saying by Paulo Coelho, a favorite author of mine, which says: "You are the light of the world. Shine and darkness will disappear."

As we approach Christmas, I can't help but to think of the man Jesus. Seems most of the people who do things that are beneficial to the masses are most always taken advantage of and persecuted as well. I remember when Michael was going through one of his child molestation trials I told him he was like Jesus. He was being persecuted for the very thing that he cared about most. Some people took that statement out of context when he said it, saying he thought he was Jesus. I suppose I have a different view of Jesus than some people. I believed Jesus to be a man, who was not unlike the "potential" of any one of us. To reach his state, however, the state of an ascended one (one who is close to Allah, God, or the source) one has to go through many trials. Jesus certainly did, and if you check into any other ascended being's past you'll find the same path - trials. Maybe this is what is meant by "walking through the fire". In the Bible Isaiah 43:2 says: "When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you"

"Like the old Indian proverb says, do not judge a man until you've walked 2 moons in his moccosins.
Most people don't know me, that is why they write such things in wich most is not true. I cry very very often because it hurts and I worry about the children, all my children all over the world, I live for them.
If a man could say nothing against a character but what he could prove, history could not be written.
Animals strike not from malice but because they want to live, it is the same with those who criticize, they desire our blood not our pain. But still I must achieve I must seek truth in all things. I must endure for the power I was sent forth, for the world for the children.
But have mercy, for I've been bleeding a long time now. MJ."

Handwritten note published in People (12 October 1987)

So maybe the moral of the story here is, is that we need always be mindful that no matter how difficult it may be or how lonely or frustrated we become, we should remember these words. That there were others before us that walked this path and endured great suffering in order to bring the world much light. I believe that many of Michael's fans have already lit the world in some of it's darkest places. I believe that this is the very thing that made Michael Jackson gain the fan base that he did. Some people, most people, need to be shown love before they can give it. So shine your light, and be the light to guide others to the place of healing and let us all begin to heal the world remembering the words Michael wrote himself:

"In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe".

Twelve Days of Miracles - Day One

I believe we find strength in knowing not only that others have endured, but in knowing the peace and love that exists that we all too often ignore in this world. To remind you, Michael is suggesting that we do a

"Twelve Days of Miracles" series. Each day I will post a miracle. (And, I'm doing this on great faith, because like I told him - I don't know if I can come up with 12 miracles! lol So glad he can) So here is the miracle for today from none other than himself, Michael Jackson:

"A miracle is not only something to believe in, it is something that exists. To believe in a miracle means that you believe in God and everything that exists is in His presence. I know this because I'm here. I am a miracle. I AM a miracle of God and so are you. So your number one miracle for today is you. You are the miracle. The miracle of a gift from God. Choose wisely what you do with your gift because it is yours and yours alone."
- Michael Jackson

New Developments; Paris Jackson

2011-12-12T10:21:00.000-08:00

There has been a few developments of late:

Conrad Murray has officially filed for an appeal and is representing himself.
Dr. Klein (who's name I mentioned during the trial) is being investigated by the Medical Board in the State of California. http://www.bet.com/news/celebrities/2011/12/05/michael-jackson-s-dermatologist-questioned.html
The Tribute Concert promoters that Michael was so upset about in a previous post here for "not appropriately using funds" have filed for bankruptcy http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1675058/michael-jackson-concert-promoters-bankruptcy.jhtml
And last but certainly not least, confirmation of Paris's Jackson's OWN decision to star in an upcoming film has come: http://www.contactmusic.com/news/paris-jackson-daughter-of-michael-to-star-in-debut-movie_1274087 The article confirms what Michael has stated here previously in the Daddy's Little Girl Post: " But her decision to do this show and the movie was based on her feelings for her dad. It is the part of her that is crying out for him, he says, that has made her decide to do what ever it is that she is embarking on. He is proud of her for making this decision on her own, he says. This was not something forced upon her, it was something she wanted to do."

According to the article, she had to talk grandma into it and the movie will be based on family issues and ecological change for the planet. Both are things that were (are) close to Michael's heart and things he shared with the children. I can't tell you how proud he is and how excited I am to see her do this. Paris is destined for great things, on her own terms. He hopes that she finds great healing, joy and satisfaction from this and he says, this one thing will lead to many great things for her. Wait and see, he says, she will make her mark on the world. She has a good head on her shoulders, she is grounded and caring and knows what to do. She is not a "shrinking violet" he says, far from it! She is inspiring, generous and a beautiful soul. Looks like we can expect to see much more coming from the true Princess of Pop!

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11:11 and Approaching the Spiritual Revolution

2011-12-08T12:37:00.001-08:00

The Mayan calendar ends on December 21st 2012 and they have predicted the end of an old reality. The famous prophet Edgar Cayce said that by the end of the New Age of Aquarius, we will become a completely telepathic civilization. This is a 5th dimensional state of being.

As I've stated here before, Twin Flames have a special contribution to this "shift" into the new reality. Many twins are coming together and the energy on the planet is being changed.

There are interesting synchronicities that often pave the way to twin flame reunions. They often involve the numbers 11:11. This is common in Twin Flame soul unions. Eleven is considered to be a master number and is thought to be the number of the spiritual messenger. Two 'ones' are united to form pillars to the heavenly gate - the connection between yin and yang, female and male. The significance of two into one is the perfect symbol of a Twin Flame.

Most every meeting I had with Michael involved synchronicity. It seemed and still seems almost unbelievable at times how things "magically" came together. Most interesting to me was the dates of events. For instance I first thought a boy in the sixth grade was my "twin". His birthday was 5-20. That date rang out to me, and I thought sure it was "him" until I didn't get the vibe. Years later I was overcome with the feeling I had to leave town to meet Michael. The date of 5-20 stuck out in my mind. I later received a postcard from a local radio station that had a song of the day for every day of May. We were to meet in Disney World and the contest "just happened" to be for a trip to Disney World. The song of the day for 5-20 was "Will You Be There", by Michael Jackson. I didn't have money to go to Disney, but knew I had to be there to see him. It was very important.

I decided to call the radio station, repeatedly at work. The phone had three lines, and I decided I would "cheat" by using all three. While dialing, an associate noticed that I was frantically trying to get through and asked what I was trying to win. He then said "I have a place in Orlando. Do you want to use it?" I kept dialing, because it was a time share and thought it probably wouldn't be for the time, or he was just kidding me. So while I was dialing, he got on another line and asked if the unit would be available. Pausing, he looked at me and asked "When do you want to go?". I didn't answer him because I was trying to concentrate on dialing the number. I then head him say "How about the week of May 20th". At that moment they announced a winner on the radio and I dropped the phone.

Turned out that meeting was very important. Michael followed me around with Lisa Marie Presley and her two children during that trip. I knew he was there, however, didn't recognize his disguise (as pictured at right). I actually thought it was someone "creepy" and tried to get away from him. I finally "got it" when I got home. He was shown in a clip on Entertainment Tonight on the television. They remarked how bad his disguise was and I felt stupid for not recognizing him.

The press reported that they were married on the 18th of May (see this link) http://swoopscoop.wordpress.com/2009/07/01/exclusive-michael-jackson-never-married-lisa-marie-presley/. However, they were both in Disney at that time. I know, I was there. So that would be hard to believe for me personally. I remember the "news" coming out and what is "reported" isn't always what is true. I think they have like five different wedding dates.

Anyway, when he passed I still didn't really know about the 11 thing. I was on a call with Dr. Maurie Pressman, author of Twin Souls, Finding Your True Spiritual Partner. He asked what date(s) we met on, if there was an 11 associated with them. At first I said no. The first date that popped out was 5-20. I was thinking maybe 7, but not eleven. Then I started seeing 11:11 on the clock and thought it was just because he mentioned it and I was starting to pay attention. Thinking back, I then realized Michael asked me to meet him in Paris when I was down there. At first at thought "What?! Paris? You mean France?", but he meant in Epcot. The date was 5-19-1994. I remember because when we got back to the room I had heard Jackie Onassis had passed. Then adding those numbers together 5+1+9+1+9+9+4=38 Then adding the 3 and 8 together = 11.

I didn't know still why 11 didn't just pop out at me. I'd remembered after he first passed I had just wanted him to go on to the light. I didn't want to hold him here by my thoughts, yet I kept feeling him around me. I had taken my older son to college and by the time we got there it was late so we ordered pizza to be delivered to the room. I remember thinking to myself, "gosh I really feel Michael strongly right now, but why would he be here? I'm sure he's gone on to the light. I'd get some sort of sign if he was really here."

Just then there was a knock at the door. It was the pizza delivery guy. He gave me the receipt and I signed it. I noticed his name was Michael Jackson and I laughed. I kept the receipt for a nice memory, then ran across it recently again. I looked at the date again 8/21/2009. Adding the numbers up this time, I got the double 11. 8+2+1=11 and 2+0+0+9=11.

So what exactly does this mean? Numbers carry with them a "vibrational" energy. The number 11 obviously resonates with something very spiritual, and most often a message of some sort. Many times if twins are to meet in this lifetime, they will also have the number 11 in their birth dates. Michael's birth day was on 8-29 where the 2 and 9 would add up to 11. Mine is in November, the eleventh month of the year. Kind of makes you think there just might be a divine order to all things after all!

The video below talk about "Indigo" children and the future. Many children coming to the planet right now are telepathic. It does seem as if this "new reality" is definitely coming upon us.

Michael's Ghost/Daddy's Little Girl/Conrad Murray Appeal

2011-12-03T18:23:00.001-08:00

Michael has brought it to my attention today that he wishes me to clarify something. He said some people may think that I'm living with his ghost due to the recent post. Michael is not an "earth bound" spirit. He says "I am a spirit waiting for a loved one to cross over".

Many times when we have people we care about pass, they may choose to come back around and help us out. My grandfather, for instance, who passed on in the early eighties chose to come and be a spirit guide to one of my sons born in the nineties. My grandmother often helps me and she passed about seven years ago. Many times twin flames will wait for their flames to pass and join them before deciding on whether or not to reincarnate. Sometimes they act as spirit guides and help them complete their mission together.

I didn't give a second thought to the post. Michael brought this to my attention today and so obviously this needed to be said and clarified. I have a tendency to think sometimes that everyone just "knows". Sometimes I don't think about how it might sound to someone else, and apologize if I caused anyone any confusion.

If you've ever heard the term "guardian angel", then you might think of it like that. Most everyone has an entourage of spirits and/or angels that help them during their lifetime. Sometimes it's a proding to avoid danger, sometimes an inclining on where you left your keys, or something telling you to do something that you don't normally do, but after you do it, you're glad you did. Many times these spirits are friends from our past lives, or relatives from this or past lives. They know you're human and how hard it is to be living on the earth sometimes and are most often very patient and helpful for your earth journey.

Michael had many spirit guides and angels by his side. If you saw the Conrad Murray trial, there was even a reference to the fact that Michael said his "divine guidance" was telling him to get another doctor. He was very in touch with his essence and the spirits around him.

We also talked about his kids a bit today too. I read that Paris will be on the Ellen Show on Thursday in the United States. Some people say that Michael wouldn't like this. I asked what he thought about it. He never wants to post a lot about his kids, but agreed this would be appropriate.

The issue seems not to be whether or not he approves of Paris being on the show. The way he is putting it to me is that many times children do things or even become people we don't intend them to be. For instance, I may have dreams for my son to be the president of the United States but he may become a pizza delivery guy. The point is, is that although we may have the best intentions for our children we still do not have control of all they do and what they become. Sure, he says, she has a lot of influence around her. But her decision to do this show and the movie was based on her feelings for her dad. It is the part of her that is crying out for him, he says, that has made her decide to do what ever it is that she is embarking on. He is proud of her for making this decision on her own, he says. This was not something forced upon her, it was something she wanted to do. There is an overwhelming feeling of pride in "becoming" who she was meant to be . . sounds like she is definitely "daddy's little girl". :)

http://ellen.warnerbros.com/2011/12/paris_jackson_-_thursday_december_8_2011.php

In other news, I've been waiting for this: Conrad Murray has filed for an official appeal:
http://www.contactmusic.com/news/conrad-murray-to-appeal-conviction_1267276

Life with Michael

2011-12-02T06:45:00.001-08:00

I've recently seen a few posts on the net and stories about people either saying they are Michael's twin flame or that they are talking to him. I think I've said before, that I can't speak for anyone else, only myself. I also want to note here that I have never posted anything about him other than here. I'm not going around trying to convince anyone I'm his twin flame. I actually started this blog to have a voice for him at the beginning of his trial. The twin flame part was just to ensure to others that we were connected, and have been. I really had no idea there were so many others out there!

I wanted to write a little something about day to day stuff that goes on and what it's like for me. This "connection" is not something new for me. Michael and I have spoken ever since I can remember. My first memories were from kindergarten. At that time I had no idea who he was. I had other spirit friends at that time too. For all I knew, it could have been one of them, or just an imaginary friend. I didn't know it was Michael until he told me it was him. Of course, I called him a lier. When I asked what his name was, and who he was, he said "You wouldn't believe me if I told you.". I said "Try me". I had to prod it out of him. I asked if he was going to tell me he was Jesus or something. When he told me, I didn't believe him. He said, "I told you you wouldn't believe me." I had to apologize. Then, still not believing, I tongue in cheek asked him to meet me somewhere to "prove it". We agreed to meet at the airport the next night and it took years for me to still get it through my head that it was really him. I don't know why I felt like it was ok and real to talk to "other" people that were dead and not a "live" one.

Life, up until his death, was like a roller coaster. Our first meeting turned into many. Separation from a twin flame is extremely painful. My life was full of extreme loneliness. Its the kind that permeates you, even though the room could be filled with people. Michael being in the spotlight was not easy for me. I had people ask me on occasion if I was a fan of his. I can say now, that I was not. I wasn't like his fans, now that I know about his fans. Matter of fact my path with him led me to throw all of his music out at one time. I tried to get away from information about him. Everyone that knew I had a connection would approach me with a "did you hear . . ". It was painful, and made it more painful when I didn't understand why we couldn't come together. Although we met many times, it takes many meetings to come into full union and we both had karma that needed to be completed. I was married to someone else for many years, filing for divorce only one month before he passed.

The twin flame path is not easy. It is so much self discovery, self doubt, isolation, contemplation and a sincere reverence for God and His creations. There is an innate feeling and desire to serve the Father and all of His makings. The wholeness and confidence you gain as an individual with God is what ultimately brings your twin flame into union with you. The more you reach to be whole with another before this happens, the more you postpone your union.

Prior to Michael's death, we'd usually speak at two times. In the morning and in the evening. He's written about this in some of his songs. If you think about it, you'll understand that it was the best times for us. Only because in the morning when you wake up you are still in the "in between" state. Your mind is not fully conscious, but not completely unconscious yet either. Same with the evening. Your soul, and it's knowledge reside more in our unconscious, so communication at those two times was much easier and clearer. I would reach out to him, or him to me. At that time we were able to "connect" even seemingly physically for a while. It felt as though he was actually with me, but not really there. Our bodies seemed to merge about 1/2 way. It was like another energetic body joining yours.

I'm writing this for two reasons, I guess, because I still find some of these experiences incredibly amazing, and because Michael wants people to know who he really was. We've had "words" recently and it's taken me a lot to get him to let me post some of these things.

Now, after Michael's passing, it's been very difficult to adjust. Our "mergings" however, are closer than they ever were before and I can tell when he is not in my "space". It almost feels like there is a part of me gone; like my arm or leg and I don't know where it's gone. It's strange. The more I think about it logically, the more it fascinates me. So I know when he leaves. And although he's claimed to me he won't leave me alone, because we've both felt so alone most of our lives, he goes on "visits". This is the part he didn't want me to tell you because he says it's not one of his finest moments. I think, however, it's hilarious, and it is definitely something to tell people if he wants people to know the real him.

I've read some "MJ twin flames" addressing others like "Beloveds . .", "Dear ones . . . " My experience with Michael is not like that. So to tell you about my experience in the incredible, wildly fascinating, strange twin flame world I am living in now, these are some of the things that happen to me:

I feel his presence is gone. Hours later I can feel him and ask where's he been. "I can't tell you.", he says. "Why?", I ask. "Because it's not good", he answers giggling. I'm like "what? Now you have to tell me!" He's laughing and says "I went and was knocking on the door at the house I used to live in" I start laughing too. "Is there someone there?" I ask. "Yes", he says "some people that know the executives at AEG". I laugh even harder. I want to write it on the blog. He doesn't. "It's not like it's my finest moment" he says. I say "I disagree. I think it's one of your best!"

I look in the mirror to see how my clothes look. I'm older now and I've been increasingly concerned about this roll of fat on my back. I don't see anyone, don't sense anyone. My grandmother who has passed comes around quite frequently too, so most of the time I suppose I dont' really pay too much attention. So I look to see if I have the bra fat doing it's rolling reveal from the back. I feel him come behind me. "You look beautiful.", he says. He pauses, then says "Except for that back fat" . .

The other day he helped me set up a budget and invest in a good stock. He is more financially amazing than I thought he was, although I'd never tell him that, because it would go right to his head! lol

He wants me to open a foundation and I tell him I have no idea how. He'll help me he says. He has me write a billion dollars on every mirror I have in my bedroom and bathroom.

My new puppy is biting on me and I swat her butt. He yells at me. "Don't hit her!" His sweet voice makes me laugh. My son teases me the same way when I try to yell at my puppy. "No, don't do that." He imitates me in my soft spoken, sissy voice. Michael's voice sounds the same and I can't help but laugh.

When I had an extremely bad day, I found myself crying hard in my bathroom. He stood for a while telling me I'm not alone, but it didn't help. I have a million friends in spirit but no one there for me in the physical. He panicked and I could hear him call "Elizabeth". She came and "talked me down" so to speak. I never knew Elizabeth. Obviously, she has been and still is a great friend to Michael, and now to me too. I found her to be extremely good in crises. I couldn't believe the compassion, patience and words she used. I am so grateful to her. But I laugh again. After I couldn't help but think of Michael panicking and calling for her "Elizabeth help!". I must be mean, but found it funny and tease him.

My son comes up to me and tells me he loves me. He never does this and I know Michael is behind it, impressing him.

When I look in the mirror and see blemishes, I can't help but pick at them. He is constantly telling me to stop it. "Don't do that", he says. "you'll make it worse".

My neighbors son comes to her house. He likes to joke around so Michael and I decide we'll get the squirt gun out and ambush him from my sons window when he comes out again.

When he first passed, I tried to send him on. Thinking I was keeping him here and that he should go on to the light. He wouldn't budge. Told me he wasn't leaving me. So I started to singing, loudly and very badly to punish him so he would leave. Told him I should have been the famous singer. God so obviously chose wrong!

I ignored him, thinking he would move on. He contacted me during a meditation and asked how he could get through to his daughter, she's not listening to him. I told him to enter her dream state. That night he entered mine.

There is much more. He often is with his family. I can always tell when there is something wrong. He likes to check on the kids and has had concerns for his mother. She is a disciplinarian, he says. Much more strict than I am with my kids. His kids are his sanctuary. I too, am sensitive to them. He doesn't want me posting much about them. He even doesn't want me posting much about "someone else". That's what our "words" were about. He says "someone" is very powerful and I shouldn't be posting things about him. I don't know what he's capable of, he says. I told him I didn't care I wanted to get to the bottom of what has happened to him. Get it out. He told me it doesn't matter. I've taken a few days. I've contemplated Murray's situation, and have come to accept his wishes for now. Maybe he knows what's best. What will my words do? If it comes out, what punishment will there be?

Conrad Murray - 4 years

2011-11-29T10:32:00.001-08:00

Conrad Murray was just sentenced to the maximum 4 years of prison for his crime against Michael Jackson.
I feel it's, again, bittersweet. Although the judge felt it callous that Murray did not take responsibility for what he did, I felt Murray justified it by knowing he wasn't the one that gave the injection.

His defense team will be filing for an appeal and it remains to be seen what time he actually will serve or where, due to LA County laws and overcrowding.

Michael says; "I feel that no amount of time will replace what I had. Again, I don't feel anyone will do justice to any of these men. I hope that in the future you will all take into account all that has been given of every human being on the planet. Our actions, our thoughts, our wishes and our dreams are all a part of us and the universe. Belief in yourself the most crucial thing you can possess. Don't let others or your opinion of others influence your knowledge of what is.
Conrad Murray is not, and was not solely responsible for my death.

I again, thank you so much, really for the support of my family and children."